“good!” the loud cheers came from the evil choreographer’s mouth for Jessica. All eyes widened in total surprised, knowing that the choreographer always had ‘hatred’ feeling toward Jessica, so its quite amusing that suddenly she compliment her.

“you did very good job today, your concentration is so great nowdays.. I don’t need wasting my energy more..” she made a remark. Jessica simply smiled and bowed.

“lets called it a day” choreographer teacher said and packed her things.

Nine angels are collapsed right away on the ground.
“yah, I will order chicken.. what do you guys want?” asked yuri.
“lets just buy a box, since we should maintain our diet” tiffany said, in charge of manager. And the rest are agreeing since they knew tiffany words are right.

Sica’s phone beep and her smile appear when she read the message.

“nugu ya?” sooyoung teased, putting a wide smug on her face.
“who else.. that dragon” hyoyoen remark and the group broke into laughter.
“ah.. how is his condition?” asked yuri.

Jessica shrugged.
“he just said that tomorrow he can recharged from hospital. I felt sorry because he can’t go out yet due the terrible issues. He is all okay but since this scandal, he can’t leave the hospital yet .. he should hide and make an excuses.. until the issues cooled down” she explained.

Sunny suddenly appear next to her sica with serious look.
“honestly saying… do you really love him?” she asked. All the rest member eyes turn alert on sunny question. Honestly love is always sensitive problem for Jessica. All of them knew how fragile her heart is.

They can’t blame sunny since they curious with this too.

Jessica started with a big sigh and throw her eyes away.
“for such a great man, how come I’m not falling for him” she said. But her eyes saying different since its became teary. “But its harder than I thought..” she said. Finally caught sunny’s eyes.

“there is the time I felt so much happy because I have someone give me attention. But there is a time when I felt so misery because I felt wronged.” She explained. Tears start clouding her eyes.

Tired. She doesn’t has any words but tired.

“I cowardly walking into jiyong side to seek distraction, while trying to drown myself into his great love. But honestly, I don’t have such big courage to love him.. I want to give him love as much as he did but..” tears keep streaming down on her face.

All of her member couldn’t help but staring her in pity, with sunny patting her back to slightly comforting her.

“.. I did my best but I can’t help but feel wrong. Im trapped on my own feeling.” She said.

Sooyoung sighs and cleared . “If I could say something to you, all I can said is.. of course you feel wronged. Since you have your heart laid on someone else. But I don’t think you don’t love jiyong ..” sooyoung pointed out.

Now all attention turned into her.
“I want to give him love as much as he did , you said.. that’s love.” She said. Yuri nodded in agreement.

“your intention to give him love, its what you called love sica yah.. you love him, even without you knowing. Its just because your past that locked the door In your heart” yuri add.

“right, what yuri and sooyoung said are right. Well I don’t have such experience so I don’t feel the exact feeling you have. But let me sort of this problem..” taeyeon said. “everything can be changed. Person, condition, nature,.. all the things” she continued.

“ your heart isn’t exception either. You do love kwon jiyong Jessica..” taeyeon said. Jessica keep in silent. “but your memories with kris hanging on your heart tightly. You can’t help but suffocating. Even if you are with jiyong, even if you are happy with him.. but since another person you keep alive in your heart, you can’t help but feeling wronged.” Taeyeon keep pointed things and sica fell deeper on her thought.

“let me asked you question.. now If suddenly jiyong ran away from you..can you let him go?” taeyeon asked and now Jessica trying to proceed whats on her mind and her heart.

Kwon jiyong left her. It must be upsetting for her. Since he became someone who for the first time after years .. somehow, brighter.

“ I can’t said that I can let him go” sica answered.
“that’s it.. “ hyoyeon now speak up. “that’s we are talking about. You love him” she continued. Sica throw her a blank look.

Her mind is such a mess now. She couldn’t help but to think about two person.. jiyong and kris. And another one who suddenly showed up .. which is she found look like kris.

“unnie.. is there something wrong?” yoona asked out of the blue. She is the one who always aware and witty about sica’s condition since her ex boyfriend, particulary sica’s bestfriend. They know that taecyeon knew more about sica’s love since she always honest with taec about her feeling. Shes that kind of type, they aware.

“days ago.. I met someone” she started and focused back to her. “I happen to saw him at street, concert, backstage.. and I assumed him as stalker.” She said. Finally smiling. “but days ago when I visited jiyong at hospital, I bump into him” she said.

She lose her smile.

“his eyes.. his presence.. I felt him so familiar. I thought he was kris for once. I even had hallucinate when he called my real name. his voice sounds like kris. Exactly..” Jessica explained. She could saw her members face are all confused.

Wait.. come to think it.. he didn’t say anything that day. Sica thought.

“but his face totally different. I know that.. its strange but, I knew kris very well since I spent my life with

him. He is just too similar with kris. So I asked him to have a little chit chat date.” Jessica explained and all the member jaw drop.

“you what???” sunny shrieked.

“we are talking.. more like I am talking by myself.. but then I found I’m getting scared.. he is way too similar with kris. I don’t know why but I’m really scared. Maybe I’m scared that its just my imagination. Maybe I just pulled into his similiarities.. that is when I realized that I can’t guarantee I can love kris the way it used to be. I can’t love him without hurting..” she said.

Yuri shook her head in sorry.

“your trauma getting deeper. I know lately you drink some medicines to relaxing your mind. I don’t know that you have this serious trauma..” she pointed which is surprised her members.

“you have what?????” now its tiffany turn to shrieked. Jessica slightly pulled her ear away from tiffany loud scream.
“right. I visit phsycian lately because of this stress. They said  just need to focus with my business to forget it..thats why I choose to focuse more” Jessica finally saying the truth.

“I’m so sorry sica, I don’t know anything because my own business..” tiffany said in repenting. Sica shook her head.
“nono.. don’t blame yourself.it all mine.. its my fault..”

…

Kris wake up in great headache. The first thing he see is luhan with apron on. He chortled witnessing the older man walking back and forth in the kitchen.

“you look exactly like an ahjumma” kris commented.
“is that the right words to said after your sober?” luhan talked back.

“ah.. but why my body seems strange..” kris complained.
“you caught in cold yifan. Who told you to drink so much you know that you don’t stand alcohol” luhan protest.

Kris chuckled. “make me soup then” he requested.
“just eat my porridge. I have to work soon. am I your sooyeo-“ luhan stopped and bit his lips for his sudden mentioned name. kris bitterly smiled and retreat his back to his room.

“I’ll just get my sleep.. see you later” he bid goodbye.

Kris sat back on his bed. And his mind flew back on the past

“yahh.. don’t drink that..” kris snatched his glass from sooyeon’s and prevent her to drink his water. She raised her eyebrow.
“wae???” she whined. He sighed and pulled his blanket higher before rested his back on the bedboard.
“you can caught cold.. I don’t want you to get sick” he said.
“you don’t let me touch you.. what is it..” she protested. He smiled adoring her.
“if you touch me you can got cold.. just bear with it” he reasoned.

She pouted and in a second she snatched back his glass and drink it.
“yahhh..” he shouted. She put the glass down and stuck her tongue.
“what if you get sick!” he scold her.

 “just get in cold what’s the problem.. now that I drank with your glass.. I’m getting bored..” she said. She raised her eyebrow and flip her hair. She straightened her back and leaned in.

“do you want to kissing?” she said and leaned in. kris stared in unbelievable. She just laughed at his priceless expression before leaning in and give him a loving kiss, cuddling him.

He finally gave up on her cute way to love him.

Kris pulled back from his dozed off before clenched his hand.
“No I can’t do this.. I can’t get in her way.. She is happy now. Its enough” he suggested himself.

..

today is girl's generation come back. they did their best to performing their perfection. jessica is also isn't exception. she paced back and forth in front of the miror. she looked beautiful even with male suit.

"unnie.. look whos coming here.." yoona shrieked and jessica turned her attention. jiyong stood in the middle of door with bouquete in his hand. jessica's eyes widened.

"hey.. how come you get out from hospital. you said that you can released this night" she asked. the male just shrugged his shoulder.

he walked inside the room and shrieked could be heard.
"just get married!!" sooyoung squealed and squeezed next to yoona. clapping their hand together. jessica rolled her eyes and put her smile when the male is shyly stood in front of her. jiyong give the bouquete toward sica.

"thanks.." sica mumbled. jiyong smiled. "anytime.. fighting on your comeback. I'll be waiting here .." he reminding. ignoring the loud cheers around them.

jessica facepalmed herself, embarrased with her member's attitude.

"snsd in five minutes please.." the crew shout broke her attention. the member shifting on their ground and hurryly went to the stage.

"okay.. wait here for me okay." she said. jiyong reluctantly nodded.

jiyong witnessing her back getting further. each steps she made, jiyong hearts felt content.
'that girl, she is mine..' he thought and smiled to his own obsessive feeling. he's just can't imagine living without her.

call him crazy but he is ready to fight everyone just to get in her side. he promised it.

he smiled while monitoring her. he smiled seeing how nervous she was. he smiled at her little mistakes. and he smiled at every little thing she did.

call him crazy. call him weird, but the only thing he worried is her to get sick. her to get hurt. her to get tired.

"I wonder what magic you give me, jung jessica" he said and keep his eyes on the monitor.

...

jessica run into jiyong's car and put her seatbelt on. the second they enter the car, jiyong should step the pedal faster. they should go faster before paparazzi caught them again just like last time. they should more careful on whatever they did if the didn't want to caught.

he can hear jessica let out a big breath as she closed her eyes. jiyong softened at her tired figure.
"are you tired?" he asked. she nodded her head in reluctant.
"I didn't sleep a minute since yesterday" she said.

jiyong couldn't help but feel bad.
"should we just drive you to your dorm? we can go out after your comeback shows" he said. jessica opened her eyes and offer him a sweet smile.

"no you don't have to.. lets just go to hospital and get your things.. we can go to wherever you want. I'll follow you" she said. jiyong couldn't help but melted at her sweet consideration. "let me just closed my eyes a while.." she said.

jiyong nodded. one of his hand reach her hand and give her a massage,

"sleep a while sica.. I'll let you know if we're stop" he said. she closed her eyes to let her mind shutted for a while.

..

the car stopped at the hospital parking lot. jiyong tuck his seatbelt off of him and turn his body to his girlfriend who soundlessly sleeping. he softened at her peaceful sleeping figure. he caressing her hair and down to her cheek. he gave her a little peck on her cheek before she stirred from her dream.

"sica.. we're here.." he said. jessica slowly opened her eyes and saw hospital sign up above their car. jiyong hand keep caressing her cheek to wake her up.

"we're here..?" she confirmed. "let's get your things.." she said. jiyong smiled and follow her to get out from the car.

she headed to his room meanwhile he headed to song qian room to do some matter. jessica packed his things in a big bag.

"done" she clapped her hand and proudly smiled at her hard working. she realized that she never packed things to another people but kris and snsd. now come to think it, jiyong isn't a mere person for her.

the knocked at the door make sica back to her sense.

"it must be jiyong.." she said. she opened the door and surprised at another presence standing in the middle of the door.

".. yes.. May I help you?" jessica asked. the man with white coat stared at her intently.
".. are you coming here to checked on Jiyong? he is on song qian's room now.. you can headed there" she said when the man didn't answered her.

the man sighed and hung his head low.
"I'm not coming for Mr. jiyong" he said. the man handed her a document.

jessica raised her eyebrow in confused.
"health record? is this jiyong's?" she asked. the white coated man, who look like a doctor or nurse give her smile.

"jung sooyeon.. try to believe in your heart." he said. jessica eyes widened in alarmed. "I'm so sorry but I should do this to make you believe in your heart.. and I might be broke you with mr. jiyong in order to make you understand" he said and walked away.

jessica stared at the man and the document back and forth.

"what did he mean?" she asked.

she stared at the health record document he just handed to her.

"Park Chanyeol health record" written on the first page. before she can flipped the next page, jiyong enter the room with song qian next to him.

"..thats okay, you should coming here once in a month though.. and drink less caffein kwon jiyong" song qian scold. jiyong meekly smiled. jessica flip back the document and shove it into her bag.

"i packed everything" sica said. jiyong eyes widened.
".. you packed it? I can do it myself. beside you are too tired sica" jiyong scold. sica smiled sweetly and shook her head.
"Its nothing, I'm doing nothing anyway.. lets just go since its still early" she said. song qiang gave her a content smiled.

"i saw you both doing good.. I'm happy" song qian hugged her document and smiled. jiyong elbowed her and gave her a sheepish smiled. "thanks to you.."