Leaving

I Belong To You, Even If You Don't Want Me To

Eunhyuk's POV 

i walked back to the club with Heechul by my side. I felt relieved that i could count on my hyung. 

My eyes felt a bit better and luckily it did not show how much i cried. I entered the club and noticed Hae holding onto Kibum.

I would be lying if I said it didn't hurt me. I know i shouln't show jealousy, i know i shouldn't stop Hae from flirting or dating other guys but i couldn't stop myself.

why not me?

I walked up to Hae and grabbed his shoulder so that he could face.

"Let's go."

"W-what?"

"I'm bored and i wanna go back."

"I can't leave. Kibum is.. well he feel asleep."

"ugh... fine take him! but i want to go back."

"Okay okay geez here's the keys.." he handed me the keys while he lifted kibum bridal style... i could feel myself getting ready to punch both of them " ... go get Heechul and we'll meet outside... i have to say bye to Teukie before i go."

"whatever." i rolled my eyes as i stomped over to Heechul. I never thought i would be acting this childish but the thought of Hae with a guy... it freaks me out especially that it could be someone like Kibum... who is completely different than me.

"Let's go Prince Heechul I have the keys."

He got up and lead the way out. I didn't bother fighting him when he grabbed my hand. Usually this type of behavior angers me... I hate being treated as a girl but my mind was preoccupied.

"Hyuk you get shotgun."

"I don't want too. Kibum is coming." I avoided looking into Heechul's eyes. If i looked at them I know i would start crying.

"Than would you rather have Kibum sit next to Hae and get closer to him~?"

"NO!! of course not! but I'm not ready to show Hae that i like him."

"Hyukkie if you dont make your move soon Hae will drift away from you... look he's coming back. now or never." Heechul went inside the backseat while i stood in front of the passenger's door. Screw it. Hae won't even think of it as anything if i sit in the front. I'm thinking to much. i quickly opened the door and sat up front. 

After a few seconds Hae walked into the car and sat Kibum next to Heechul. He sat in the driver's seat without a single glance towards me. We dropped off Heechul and headed back to Hae's place in silence. I quickly got out of the car that had been trying to crush my heart into pieces. i checked my watch and saw that it was 8. he's parents will be home soon....

I entered his house and went straight to the kitchen. i grabbed a cup of strawberry milk. I quickly chugged it all down. I hate feeling all nerved up.

I put the cup down and headed towards the living room doorway. I saw Hae gently lay Kibum down and grab a blanket to cover the guy.

Hae must really like the guy. .

"You wanna watch a movie while my parents come back? Kibum will be asleep for at least an hour."

"Whatever. Why did he fall asleep? drunk?" I smirked causing Hae to stare at me. I could tell he was confused because of my attitude but I didn't care. I needed to vent out my frustration.

"... I don't know... maybe. You want to pick the movie? I know you always hate the ones I pick hahah."

"No, I'm not in the mood. If you don't pick than just turn on the TV and watch whatever is on."

"Are you mad?" duh

"no."

"You seem mad." cuz i am!

"We'll I'm not." 

"Come on Hyukkie tell me what's wrong."

"Nothing... Maybe i should go and let you have some peacefull time with your boyfriend. Laters." Hae grabbed my wrist and pulled me closer.

"Wait Hyukkie what do you mean?" I pulled my hand back.

"go back to your boyfriend! I hate watching you guys act all lovey dovey! he is so annyoing! can't he just leave you alone for a second?!"

"why?"

"Ughh never mind... nothing Hae just don't let your boyfriend come close to me or bother me."

"Ha! bother you?! what the hell is going on? .... ahh wait i get it! ...." i competely froze at my spot. I don't want him to find out... not yet.

".... It's not really about Kibum."

"it's not?" i asked nervously.

"No... god Hyukkie!" crap.

"look ha-" 

"AISSH I thought you were fine with me being gay!"

"huh?" 

"Don't play dumb with me! ever since i told  you the truth you can't look me straight in the eyes! you try to avoid me and you watch your words around me!"

"It's no-"

"Yes it is like that... god Hyukkie! i thought you were fine with this! i should have known you wouldn't accept it! but i fooled myself into thinking you could actually have had an opened mind. ha you never change. always being self-centered and never caring about your BEST friend's feelings."

"... oh......." I couldn't believe he had just said that.

"....I see.." i began to nod my head while biting my bottom lip in order to stop myself from shedding a tear. "... Maybe we should break it off. I mean I'm just a dumb self-centered friend right? and you the almighty Donghae are an intelligent ... perfect person.... you're right we are two completely different people." I turned my back to Hae "Go ahead and stay with your boyfriend don't worry about me I'll get out of your life." 

I headed for the front door and grabbed the door nob. I opened the door and without facing him I said my final words to my bes- former best friend.  

"Don't let me ruin your happiness again. Never come near me. Act as if you've never met me. Goodbye Donghae it was fun, we'll maybe for you it was painful. Sorry."

I slammed the door shut and grabbed my keys from my pocket. My vision began to blur but i held it in. I would not cry in front of Hae.  My hands began to tremble and i ended up dropping the keys.

"Here Hyukkie. you dropped this."

I looked up and saw Siwon standing in front of me holding my keys.

"A-are you okay?"

"I'm perfect." I grabbed the keys form his hands and opened my door. I started the engine and lowered the window. "Thanks Wonnie. See you... whenever."

I quickly sped away without greeting Hae's parents. I didn't care if they thought i was rude. I had to get away. I couldn't stay there. I don't know how i was able to drive without getting into any type of accident but i safely ended up in front of my cave.

I laid on top of the cave and just stared at the blue cloudless sky. 

How could such a beautiful day be so depressing?

It soon became dark. My eyes were sore from the tears i had shed while i laid on the cold ground. 

I got up and headed to my car. I saw a figure standing close to the lamppost next to my car. My heart felt as if it had skipped a beat.

"Hae..." i couldn't scream his named out loud my throat was also sore. I jogged to the lamppost with tears in my eyes. I didnt care if he saw that i had cried. I was just glad he came after me. I launched myself at him and squeezed him tight. 

"Hae..."

"uhh Hyukkie. I'm not Hae."

I looked up and saw Kyuhyun standing there. I quickly pushed myself off and began running... i just kept running and running hoping he wasn't really here. I turned around and saw he was right on my tail.

"Hyukkie!!!!! Stop I'm not gonna hurt you!! Please!" Liar. i picked up my pace and ended up deep into the forest.

"Hyukkie! it's dark please stop you're gonna hurt yourself!" i wished i hadnt cried because the cold wind made my eyes burn. I ended up tripping on a dumb bolder. 

"AHH!" 

"HYUKKIE!!" Kyuhyun caught up to me and tried to catch his breath. Kyu he was so close to me.. it made me shiver to think i was this vulnerable especially in front of him. I'm pathetic. I tried standing up but my ankle hurt really bad. i looked down and saw it was twisted. I looked at my hands and saw scrape marks with blood becoming visable. I really am stupid. Here i am about to get beat up by Kyu. damn it.

i closed my eyes shut as i saw Kyuhyun approach me. It felt as if it were an eternity that i had shut my eyes. i peaked through them and saw him taking off his scarf  and rip it in half. He smiled at me, which was actually kinda.. a little cute. 

"Hyukkie I am not gonna hurt you. I'm just going to try  to twist your ankle back and wrap it.." He bent down but before he could touch me i jerked away. ".. Hyukkie look i know you hate me.. It's natural but i promise with my life I am not NOT going to hurt you again." I knew there was no escape even if i struggled. I just nodded hoping it was all true. i closed my eyes shut.

I felt Kyuhyun gently grab my knee and lift my leg up. it stung a bit but i knew i had to hold it in. I could not show my weakness not to Kyu.

Surprisingly Kyu helped me sit up on the boulder gently. It kind of felt like i was floating. He grabbed my arms and made me wrap them around him.  While he carefully took of my shoes and socks.

"Hyukkie you can bite my shoulder while i twist your leg, okay? It's gonna hurt but only for a while.." 

I sunk my head on his shoulder and nodded. i put my teeth on his shoulder thinking i wasnt going to actually bite.

"Okay here we go Hyukkie on the count of three. ... 3... 2 ..1!" At first i only felt him grab my ankle but after a second it hurt really REALLY bad. I didnt scream but i bite hard on Kyu's shoulder. i heard him gasp but as soon as i let go he grabbed half of his scarf and wrapped it around my ankle. 

"finished. give me your hands." i showed him hands he grabbed them with one hand and than grabbed the other half of his scarf with his right hand and used his teeth to rip it again. he laid one on his lap while he wrapped the scarf on my hands. 

After he finished he sat next to me on the grass. 

"Hyukkie.. i doubt we can find our way out right now.. its too dark... i told you that you shouldn't have ran." he smirked a bit. I felt a bit annoyed but i slowly began to relax. 

"mmm did you bring your phone?"

"ahh no i left it in my car. I didn't want to talk to anyone."

"oh. well i have mine but no signal." He took out his phone and showed me his bars. he threw himself on the grass and stared at the starry sky.

"Hyukkie you wanna lay down too?"

I nodded shyly because i knew that i needed his help to lay down on the grass. He smiled and picked himself up. he took off his jacket and laid it on the grass  He picked me up and laid me on his jacket.

"Kyuhyun. you don't have to lay me on here."

"I know." He laid down next to me. 

We stayed silent for a bit. It felt comfortable that he actually made me forget about a certain someone. 

I turned my head to my right to look at his face more clearly. He had his eyes closed and a smile on his face. If he hadn't bullied me when i was younger i might have thought he was beautiful.

"Hyukkie you wanna use my arm as a pillow?" Before i could answer he lifted up my head and slid his arm under it. 

"Kyuhy-"

"ssh Hyukkie it's okay. Let's just rest and forget about everything in life. It's okay to take breaks sometimes."

I was a bit hesitant but he made me feel calm and relaxed. He seemed completely different from the past. I ended up drifting into my dreamland. In it i was sleeping peacefully in bed of clouds and of course roses spread as far as the eye could see. 

 

 

Guys I did not update sooner cuz i have like freaken ten different versions of this chapter. I couldn't decide which suited the story more but i ended up with this one. why? 1) i feel in love with kyu here >.< kyaaa so cute 2) siwon appeared~ (i couldnt decided between him and Kangin but i felt that kangin didnt really give me much inspiration (plz don't hate me im still going to add him :o ) 3) I didn't know whether to add kyu or leave him out lol THANK YOU EVERYONE AND ALL MY SUBSCRIBERS WITHOUT YOU (not to be cheezy) I WOULDN'T HAVE MADE IT THIS FAR :') 

mynaaa

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COMMENT REPLIES~!!!!!!!!!!! BTW sorry if i didn't (or haven't) added your couple choices but there was not one of you who did not make think really hard as to who i should couple together such as the KyuHae and KangEun (i've also never read about these couple now that i think of it) hmmm you guys make me want to write a fanfic for each couple lol anyways now to reply to you guys individually :3 

elf_desk well i only compeleted one of your wishes T~T siwon has been introduced dun duh dun duuun lol but idk if kibum or siwon even like each other yet lol or will Kibum even leave Haehyuk alone?? hmm now that is the question 

neoanimyeonandwae i didnt make Kyu hae's brother cuz yea that did not make sense to me since Hyukkie has already meet Hae's brother despite me not directly stating it but i really did think about having Kyu becoming adopted but when i was writing it the story it seemed to confuse me o.o i was gonna add you (the reader) as hae's brother but no one except you voted on it sorry >.< ahahha you're really sweet thank you for understanding!! maybe ill at you guys into the story XD

1412Bunny sorry i didnt add kangin as his brother but i will add him to the story later :3 keke thank you for the list.  i wrote them all down and hopefully ( cross my fingers ) i can fit them all into the story >:O me too poor Hyukkie. Hae why do u hurt Hyukkie and Hyukkie why do you hurt hae lol stop hurting each other and make babies lol jk jk!!

luphae8692 i added siwon! :D but still thinking about who to pair him up with. but i think i figured it out ;) keke i was really thinking about KyuHae but than i couldnt seem to get much inspiration. i mean i did get some but i felt like i should write a different fanfic for that couple hmm u gave me something to think about. :O you loooove me >.< keke aww you thank you :') i don't deserve you 

Fishy15 ahh if only you lived next door i would jump the fence and climb to your kitchen to eat everything lol i don't wanna eat in the middle of the night cuz im a noisy eater so i might wake up my parents than they would probably think i'm turning into some kind of rat or bat or another type of animal that eats at night T~T i was thinking about kyuhyun but i made a better back story for him and what happened to him while he was gone hehe ooh i cant wait tell they reunite >.< i wonder what will happen...

Jewelmilas31 ahh man you guys have to many good ideas. i couldnt add all of them but KangEun seemed really REALLY interesting to me. yes mam ill add them :D

Nadine701 i added siwon but i wanted to make a mediator but i haven't really decided on his role yet but i will keep your idea in mind (about siwon and hae cuz Hyukkie thinks that siwon isnt blood related since its another family secret unless i change my mind while writing the chapter XD) hahah im trying to not make him suffer cuz i didn't make the angst tag so i want to keep the pain at minimum. its mostly gonna be fluffy XD

haehyuk4vr :O me too i think Hae is just sooo cute in it >.< heheh i think you know the answer to your question ;)

SJ15Lover28 Phsycic! :O lol teach me the ways of a jedi lol (im sorry if you're not a star wars fan or don't know what it is) yes mam ill try to add one of the couples you listed but sorry for taking long in  updating  i couldn't decide on the story line >.< please forgive me!

Ruka29Hawkes hahah i should just make him pop out of nowhere from now on XD hahha yesung is so yesung :P ahhaha cuz we should let siwon take one for the team! lol y beast!!! hahahhahahhaha omg my stomach hurts from laughing 

MyHotHyukJae  lol no no im no celeberty haha i just really love having people enjoy my fanfic it really makes me happy that i can talk to them and have a comfortable conversations with everyone. hehe but really thank you for being kind :) hope i can continue to have you as a subscriber <3

I'm, again, really really sorry if i didnt add the couple that you wanted but ill try to add some later i wrote them all down on a list and i keep looking at it thinking how i could incorporate all your wonderful ideas that i could never think of! <3

 Please forgive me that i didnt update sooner >.<

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I wanted 2 try this out lol :D i WILL update either wed or thur cuz writing is hard, especially since its my 1st time on my 1st fanfic ~ILY SUBSCRIBERS

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fishy44 #1
Chapter 14: omg why i'm here? jajja i'm famous yeeeeeei
eunsweetlover #2
new suscriber here!!! looks interesting will eunhyuk accept donghae? :)
bad_reality
#3
Chapter 14: I was about to keep this chap and continue nex chap but then..I saw my name xD
WTH
where did you get my name? OMG I LOVE KYUHYUN LMAO
nui_be #4
Chapter 31: *cough*epilogue would be appreciated*cough*
cholily94 #5
such a amazing ff!!
I really love it!will u please make a sequel for it???I think it doesn't need multi chaptered sequel but maybe a one shot will be cool!!!
and I want to ask ur permission for translating this great ff in to persian??so may I dear?
plz let me know ur answer^^
yeonjihee96
#6
Chapter 14: I have my own pov here , hehehehe I like it even though it's a heart breaking *.* , anyway up to the next chapter ;)
SUJU4ever13 #7
Chapter 31: Thankyou for your story!!!! I really enjoyed it.... Sequel please??
xoELFxo
#8
Chapter 31: sequel please~ *batting eyelashes*
Naicumi #9
Chapter 14: Asdasdas You can do that? Is a trap xD Oh~~! OMFG! I was tricked xD
Naicumi #10
Chapter 14: OMFG! NAICUMI? IT'S ME!!!! Oh My ing God I am in a FANFIC!!