Can't Help But Hope

I Belong To You, Even If You Don't Want Me To

Donghae's POV

It feels like it's been months since Hyukkie began to ignore me but of course it's only been three days. Hyukkie please accept me..

"Donghae .... Donghae!"

"oh sorry hyu- I mean ummm..."

"Haha it's okay Donghae. I'm Kibum."

He flashed me a smile that would probably make any girls swoon. I gotta say through hyukkie's smile is more dazzling ... The way he shows his cute pink gums and the wa- No Hae! I mentally slapped myself. You can't think about hyukkie. It will only hurt you more....

"umm Donghae?"

"oh yes? Sorry about that."

"It's okay umm I was wondering if you could study with me? I mean since the test is coming up... Sooo will you?"

"I guess it's fine. When do you want to study?"

"Is today alright?"

"I don't know usually I have movienight with Hyuk-Eunhyuk on Fridays..."

"Oh ok that's fine well Sunday is good."

"Sorry"

"It's no problem but if you do turn out to be free call me okay? Give me your phone"

"uhh okay. Here."

"there you go my phone number. Txt or call me. Bye!" he flashed smiled than bolted out the classroom door.

I'm still hoping hyukkie will wait for me by the school entrance. In the past no matter how angry or depressed he would be, he would still wait for me at the gate and we'd go together to my house and watch a movie. It was tradition.

Every step felt as if a weight was added to my shoulders. My hands continued to shake and my heart beat was uncontrollable.

"Hyukkie, whhhhy do you do this to me?"

I had never noticed how many people went to this school until today. I tried to rush through them but I couldn't go as fast as i wanted to go. I pushed and pushed but just couldn't get to my hyukkie fast enough.

Finally I made it outside and spotted hyukkie with his beautiful blonde hair shining radiantly.

"Hyu-!"

But before i could call out i noticed he continued to walk. He's leaving.... He really left.

All I could keep thinking about is why? How? I really don't understand. I thought he would be sensible.

"Hae what's wrong?"

Hyukkie?! I quickly turned around hoping but instead found my heart being shattered into smaller pieces; almost to the point of no repair.

"oh! I'm sorry I shouldn't have called you Hae hahaha sorry" Kibum said with a shy smile.

If only he was Hyukkie..

"no it's ok. just I'm not used to having other people other than Eunhyuk"

"If it makes you feel uncomfortable I can stop?"

"No it's fine"

"You okay?"

"Yeah yeah just stress you know"

"ohh ok. Well do you wanna go study?"

"Uhh I-I'm not in the right mindset today. On sunday ok? I have To go home now. Didn't realize it."

"Ok it's fine. I'll talk to you later bye"

"bye"

Although my family is wealthy my parents raised as a part of the middle class which I am greatful. I felt as if everything was just a dream. I knew my mother was in the kitchen but I did not want her to questions. I quickly made it upstairs when she called "Hon! What's the matter?!"

"nothing mom I'm just gonna go take a nap!"

"okay but when you wake up we will have a talk! Sleep well!"

"sure!" I opened my door than I threw off my backpack and laid on my bed.

I didn't bother changing or taking off my shoes.

I just wanted to dream, a sweat dream where I was happy with Hyukkie.

"So you're not even gonna say hi or missed you?"

My eyes quickly opened wide.

I haven't fell into my dreamland and I'm already hearing his voice! 

Maybe I was going crazy there was no way Hyukkie would be here in my room.

"Hae?" 

"Hyukkie?"

I slowly turned toward the voice ..... and there he was siting on desk chair ... smiling that smile that would make me lose control in a second. I quickly jumped onto Hyukkie. i just want to the life out of him, by hugging him, so he wont leave. but of course i wouldnt dare because he is the only thing that is keeping me here.. in this world

"Hyukkie i missed you so much."

ahhh finished this chapter XD im not really satisfied with it but i did get some important stuff in there :3 woo hyukkie is back :D Kibum was also introduced and im still planing on adding more character but i havent decided how to add them o.o im still working on my transitional words so please continue to support me i never thought i would get past 10 subscribers T~T im truly greatful to ALL of you~! ahh btw i thought i made this chapter longer but i didnt dang it ill start early on the next chapter tomorrow to make it longer :3 

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COMMENT RESPONDS~ I'm trying to tease you guys but lol im not good so in the future im afraid i will probably reveal to much info one daycrying

neoanimyeonandwae The next chapter will be eunhyuks point of view so you will see what was going on in his head ;) well see if he is gay (or at least if he knows it cuz it is eunhae fanfic XD) lol

mblaqsuju hahahhahahha your comment had me laughing out loud in class XD ahhh that was embarassing :') i should stop reading comments during school hours lol

hannahhugs yes mam! im trying to keep updating them daily >:O but revising and replying takes a while but ill do my best :D

Ch4nnii well at least we can see that he hasnt given up on their friendship :D hyukkie is a bit dense in this fanfic lol

Ruka29Hawkes  lol yay you got into that scene i wasnt sure if i had written it descriptive enough XD

elf_desk hyukkie is dense so we will see in the next chapter what he was going through during the time hae's heart was in pain o.o

DBSKforever5 me too ... even idk know when it will happen lol but ill try to command my fingers into making them get together at the right time >:O

haehyuk4vr yea hyukkie! lol i (even as the author got a bit upset with hyukkie) dont like it when hyukkie ignored hae T~T

1412Bunny why? lol jk yea hae is manipulated but he also has his sensitive side such as being weak when it comes to Hyukkie 

SJ15Lover28 lol me too i just want hae to already be dating hyukkie than get married o.o hahahha me too i imgained my self in there XD  thank you so much!!!! ill keep writing and improve >:O 

blackspiderlily lol hae is impatient ... just like me -_- lol jk but yea hae should wait a while lol wait he already has by the time you read this XD

chica_1210 hehe we'll see, we'll see ;) my heart would feel like that if hae also held my hand xD i will try to keep my streak of updating daily keke

mxanimefreak by the time you read this you will know that least hyukkie still came back :D so they will save their friendship but now im asking will they date? ;)

Fishy15 yes! i will do my best to update everytime as earliest at possible :O i wont let you down >:|

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I wanted 2 try this out lol :D i WILL update either wed or thur cuz writing is hard, especially since its my 1st time on my 1st fanfic ~ILY SUBSCRIBERS

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fishy44 #1
Chapter 14: omg why i'm here? jajja i'm famous yeeeeeei
eunsweetlover #2
new suscriber here!!! looks interesting will eunhyuk accept donghae? :)
bad_reality
#3
Chapter 14: I was about to keep this chap and continue nex chap but then..I saw my name xD
WTH
where did you get my name? OMG I LOVE KYUHYUN LMAO
nui_be #4
Chapter 31: *cough*epilogue would be appreciated*cough*
cholily94 #5
such a amazing ff!!
I really love it!will u please make a sequel for it???I think it doesn't need multi chaptered sequel but maybe a one shot will be cool!!!
and I want to ask ur permission for translating this great ff in to persian??so may I dear?
plz let me know ur answer^^
yeonjihee96
#6
Chapter 14: I have my own pov here , hehehehe I like it even though it's a heart breaking *.* , anyway up to the next chapter ;)
SUJU4ever13 #7
Chapter 31: Thankyou for your story!!!! I really enjoyed it.... Sequel please??
xoELFxo
#8
Chapter 31: sequel please~ *batting eyelashes*
Naicumi #9
Chapter 14: Asdasdas You can do that? Is a trap xD Oh~~! OMFG! I was tricked xD
Naicumi #10
Chapter 14: OMFG! NAICUMI? IT'S ME!!!! Oh My ing God I am in a FANFIC!!