Thunder POV

looking up at the sky i realize that it has been 2 years since the disappearance of my noona. yes, disappearance. i don't believe that she is dead, no, my noona is too strong a woman to be dead. she's out there somewhere and one of these days I'll find her.

apparently the letter that CL and them found was not TRUE, well it was, but it was given to the wrong person due to a typo. the letter that noona got, the one stating that she was sick and was supposed to die within 3 months was not meant for her. but due to the fact that the events leading up to her doctors appointment was quite unfortunate, she was led to believe that she was dying. this also led her to leaving us behind.

when i found out about this i couldn't help but be angry at the doctors, if it wasn't for them who gave her the wrong information, then maybe she'd still be here with us. 

finding out that my sister wasn't actually sick gave me hope to keep searching for her. i know that YG sangjangnim has already hired men to search for my sister, but i couldn't help but hire my own set of men. its not that i don't trust YG sangjangnim its just that with more people looking for her there's a higher chance of her being found quickly. but that was a year ago.

YG stopped the search after a year. i don't understand the reasons as to why he stopped it, i knew he cared deeply for my sister, she was undoubtedly his favorite 2ne1 member, but he did. maybe because it was all too painful. and accepting that she was just gone was more appropriate. maybe they got tired of waiting for her to come back. or maybe they're mad at her for leaving. i don't know, all i know is that i will keep searching for my noona.

my noona has always been there for me. for our family. especially when our father abandoned us. she became the sister, the friend, the mother and the father to me and our other sister Durami. she gave up going to college to become a teacher like how she always wanted, to provide for the family. trekking the world of fame in the Philippines and carrying the burden of our family and being a foreigner as she entered the showbiz world.

i cant find enough words to describe how thankful i am to her. i love my sister and i will do anything to find her.

normal POV

"sir, we've recently just found out that Sandara-shi did not go to the Philippines at all, we've checked with the security cameras in the airport from the past 2 years and we found no record of her ever coming to the airport," a gruff looking man said to the phone.

"what do you mean she never came to the Philippines? she bought tickets to go there didn't she?" a young man exclaimed at the other person on the line

"yes sir, but we found no records at all of her coming into the airport in the Philippines, nor was there any record of her boarding the flight."

sigh. " so you're telling me that she never even sent foot in the Philippines?"

"yes sir"

"so where is she?"

"................."

"well?!"

"sir, are you sure that your sister only has one account? maybe she has another bank account that she used to purchase another ticket with? or maybe...."

"...or maybe what?"

"do you think she could still be there in Korea?"

"............."

"sir?"

"I'll call you back later, try and find out more information whether or not she actually got there. I'll see if i can find out if she has another account she could possibly have used."

*click*

sigh. Noona, where are you?

Bigbang MV shooting

" hey hyung!!!!" the maknae screams at the top of his lungs.

*smack*

"yah! hyung! why'd you smack me?!"

"you're too damn loud maknae." the eldest member of the group said as he walked off to the dressing room.

"tsk, you're just being a party -pooper hyung" seungri says as he follows his hyung to the dressing room.

"What's wrong with going out with her, hyung? i mean she's nice, pretty, talented, tall, y,etc, etc, etc....why don't you just try it hyung?" he asks the rapper

"no, and that's it. i don't want to continue this talk Seungri, no more." the charismatic rapper of Bigbang replies in a monotone voice as he walks out.

"leave him be maknae" the leader of the group says as he enters the room

"yeah, you know why Top-hyung is like that. give him some time, Seungri." Taeyang says following after the dragon

"time?!" exclaimed the maknae, "its been 2 freaking years hyung! 2 years that he's been an emotionless zombie! i just want him to be happy again! don't you guys want to see him happy and hanging out with us like before?!"

"Seungri" says the angel Daesung "we all want hyung to to be happy again but we also know that he's hurting still. i understand that you miss how hyung used to be, but Seungri, we also need to understand that the situation isn't that simple. he's hurt and that pain is still raw, even after 2 years, its because he truly loves HER. and he can't accept that SHE's gone."

"Daesung's right, Seungri. lets just give hyung some more time to accept what we have. SHE's gone and we cant bring HER back. let's just be there for him. he needs us to be supporting him not pressuring him. just be more patient maknae. we know how you feel, we miss the old Top-hyung too, just as much as you do." the leader says as he gives the maknae a hug.

Top POV

I'm sorry maknae. i know that you only want me to be happy again but, i cant. it still hurts too much. maybe with time i can accept that she's gone and i cant grasp onto the memories we had anymore, maybe then will i be able to look for another source of happiness. till then though, i hope that you guys can just give me some time and keep supporting me, cause God knows how much i need it.