TAE YEON’S STORY.

Rooftop Rant

True love isn’t about Romeo and Juliet who died together. It’s more like grandma and grandpa who grew old together. True love isn’t easy; you need to fight for it, because once you find that one person, he or she will be irreplaceable. True love is like ghosts, who everybody talked about but only few have seen.

I never wished for a perfect partner. I never expected an amazing romance for my love story. All I want is someone who will love me back the same way that I will love him. I want someone who I can finally call mine. My soulmate. My other half.

I scoffed. True love? Soulmate? Other half? Who are you to kid around Kim Tae Yeon? You don’t even believe in true love anymore don’t you?

Yeah. I admitted that I used to believe that true love existed. But when I saw Yuri and Fany being fooled by those jerks, their hearts got torn out and thrown on the floor for nothing, deep in my heart I began to get cold feet. What if someday I will have the same faith as them? What if next time I’m the one who will be played and get my heart broken? What if when I finally truly love that person, he decides to end it with me? There are like a gazillion of what ifs in my mind right now.

Sometimes it seems impossible that I’ll find someone to love. But seeing how my cousin, Im Yoona and her husband Lee Dong Hae, made me think that true love actually existed.

It’s amazing. It’s so easy to see how much they love each other. It’s indescribable. They really are soulmates. And that sort of love between them is the kind that I’ve always wanted. That kind of love gives me hope. That kind of love begins to make me believe again.

I shook my head. What the hell is wrong with me? Why is it the thought about true love suddenly popped inside my mind? I must have watched too many melodramas lately. I should have stop watching them soon before my heart starts to feel mushy, cheesy and fluffy. Those feelings are so not me! I threw my gaze to the sky.

Rooftop. I began spending my time here since the new semester started. I didn’t know why but being here made me feel save and at peace. Maybe I should bring Yuri and Tiffany here and hang out sometimes.

 I finished making my paper plane. The wind was blowing pretty strong, so I thought to myself; Kim Tae Yeon, let’s make a paper plane, write about your feeling on it and let the wind blows the paper plane away. I guessed I’m childish but hey, that’s one of my special qualities. People didn’t call me the Kid leader for no reason. Kekeke…

I want arms that will hold me at my weakest time, eyes that will see my beauty at my ugliest moment, and a heart that will love me at my worst. If true love really exists in this world, please show it to me. Before I decide to never put my love out on the line and never said yes to the right guy even if he shows up at my front door. ~KTY~

I stood up and walked to the railing of the rooftop. I climbed on the railing, looked at the view and finally I threw away my paper plane.  I watched my paper plane been blown away by the wind and I prayed hard that my wish will come true.

“Yah midget! Step away from the railing.” I heard someone shouted.

Midget? Railing? Is that person talking to me? I just stood on the railing, still didn’t budge even a bit.

“Don’t kill yourself!” Again, that voice echoed into my ears.

Kill yourself?  Who wants to commit suicide here? I turned around and saw a guy standing not far away from me.

“Yah, midget! Are you deaf?” The guy spoke with an annoying tone. I scoffed.

Midget and deaf in almost one sentence?! Wow, this guy really wanted a death penalty from me!

“Excuse me?”

“Are you  trying to commit suicide here?”

“Huh??? Since when?” I scratched my head, confused.

“Just now. You looked like you just wanted to jump.”

“No I wasn’t!”

“You looked sad. But that doesn’t mean you have to kill yourself.”

“Me? Looked sad? Me? Wanted to kill myself? Seriously?”

“Yup.” He nodded. My ‘ajumma’ laugh began to fill the surrounding. Gosh. This guy is so funny.

“Dude, you’re jumping into your own mindless conclusion! I never said that I wanted to commit suicide.”

The guy looked straight into my eyes. He looked concern. But what do I care if he’s concern or not. It’s not like I even know him.

“Then, what were you doing on the railing if you didn’t want to jump?”

I let out