She could feel the tears running down her cheek but she made no move to wipe them away. Was she really seeing this? Tiffany could feel we heart breaking, was he really not going to fight for her? Was he going to simply obey every order given to him? Completely disregarding her and what they had? But then again she felt like a hypocrite, she was doing the same thing wasn't she? She was blindly following orders given to her by a man she was sure had no heart. But she felt so weak, both emotionally and physically, to the point where she just didn't want to move. She wanted to crawl into bed, to drown in her covers and never come out again. 

But she couldn't help the pain in her chest as she watched the large screen in front of her. How the girl was latched to his arm, the way he smiled down at her. Was he acting? Was it real? It was hard to tell but then again that was one of the things he was famous for right? Big Bang's great rapper TOP was also an amazing actor. Was what she was watching an act too? 

He mind refused to work and before she knew it she was watching the press conference again, and again and again. Her eyes watching every little detail, trying, hoping to find something. Anything that would tell her that what she was seeing wasn't true, that it wasn't real. But days passed and more pictures came up, of him and her at a cafe. Of them eating at a restaurant. Walking down the side of a river, their hands firmly clasped together and every time SeungHyun had a smile on his face. 

Tiffany smiled bitterly as she watched the pictures on the screen, she couldn't blame him. The girl, his girl was pretty. She was beyond pretty and way better than her right? It hadn't even been a week since they had been forced to break up and the media had recorded over ten dates already. It seemed to her that he was dealing with it a lot better than she was. And it killed her inside to the point where her days blended into one long one. She would move from schedule to schedule, from
Vocal coach to trainer to the dance classes to the hours spent at the salon then to the gym. It seemed she never had time for herself, and she felt exhausted. She wanted to sleep, to go to bed and never have to get up again. 

"Tiffany you have a couple of hours with the personal trainer and that's you done for the day" 

She nodded silently before putting the iPad away her gazing falling to watch the other cars outside. Passing by the river she watched with a heavy heart as couples walked up and down the river bank, hands held smiles on their faces. It didn't seem fair, they got their happiness and they took it for granted, being able to walk without having to worry about who was watching or if they would get into trouble. They walked together without a care in the world and Tiffany felt envious, she wanted that. 

The car came to a stop and Tiffany looked up to find that they had already arrived. Grabbing her bag she made her way out of the van and into the large building. 


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She closed the door behind her quietly before throwing her bag onto the floor next to the various others. She made her way into the dorm looking around the large space for the members who she was sure were scattered around somewhere. She had been given the rest of the evening off and with it being a little over seven in the evening she was ready for a long hot shower to ease her sore muscles and a long sleep. 

"Fany-ah!” A loud voice startled her and she turned to come face to face with her members all standing around the kitchen various objects and ingredients in their hands. Jessica smiled at her motioning down at the various foods in front of them. 

"We decided to make pizza. Come on"

Tiffany shook her head declining her offer with a smile, "I'm good Sica I'm going to take a bath then get some much needed sleep" 

Flashing them a smile she began to move before being interrupted by Taeyeon,

"Fany-ah at least have a slice"

"I'm good Tae. Really I'm not hungry"

Taeyeon raised an eyebrow at the you her girl, "Tiffany you've spent the past three hours at the gym. How can you not be hungry?"

Tiffany shrugged, her lease had a point. She couldn't remember the last time she had actually consumed something solid, but even so, she felt no need to eat. She was just so tired that she doubted she would have the strength to actually chew anything. 

"Tae, I'm just not okay? Now if you guys don't mind I'm going to take a bath" she couldn't help the way her tone came out slightly annoyed. Was it really that bad that she wanted to take a bath, it was really needed. 

The other members looked up at her tone and shared glances, ones that she easily caught. What was going on? She couldn't help but feel annoyed, they were obviously thinking something they weren't telling her and with her emotions on a high already she couldn't help but explode. 

"What!" she snapped her expression annoyed. Her members looked surprised for a moment before Sunny cleared , 

"Fany we're all worried about you"

Tiffany raised an eyebrow, "What are you talking about? I'm fine"

Yuri shook her head, "No you're not. And you know it. You're break up with SeungHyun has hurt you"

"Of course it has Yuri. We were forced to break up. How would you feel about that?"

Hyoyeon stepped up, "That's not what we're talking about Fany. You're pale, like really pale and you always tired now" 

"Well if you haven't noticed guys. I’ve been a little busy lately"

Jessica frowned, "When was the last time you ate Tiffany?"

"What's with all of the eating questions? I'm fine you guys need to chill"

"No we don't! You need to talk to us, keeping everything inside isn't going to help Tiffany. You’re literally disappearing in front of us!" Jessica replied her voice growing in volume. "When was the last time you laughed this week?"

"What does me laughing having to do with anything?"

Jessica shook her head coming closer to the brunette, "Fany you're destroying yourself. You don't eat, you don't laugh, and you go to schedules, come home then go to bed. You're not living!"

"Well what's the point?" Tiffany shouted momentarily startling the blonde in front of her, "What's the point Sica? What's the point in living if everything I do reminds me of him? Of every show we go to I know he's in the building somewhere but I can't see him. How do you think I feel watching and seeing photos of him with his girlfriend?"

She would have continued but her voice caught in as a sudden bout of dizziness over took her and before she could do anything Tiffany felt herself fall forward onto Jessica, who easily caught her, her world turning into black.