You Mean It?

I Belong To You, Even If You Don't Want Me To

Eunhyuk's Pov. 

 

"Hyukkie, babe wake up."

I carefully peeked through my blonde bangs to see where Hae was at in the room in order to try and ignore Hae's nagging. His back was facing me as he was getting the curtains wide open. I quickly squeezed my eyes shut, pretending to snore.

"Hyukkie... you know the sunlight radiating your milky skin is very tempting."

"AHH! !!" I grabbed the blanket on the floor and was about to wrap it around me when Hae's firm arms wrapped around my body making sure the blanket was wrapped tightly around my torso. 

"Only for you babe." He whispered huskily into my ears. I could feel my face burn with pure fire. 

"S-stop it... you! you creep!" I tried struggling away from his grip but it only caused him to tighten his. 

"You bring me so much happiness. hehe by the way Hyukkie, does your ankle still hurt?" He let go off me and sat in front of me on the carpeted floor. He stared at me, eye to eye. His stare made me feel more conscious of my self, except for my boxers... almost to the point where I wanted to sink into the sofa. At the same time it felt a bit amazing. His stare was intense but also felt as if he thought I was something precious. God I'm turning into a girl.

"I-it's fine. Just stop staring."

"Hmm? but I can't"

"Haaae... it's embarrassing"

"But Hyukkie you're too beautiful"

"....."

"No really Hyukkie. I could stare at you my entire life."

"Quit it Hae~" I Pouted.

"hehe I love you." 

My eyes unconsciously widened at this sudden confession.

He noticed my surprise because he showed pain through his eyes for a second. He hide his emotions with a half smile.

"Pretend I didn't say that. hahha sometimes I say things I don't mean" He chuckled as he got up from his spot.

"Come on Hyukkie hurry up and get dressed than we can go eat anywhere you would like"

"Ah Hae I've been wanting to ask where are we?" I grabbed my shirt off the ground and pulled it back on. 

"Hmm... umm my uncle's barn"

"Than what the heck are we doing here?!" I grabbed my pants and slipped it on. The right leg was a bit tough to pull on my pants but I had managed. I zipped my pants up and grabbed onto the couch for support. "Hae we shouldn't have done this here!"

"Hyukkie it's fine. He lets me stay here when I want to cuz he doesn't live at this town. It's only used as a guest house.

"I don't know... It still felt wrong."

He walked to my side and clung to my arm. "Don't worry Hyukkie lets just go eat and look for your crutches hehe"

"I forgot!! They better still be there or else I would have to get physical on you!!!"

"Heh I wouldn't mind that."

Tease.

"Come on. Let me give you a piggy back ride."

"Jerk." I wrapped my arms around his neck as he grabbed my legs to hold me carry me with ease.

He carried me back to the school's property.

"Hae I have a secret to tell you but I can't tell you unless you tell me one of your secrets first."

"Haha well ok hmmm but you probably know everything about me."

"Not really."

"*Sigh* okay well... first I do like to be called a fishy. So when i complain to others for making fun of me I actually do it so they would continue to do so..."

Such a shame that I couldn't look at his face because from the looks of his reddened ears he seems really embarrassed.

"Now Hyukkie your turn love."

"Ahh well it's more like a confession... but promise you won't be upset!"

"I could never be upset with a cutie like you"

"You and your cheesy lines"

"Only for you babe" 

"Ughh... well okay soooo you know when umm before you had confessed to me that you were gay?"

"hmmm well my memory is a bit vivid. You know cuz of how WELL you took the news" he laughed at the memory.

"SORRY geez Hae it was all very new to me! I'm sorry!"

"Ohh Hyukkie it's all fine. I still love you. I just love teasing you and making you squirm. Sorry Hyukkie~ Please continue."

"FINE! ... well umm when I first went to go visit you I uhhh putupcamerasinyourroom!"

"What?"

"*Cough* Yeah... Cameras. Sorry..."

"...."

"Hae?"

"And you called me a . Now I feel molested!"

"Shut up!" I buried my face onto his back.

"Hahaha I'm kidding. it's fine Hyukkie..." He halted in the middle of the field. "Oh! but umm did you happen to like uh review the tapes?"

"Hmm? Nope cuz I forgot about them hehe." He sighed in relief and continued to walk towards the school.

"Good."

"Why?"

"No reason. I just don't want you to watch undress... unless you want to watch it?"

"Ewww no! !" I punched his back with both my hands

"Oww stop Hyukkie! I might accidently drop you!"

"Pshh whatever..." I punch him one last time as I wrap my arms around his neck.

"Finally!" We had reached the front of our school's office. Hae set me down by the bus stop as he walked towards the front school gates.

"I'll be back. Stay here." I nodded in response as he began to climb the fence.

After a couple of minutes I saw Hae throwing my crutches over the fence.

"What the hell hae?! threat them nicely!! I didn't buy them!" He walked back to me carry the crutches and handing them to me.

"Sorry. Who did?"

"Kyu" I grabbed the crutches and got up with almost no struggle. I guess I really am getting better. At this rate I might really be able to play on Friday's game.

I started walking to my house with Hae trailing behind.

"Oh...." I stopped walking and threw a quick glance at Hae. He was looking at the ground twiddling with his fingers.

"Yup." I  felt this guilty feeling wash over me. " Ha-"

"Anyways! guess what?" He looked up at me with his bright smile. I threw him a questioning look to which he responded with a wider grin.

Sigh. Whatever I don't want to deal with drama right now...

"I don't know. What Hae?"

 "I joined your basketball team."

"WHAT?!" He ran up to my side and began walking with me.

"Yeah! well it's cuz I needed extra credits to graduate aaand I heard you guys need a new co-manager/water boy type of member" He smirked at my facial expression.

"Y-YOU need extra credit? what the heck are you talking about? you're an A+++ student!"

"True. BUT since I want to go to a top school I need the extra credits. ESPECIALLY since someone kept getting me called into the principle's office almost every month! Remember that someone had me suspended twice?" He said in a dramatic pitch making sure to emphasis key words.

Guilt now replaced my annoyed feeling.

"Ah that... but you're barely a junior you still have this and next year to redeem yourself. Plus aren't you in the student council as the president and in five freaken different clubs"

"True. but this is MIT we are talking about... I can't risk those records putting me in jeopardy. Don't you know there are other students in a better position that I am in? Plus I always go to see you during your practice and even to all your games. Why not do the same thing but earning credits at the same time?"

".... I guess. If it's what you want." Dang it I can't say no... it is my fault he even has to do consider to add more baggage to his shoulder. I can't be selfish.

"It is! I'm glad you approve Hyukkie!"

"You would have done it without my approval..."

"Yup!"

We finally got to the front of my house.

"Well Hae I talk to you later kay?"

"Yea"

"Later!" I opened my front door and took a step forward. I lost my balance and twirled in a half circle. Hae's lips were softly pressed against my forehead as he held my arms tightly in his hands.

"Bye Hyukkie. Think of me"

He helped stand up straight before jogging back towards his house.

I stood there for a good five minutes.

What the hell?

I could feel my head become heavy. I felt my face sweat like crazy. My legs were becoming jelly. I was surprised I didn't fall onto the ground. I was able to hold my self up against the door frame. My heart was racing at a billion miles per minute.

How could I have not noticed how much Hae had affected me in the past?

Damn this heart!

I robotically went back into my house closing the door gently behind me. I saw Sora coming out of the kitchen wearing a jogging pants and t-shirt, scratching her stomach with a sandwich in and glass of milk in her other hand. She looked at me curiously. I on the other hand didn't bother to give her a second glance.

I heard her mumble something along the lines of "What is wrong?" 

"Good." I walked to the end of the hall and opened my bedroom door ignoring her eyes following my every move.

I threw my crutches off to the side and threw my body onto my bed. I inhaled the smell of strawberries. It soothed my rapidly heart beats.

"GAHHHHHHHHHH!"

Sora threw my door opened with force breaking off the doorknob.

"WHAT'S WRONG!"

Sora caught me with my hands and legs up in the air kicking at the empty space.

"ARE YOU OKAY?!"

"I'M FINE! GET OUT!! Ahh! YOU BROKE MY LOCK!"

"What the hell? This is what I get for worrying about my brother? Psssh... it's just a stupid lock."

I glared at her as she looked at me questioningly. I almost thought she was about to use her martial arts on me. Sora is a very feminine girl except on weekends. That is her time to work out and relax. She told me something about reliving stress but I never fully listen to anything she says. Most of the time she nags.

She walked up to me with her arms crossed and an eyebrow raised.

Automatically, my arms wrapped around my head and my body into a fiddled position. She maybe younger but she's tougher. It scares me.

"Tch. I know what happened you and HAE are D.A.T.I.N.G." I threw my hands onto my side and and sat up straight. My eyes widened in horror.

She scares me too much.

"N-no"

"Yes!"

"No!"

"Yes!"

"No!"

"No!"

"Yes!" My eyes widened at the shock and my face, for the hundredth time today, turned into a tomato.

"Psychology." She smirked in victory. I sighed in relief as she began walking out the door.

"Heh. ." 

"P-? W-what?"

"I saw"

"Saw what?"

"Your tapes~!"

"My tapes?"

"Yeah! Ahh I should warn Hae what type of man you really are." She slammed the door shut leaving me in ultra quietness with only the sound of her creepy laughter fading away as she walked further away from the hallway.

"Tapes?" I tried remembering what she had been referring to. I mean sure I had those adult videos but I put those far away into the secret entrance into the attic located in my room. The only tapes I have here are my movies, which are not erted just gory. 

I laid back down on my bed... hmm tapes... tapes... tapes... I do have Hae's tapes... but it wouldn't be those would they? I mean she has seen Hae without a shirt and we are both man so it's like whatever... except for his abs are more toned then mine... that jerk.

I haven't even check what is recorded on there... I forgot I had even put those in there. 

I should look at them but Hae told me not too. Well more like he said I could if I was a , which I am not! but having Sora talk about those tapes makes me wonder what else is on there. 

I groaned and ruffled my hair. I sat up on my bed and looked at my computer screen. 

? or No ? That is the question....

Ahhh whatever! I should just watch it...

I jumped off my bed and hopped onto to my desk chair. I my television and grabbed my the tapes I had snuck out of Hae's room the day after we got into a huge argument.

I put them into my the vcr, yes it's old but this was the first electronic I had ever bought with my own money and I do not plan on getting rid of it.

For the first thirty minutes everything was normal. Hae changing, and since I am his partner/boyfriend I can accept that he is in fact very fit. It troubles me. 

I fast forward through the next thirty minutes when I'm coming into his room from the bathroom, we talk a bit than I fall asleep blah blah blah. 

I think Sora was messing with me...

I get up to take out the tape but I notice something on the tv. My eyes widened in shock. H-he kissed me!

Sure this shouldn't be a big deal from what has already happened between us but it is still shocking! 

He violated my lips! While I was asleep! That ert! 

I begin to mumble a few profanities to him as I replayed the scene.

After a while I paused the video. Not sure if I should continue watching it. I hopped back to my door and opened it.

"SORA!" I screamed through the door.

"WHAT?!"

"WHERE YOU TALKING ABOUT HAE'S TAPE?!"

"YEA!"

"WHAT THE HELL?!"

"YEA I SAW HOW HE KISSED YOU AND YOU ENJOYED IT IN YOUR SLEEP YOU ERT!"

"uggh IS THAT ALL YOU SAW?"

"YEA I DIDN'T WANT TO SEE YOU GUYS DOING IT!"

"NEVER COME INTO MY ROOM!"

"BLAH!" I slammed the door shut and walked back to the tv.

I could end up seeing something I wouldn't want to see.

I take out the tape and put it into the self dedicated to videos.

I'll just wait...

 

Sorry guys this is a short update. I've been super duper busy with school. it kills me lol Ive been drinking pure energy drinks and junk food to stay up and finish my big assignments and reports. I have finals on mon, wed, and thur so i decided to update this weekend since i will have a tighter schedule next week T~T I'm sleepy but I'm just thinking about summer~! ahh and i have another eunhae plot in my mind but I don't have time to start it at all so instead I'll write it down and maybe put it up in the future... I'm still not fully confident on my writing xD lol

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fishy44 #1
Chapter 14: omg why i'm here? jajja i'm famous yeeeeeei
eunsweetlover #2
new suscriber here!!! looks interesting will eunhyuk accept donghae? :)
bad_reality
#3
Chapter 14: I was about to keep this chap and continue nex chap but then..I saw my name xD
WTH
where did you get my name? OMG I LOVE KYUHYUN LMAO
nui_be #4
Chapter 31: *cough*epilogue would be appreciated*cough*
cholily94 #5
such a amazing ff!!
I really love it!will u please make a sequel for it???I think it doesn't need multi chaptered sequel but maybe a one shot will be cool!!!
and I want to ask ur permission for translating this great ff in to persian??so may I dear?
plz let me know ur answer^^
yeonjihee96
#6
Chapter 14: I have my own pov here , hehehehe I like it even though it's a heart breaking *.* , anyway up to the next chapter ;)
SUJU4ever13 #7
Chapter 31: Thankyou for your story!!!! I really enjoyed it.... Sequel please??
xoELFxo
#8
Chapter 31: sequel please~ *batting eyelashes*
Naicumi #9
Chapter 14: Asdasdas You can do that? Is a trap xD Oh~~! OMFG! I was tricked xD
Naicumi #10
Chapter 14: OMFG! NAICUMI? IT'S ME!!!! Oh My ing God I am in a FANFIC!!