It has been more than 10 years since I have meet Donghae.

I know he hides things from me. After he had helped me get rid of Kyuhyun he didn’t want to explain how he had accomplished it. All I knew was that Kyuhyun had moved to a different town. It still bothers me but I really don’t want to question Hae. I tried asking him about it but all he did was shrug. 

It still amazes me how much I have changed since that day. In the past I would not have dared to try out for the basketball team. Now today I have my first game of the season, it is already my second year in the varsity basketball team. I'm really nervous but currently that is not my biggest problem.

It is Valentine's Day.

Now I don't care about receiving chocolates or any of that type presents. I don’t care about the girls who fawn over any guy because they feel lonely. No the thing I fear most are the girls who try to use me to get to Hae. I'm not jealous or anything (well only a tiny bit) but it seriously gets on my nerves. That is why Hae and I are currently running away from this herd of desperate women. Luckily we found an empty hallway.

"Hyukkie! Maybe we should go to your hide out!?"

"We can try but these girls just don’t know how to give u-" before i could finish my sentence I saw a beacon of light.

"Hae! Lets jump from the window!"

"HUH?! We are two stories off the ground!"

"I know but these girls... they are on our tails!"

".... Fine! I’ll go first!" we were approximately 8 feet away from the window when I saw Donghae leap. I gotta admit it... if I were a girl I would also be a part of the herd.

"Well here goes nothing"  I jumped through the window but closed my eyes before I could land on the hard ground... but its not really hard I mean I feel like I’m on a cloud... gasp am I dead? I slowly opened my eyes and saw a blue cloudless sky....

"I-I'm dead!" 

"No you idiot! you landed on top of me! get off! you weigh a ton!"

I don't know why but lately I have been blushing like a dumb monkey in front of Hae... and this was no exception. 

"hhahahah I'm sorry Hae! you should have moved!"

" woo!! EUNHAE EUNHAE!!!!" some of the crazy fan girls began to chant.

"anyways lets go before they catch us" He grabbed my hand as he lead me to my cave. i think i know why my heart is beating fast .. that jerk! just because he is naturally stronger does not mean he can treat me like a girl! i yanked my hand away and ran in front of him to show that i was better than him on something... running.

I climbed to the top of the cave and laid on my back while Hae sat in front of me. I do hate that Hae is tougher than me but at least others, who are like Kyuhyun, wont come near me. that is the main reason why his fan girls don't try to hurt me, I know that they would if they could, despite their "Eunhae" chant. 

"sooo Hae didn’t you have something to tell me?"

"I did... but I’m not sure if you can handle it . . ha ha ha"

"Heh... wait you're serious! no no no now you have to tell me! I ran from all your fan girls! i jumped out of the window! my shooooes! They are muddy and i just bought them yesterday YESTERDAY they were new!"

".... Fine but promise me that you wont hate me or look at me differently?"

"Hae. Are you serious? How could I ever EVER hate you? That’s a dumb question"

"Promise."

"........"           

"Promise."

"Aissh fine fine! I PROOOOMISE happy?"

"Yea"

"Ok well go on!" I quickly sat up.

"Hae... I-I'm .... Gay." 

Donghae's POV

I finally told him. I told him I was gay.

Why hadn’t I told him the truth in the past? Simple he was always dating a girl… it hurt seeing him dating and flirting with almost every girl he came across…

At first I ignored the girls. I thought maybe they would leave him and some did but there were others more stubborn. So I had to do what I had to do…

First I would make them fall for me. It always worked. Than I would beg them to run away with me but before that cut ties with hyukkie. During the time that they would “two-time” hyukkie I would ask my parents to dig some dirt on them or their families. My dad is a senator and my mother is a first class lawyer, whose family owns a multimillion-dollar company. I of course am my grandparent’s only grandson and will take over the company in the future. After all of the hard work I would dump the girl and obviously blackmail her.

I didn’t want them to touch my hyukkie.

Yea its true I love him ever since the first time I met him. At first I thought he was a girl with his milky skin but when I heard him speak for the first time I knew he was a boy but it didn’t matter; I had already fallen for him. That is why I asked my grandfather to force the Cho family to move away in exchange for my word, I would heir the company when it is time.

I know how hyukkie will react. He will try to ignore me maybe for a long time but sooner or later he would come back. I know I sound self-centered and manipulated but I can’t help it. If he were to really leave me I don't know what i would do...

I know that in the future I will probably regret everything I’m doing but for now I just want my hyukkie to love me… I’m hoping that he will forgive me once I tell him the truth not just being in love with him but my other secrets that i haven't reavled to him.

“Oh.” Was all he said than we sat there in silence.

Maybe this wont be so hard? Should i tell him? Not yet. I need to see more of his reaction.

“yea”

“Are you sure?” Hyukkie ... idiot.

“yes”

“ Hae please tell me this is a lie.” I knew he would say this but it still felt as if he had stabbed me.

“no its not.”

“……. Donghae I-I think I’m gonna be late for class. I’m gonna go. I will uhh meet you after class?” before I could respond he ran away.

He hasn’t called me Donghae since he got mad at me for hanging out with a girl instead of him during our traditional movie night. Sigh. Maybe I judged him to early. 

Maybe this meant he hated me.

Deep down I know that if I manipulate him, which I know would work, I could get him to be with me.... but he might not truly love me.

“Hyukkie you disappointed me……. maybe I just fooled myself for thinking we could have had something more.”

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