What If
I Belong To You, Even If You Don't Want Me To
Donghae's POV
"H-Hae ... I uhh we..."
"Donghae. I don't know if you remember me but I'm kyuhyun. I knew both of you back in middle school. Hyukkie and I-"
"Yeah. I remember you.. You used to beat the crap out of him! Why the hell are you hanging out with this guy Eunhyuk?!"
"I-I .... no-none of your business." Eunhyuk grabbed his backpack and crutches getting ready to leave.
"What?" I glared at his back.
"Let's go Kyu." Did he just call him kyu?
"Okay Hyukkie. Bye Hae" Kyuhyun smirked before he left the classroom.
I would have gone after them if it weren't for my stupid backpack that was caught in-between the chair and my desk.... stupid backpack it caused me to fall back down! They were gone by the time I freed myself.
"Damn it!!" I kicked the desk in front of me.
~*~ Lunch Time ~*~
"Hae why are you stuffing your mouth full of food? you shouldn't do that... you could choke."
"Im jusft really hunghry" (keke idk how to make someone talk as if they are full sorry)
"uhuh... oh look! there's Hyukkie! ahhh and with some guy ... that I've never seen.."
I looked over to where the cashiers where and there he was. Hyukkie ... standing with his 'BUUUUDDY~'
"Disgusting."
"What Hae?"
"Oh umm nothing Kibum."
I watched as Kyuhyun carried their trays over to a table across the room. I tried to ignore them but my eyes did not listen to my brain. I watched intently as Kyuhyun got closer and closer to Hyukkie until finally he dared to touch MY hyukkie's lips!! Than Hyukkie, the idiot that he is, began to blush!
What the heck you never acted that way in front of me!
So annoying.
"Sorry Kibum I have to be alone for a while..... I'll talk to you after class." I didn't wait for his response. I didn't want to stay in the same room as those two. I left the cafeteria and headed to the cave. I laid on top of it just like in the past. How I wish I could rewind time, at least during that time I wasn't in love.
"HYUKKIE YOU'RE DRIVING ME CRAZY!!!!"
I breathed in and out heavily. It felt good to scream.
"S-sorry Hae..."
Great. Now I'm going crazy! Will I ever find peace? I closed my eyes and tried to ignore these unlikable feelings.
"Please don't ignore me..."
Weird... That sounded so real....
"Hae?"
No way... It's real.
Hyukkie is here?
"Please Hae?"
My eyes shot opened realizing I was not alone anymore.
"Hae I'm sorry. I didn't mean what I said before. At your house. I just ... I hated the way you thought so little of me! the heck Hae I told you I was fine with you being gay! I was uhh just confused about something else....
.... Say something!!"
"What are you doing here?" I sat up straight and looked down at him from the top of the cave.
"Huh? oh uh I wanted to talk to you... "
"Go on..." I ignored my inner Hae jumping and singing out of joy! It was rare that Hyukkie apologized. It felt great when he did.
"I-I hate not being friends .... plus since this morning all your fan girls have been picking on me hahaha if it weren't for Kyu I think I would have had two broken legs haha-"
"Why are you with Kyu?"
"oh. well he kinda helped me out with a problem yesterday. We got to know each other and... hes going to uhh. well he said he was going to li-..... like to be friends with me and you so... yeah.."
I jumped down from the cave. I closed the distance between the two of us to get a better look of Hyukkie. It felt as if he was lying or hiding something from me...
"Is that it?"
"Of of course Hae!"
"Hyukkie I don't like it when you hang out with him."
"Oh... I'm sorry Hae." I sighed in relief.
"But I cant not hang out with him... he's my friend. A real trust worthy friend." I clenched my first into a tight ball
"Hyukkie you're kidding right?"
"I'm sorry Hae. I'm not. I like him."
Are you freaken serious?
"... Go away." My anger began to boil inside of me. I didn't want to yell at Hyukkie.
"What?"
"Hyukkie I need some time to be alone.. I need time to think.. Why him? because of him you got hurt! because of him you had to buy new clothes practically everyday because of him I gave up my! MY-..." future "... your happiness..."
"No Hae. because of him I met you and we became best friends! Find me when you calm down. Bye Hae. See you after school, hopefully."
I watched as Hyukkie began to leave me. He was leaving me for Kyu.
I don't want that.
Hyukkie you don't know how much I've given up for you.
I would do anything to make you happy... but not for you too be besides KYU or anybody else for that matter. No I gave up everything so that you could be happy beside me. I don't care if I'm selfish or end up throwing my life away because I just need you. Even if you don't want to be with me, I'll make you. I'm sorry but I just don't want to live if you're with somebody else.
I don't know when my legs were moving but they just automatically moved. they were leading me to you... to my Hyukkie.
Please stay.
I saw Hyukkie from a distance. I could see he was getting closer to school grounds.
I ran faster and faster and faster until I finally collapsed on his back. I wrapped my arms around his waist, while he dropt his crutches.
"Hae! What's wrong?!" I tightened my grip around his waist.
"Hae I can't Stand up right. I'm losing my balance Please loosen your grip." I ignored his plea.
Even if he hates me I won't let go.
"Hae?" I loosened my grip on his waist. He picked up his crutches and turned around to face me. He balanced himself on his crutches and cupped half of my face with one hand.
"What's wrong?" I ignored his question.
I was memorized by his beautiful features. His perfect jawline. His perfect round eyes. His perfect nose. His perfect lips...
"Haaaae!! Tell me! Lunch is almost ov-" my mind went blank.
I don't know how or when exactly I did it but I ended up face to face with Hyukkie. Lips to lips... and god I felt like I was in heaven. I was so incredibly and undeniably happy that Hyukkie didn't try to push away. I knew that it was mainly due to shock but either way it pleased me.
I heard the bell ring from a distance. I reluctantly let go of my paradise. I didn't want him to be the one to let go first.
"See you after school." I whispered in his ears before I happily went off too class with a huge grin on my face.
I sat on my chair thinking about what I just did...
It finally hit me... Oh god I kissed him! My first kiss! wait its my second but he doesn't know so I'll just say first haha I can't believe this. I felt my head begin to burn up. What did I do?! Hae! you idiot! you forgot to stay in control! Oh god what if he hates me!
All these "what ifs" left me anxious to see Hyukkie. Again i did not pay attention to my teacher ahh today is not a school day....
Was this rushed? I don't know... I felt like it wasn't lol but maybe you guys think other wise.. should i make Hae suffer a bit? kkeke tell me what you guys think <3 I know i didn't update yesterday~ but its cuz i fell asleep on my comp T~T lol my parents are renting a house so i was there all day painting, moping, sweeping, lol pretty much cleaning :( lol i cleaned the windows and now my fingers are aching (some of the windows had paint so i had to scratch it off :O) anyways ill try to do a double update tomorrow but idk im going to stay over there again (i was there all day today too) THANK YOU SUBSCRIBERS~!!!!!!!!! <3 <3 WHO HAS THE BEST SUBCRIBERS IN THIS WORLD AND TWO THUMBS!? THIS GIRL *POINTING AT MYSELF WITH TWO THUMBS UP* ;)
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