Well today i went to my grandpa's funeral. I saw some relatives i hadn’t seen in years. I really enjoyed seeing them all again. For one day, there was no fighting, no drama, no hatred, we all gathered together and even after the funeral, regathered and enjoyed spending time with each other. Maybe, just maybe, things will start to turn around for this family, and we’ll finally see each other more often and be able to spend more time together. I don’t want the next funeral to be for someone who i have very limited memories of. I want to be able to cry and actually feel depressed when the next person in this family passes on. I loved my grandpa, but he wasn’t in my life like my grandma is. I did feel some things today at the funeral, but  i didn’t cry or weep. I instead consoled the ones who did cry and weep, because i didn’t know what else i could do. I think i hugged today more than i have in a long time.