//THIS IS PART TWO OF A DOUBLE UPDATE SO IF YOU HAVEN'T, READ THE CHAPTER BEFORE IT NOW~
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Exams were just around the corner now, and Yixing and Joonmyun were studying in full swing. It was lucky theirs were around the same time.

Yixing had to constantly deal with the awkwardness that arose between him and Joon, and although Joon had apologized shortly after the incident and Yixing had forgiven him, they still weren’t back to their friendship before, and Yixing felt like they never would be (obviously, Jongin had no issues with this).

When Yixing had asked Joonmyun why he’d had so much time to talk in the past few weeks, Joonmyun had replied saying that he needed a bit of a break, and well, he just needed Yixing.

He wasn’t lying, though he didn’t tell Yixing about coming back home.

He was still worried something would happen.

Right now though, Joonmyun just channeled that worrying into studying for finals. If he failed these for some reason, there was no way his parents would approve, and maybe they wouldn’t let him go home. Plus, he didn’t think Seoul NU would want him if he was like that.

Thankfully Yixing was studying too. However, this time the both of them put in more effort so they could talk enough, even if they got an hour or two less sleep.

It was all worth it.

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It was the first year Kyungsoo ever went to Subin’s grave without Joonmyun.

Neither Jongin nor Kyungsoo knew why he’d never come, but Kyungsoo had never asked Jongin, and Jongin felt it wasn’t his business to ask. When Subin had died, Joonmyun had been the one that was there for him, and Jongin understood that.

Joonmyun wasn’t there this time, though. Kyungsoo asked Jongin to come with him in the morning of the anniversary of her death, and he would never think of declining.

That’s how the two ended up in front of her gravestone, their fingers entwined, red roses in Kyungsoo’s hand. They’d always been her favorite flower, and Kyungsoo couldn’t help but compare the way her cheeks would flare up when she got embarrassed with the same colour.

Jongin would compare them to Kyungsoo’s own.

“I wish you two could have met,” Kyungsoo mumbled. He didn’t cry when he thought about her death anymore, knowing she wouldn’t want him to, but he couldn’t help but tremble at times like this. “She would have loved you.”

“I’m sure I would have loved her too.”

Kyungsoo smiled softly, before bobbing down and gently brushing the lettering on the grave, then laying the roses.

“Subin-ah,” he started, “It’s been a while since I visited... I think about you every day, and I really miss you. A lot has happened since last time I came. I got into Seoul National University; remember how I always wanted to go there? All the money that you left in the fund has been going towards it, so you’re paying for it like you always wanted to. Thank you, noona, I really like it there and if it weren’t for you I might not even be able to go. I still have the same dream as I did when you were still with me, but I think I want to be a children’s doctor… You’ll be proud, right? You always loved kids, noona. I was really excited for the day that I was going to be an uncle, but now I’m sad that you’ll never get to be here to be an aunty. I’ll make sure my kids know about you.”

Kyungsoo stood up, taking Jongin’s hand.

“Noona, this is Jongin, the boyfriend I’ve told you about. Isn’t he handsome? I told you he was,” Kyungsoo said, pride clear in his voice, and Jongin couldn’t stop the swell of his heart. “You would have liked him, maybe not before we knew each other, but I know you’d love him now. He’d love you too; I wish you two could have met. You’d probably try to steal him off me, wouldn’t you?” Kyungsoo laughed, “I’m joking, but really, you’d be happy with him. He really looks after me. I love him more than anything.”

The couple looked at each other and smiled, Jongin’s cheeks slightly flushed, before Kyungsoo’s mouth made an ‘o’ shape and he looked at the stone again.

“Don’t worry! I love you both differently, so I still love you more than anything too. You’d be glad, Subin-noona, I’m really happy now.” Kyungsoo smiled.

They stood there for a while. Jongin watching as Kyungsoo spoke. In any place that wasn’t a graveyard it would have looked weird, someone talking to a piece of rock, but Jongin couldn’t help but feel that the messages were getting through, and he could definitely see how much it meant to Kyungsoo.

“We should probably go now...” Kyungsoo said softly, noticing they’d been there for an hour and a half.

Jongin squeezed Kyungsoo’s arm.

“Do you mind if I say something?”

Kyungsoo looked surprised, mouth slightly open. “Sure.” he replied, somewhat confused.

Jongin bobbed down, wiping a bit of dust that had managed to find its way on some of the lettering as Kyungsoo had been talking.

“Noona… Subin-noona, can I call you that?” Jongin asked, smiling cheekily. “Kyungsoo tells me and shows me so much about you, and I feel close to you so it’s okay, right? I always wanted to have an older sister, so can I say you’re mine? When Kyunggie and I get married you’ll be my sister-in-law, so I think it’s okay… I’m glad it’d be you.”

Kyungsoo didn’t know what he’d expected from Jongin, but it wasn’t this.

“I guess you must be a bit worried about Kyungsoo, and I promise you I am doing my best to look after him.” Jongin smiled, “I have a feeling that if you were still alive, we’d fight over who loves him the most.” Jongin laughed this time, bright sound filling the otherwise melancholy graveyard. “I don’t ever want to lose him, so I’m doing my best to make sure he’s happy. I hope you approve of me, and I know I wasn’t very good in the past, but Kyungsoo really means the world to me. He’s doing so well; he manages to be the highest in his classes, whilst he still manages to look after me… Kyungsoo told me that you taught him how to cook? It really is great; you must have been an amazing teacher! I used to be able to cook, but I feel like I’ve lost all my skills because Kyungsoo is always rushing around the kitchen. Last time I tried to help him I didn’t chop something correctly and he forced me to sit on the bench and watch,” the dancer giggled, “I still love him though, it’s cute.”

Jongin looked up at Kyungsoo, and noticed his face was extremely flushed.

“Aww, I think I made Kyunggie embarrassed. I’m sorry, ‘Soo, I love you. Noona, thank you so much for looking after Kyungsoo and being there for him when he was younger. He’s so special and I’m really glad that he had you, I don’t know what I’d do without him, I don’t know who I’d be. I am so thankful for him, he’s turned me into who I am now and it’s going to take the rest of our lives for me to show him how much I love him. He’s perfect. You’d be so proud of him, and I know you must be, just like I am. I promise to come and visit you more, noona. I’ll tell you how he’s going and the silly things he does. I’m sorry we could never meet, but you’ll forgive me, right? Thank you for everything you’ve done for him, I promise to love him forever and make the both of you happy.”

Jongin stood up, taking Kyungsoo’s hand. He turned to face Kyungsoo, and Kyungsoo noticed that Jongin was crying. He hadn’t been able to hear it, but Jongin had been crying.

Jongin, who he’d only seen cry once before.

Kyungsoo really couldn’t say how much he loved him, pulling him in for a hug and hoping that maybe he could feel it instead.

“Come on, let’s go now.”

“Bye-bye, Subin-noona, we’ll be back soon!” Jongin chirped, taking Kyungsoo’s hand once again.

“Bye, noona, I love you.”

The two turned and walked hand in hand along the path, Jongin kissing Kyungsoo’s temple and softly saying “She loves you too, we both love you.”

Jongin’s grip on Kyungsoo’s hand tightened after a few minutes, when the entrance was in sight and he saw the face of his boyfriend’s ‘father’ come walking up the path.

Of course, he’d be here today.                    

Jongin had half-expected Kyungsoo to let go, but he certainly hadn’t expected Kyungsoo to turn the both of so they were facing each other, before standing on his toes and pulling Jongin down into a kiss. Jongin was caught off-guard but quickly melted into it, resting his hands on Kyungsoo’s waist as Kyungsoo wrapped his arms around his neck.

Kyungsoo poured his heart out in that kiss to his boyfriend in front of no one else but his father, the man who had kicked him out and left him because he wanted to kiss boys, not girls.

It didn’t last more than twenty seconds, but Kyungsoo’s father definitely saw it. The older linked his hand back up with Jongin’s before continuing to walk.

His father’s eyes were bulging out of his sockets, and Kyungsoo made sure to smile extra brightly at him as he approached, making sure to say, “Jongin-ah, I love you,” as he brushed his shoulder against his dad’s. A totally intentional, but innocent act.

He meant every word, and now he finally felt like he’d overcome his father, the man who’d said “Faggots aren’t meant to be happy.”

Too bad for him, because Kyungsoo didn’t know when he’d been happier, and he’d made sure to show him that.

∩( ・ω・)∩ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ Authors Note  ~ ~ ~ ~ ~  ∩( ・ω・)∩ 

Let's all cry because of the perfection I made Kim Jongin. 

Anyway yeah, the reason I made this a double update because I thought it'd flow nicer in two chapters, but to only post one part would mean they were very short. 

Talking about chapters, I'm going to tell you some sad news.
If you haven't realized, this story is going to be over really soon.
And by really soon I mean really really soon.
...As in within a week ;-;
I'll save most of it for later, but I really am going to miss posting this for you all, and seeing all your lovely comments.
I do have a HunHan twoshot which I will be posting very shortly, but I do not have another chaptered fic for y'all as of yet, though I do have one in the planning stage.
Is anyone interested?

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