"Jiwon-ah..."

"Hhhmmm.....why you call me, hayi-ya?"

"Am I disturb you? I didn't see you at school today....."

"Yeah, I didn't go to school today....."

"Why???? You sick???? U have an injury cause your basket tournament yesterday? Are you okay?"

"I'm fine. Don't worry, hayi-ya. You're too much...just take a rest, don't mind me. I'm okay here."

"..."

"Hayi? I must go now. I have something to do. Bye? Love you."

"Bye...I miss you..."

Kim Jiwon, mostly people known him as Bobby. But i call him by his real name, jiwon. I call him bobby when i . Popular basketball player in my school, then an underground rapper. Really busy. Often absent from school. He's really focus with his passion. Yeah I don't mind, cause passion is the power to live your life. I do understand when we can't spend our time together, cause he has a lot of something to do, like basketball practice almost everyday after school while I have my cheers practice too, he perform in underground gig (sometimes I come to his gig), and more activities. He has a lot of activities. Sometimes I don't know what his schedule, cause he rarely text me or even call me. Like now...

I didn't see him after he walked me home after his basketball tournament yesterday and he don't even text or call me after that. I'm afraid that he has injury or anything that hurt him. So i called him, then he said that he's fine. Thanks, God...

I just lay on her bed, take a rest after cheers practice. Thinking about their relationship is almost 2 years. Like, wow. I never imagine that we can make our relationship this far. Like, seriously.....even when I was with my ex-es, the longest are just 3 months. 3 months. Once again, 3 months. I just don't know why me oh I mean we can make it this far.....almost 2 years.

When I think it more details about our relationship. We rarely spent our time together. I can counts our time together just 4 times a month. We rarely spent our weekend together, if we have empty schedule we can hang out together. Aaaaandddd he text me just 5 times a day. Usually he text me morning greeting, remind me to eat, inform me his schedule, ask me what am I doing, and night greeting. But, when he miss me, he will text me a lot and we can spend a few hours on the phone and he can suddenly appear in front of my house. But when he's really busy, he just send me a morning greeting and I'm the only one who busy text him.

Yeah we're going to same school but different class, he's my senior. When we rarely met, we absent our class then met in cafeteria or going out from school and stop in our favorite cafe. Rebel? No. It's teenage life.

But after our first anniversary, I quiet often feel bored with our relationship. Sometimes I really don't care about him, just did what i wanna do. Hanging out with friends, practice cheers very hard and back home late, sleeping a lot, shopping all day long and thats all without telling him anything. but, it's really comfortable when I with him. I don't feel lonely when I'm with him, cause he really like to tell jokes, eventho it's a bad joke. I really like his bad joke, he knows a lot of stuff, he really talkative, active, sometimes made a romantic lyric and often make it to his song then he perform it at his gig, and he really...lovable.

Or maybe, this comfortable feeling, cause already be my habit. I don't know the feeling when I live without him. Can someone tell me?

 

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to: Jiwon-Bae
'Hey, you come to school today?'

 

from: Jiwon-Bae
'Morning. I can't come to school today.'

 

to: Jiwon-Bae
'You okay? You sick?'

 

from: Jiwon-Bae
'No need to worry. I'm fine. I have something to do recently...'

 

to: Jiwon-Bae
'The busy bobby oppa, huh?'

 

from: Jiwon-Bae
'Ah, no. It ain't something important tho. Don't worry. If I have spare time I will visit you at home or we can spend our time hang out at our favorite cafe...'

 

to: Jiwon-Bae
'Okay, if that so...'

 

from: Jiwon-Bae
'Love you. See you soon!'

And I don't wanna reply it. I don't know. And I don't really curious what is he doing now. Yeah.............this already get me bored. Sorry, jiwon-ah...

My schedule today: boring class, boring class & boring class, after that I have a cheers practice, then gonna try new cafe for doing my homework, oh hmmm maybe shopping a bit it's not a big problem. And all alone. As usual.

Yup. Eventho when I already with jiwon, I still have my own time. Like today. I don't know, I really like being alone. And jiwon never complain about it.

Boring. Boring. Boring. Now I'm on math class. The ambience are really serious. It make this class more boring. 10 minutes again till math class over. I can't wait of it. It feels sooooo lame.

"Excuse me, Sir. Can I go to toilet?"

"Of course, Ms. Lee."

"Thank you..."

Then I already out from math class. Going to cafeteria it will be a good choice for now. I'm hungry, and thirsty. I order my food & drink and wait for another minutes. I looking around to observe if there's another student or not or maybe a teacher pass this cafeteria.

Now, I just the only one student here. Gonna spend my '10 minutes' here till math class over, after that I'm going to library for...............sleep?

My food coming. I ordered broccoli with melted cheese with extra cheese sauce. Oh my goodness, bless who create this food. It's my favorite food! And I ordered chocolate milkshake & mineral water. I eat it like there's no tomorrow. Heaven.

The bell is ringing. A sign that recent class it's already over. And I already finished my food. So, yeah I'm going to library now. It's not take a long time to get in to library. You just walk for 3 minutes, and you arrive in library. Just take whatever book, then search for a good spot to sleep. I need sleep cause yeah I will have my cheers practice, I need more energy.

But, my mum said if just finished eating don't sleep. Cause it will make you look fat. That's no no. I don't want it happen to me.

Ok, what should I do then?

 

It's over it's over so baby goodbye.

 

I check my phone. Oh. Jiwon calling me.

 

"Yeah?"

"Hello, baby. What are you doing now?"

"I have something to do."

"Whoa whoa. Now, you are the busy hayi eonnie."

"Yeah kinda. Why you call me, jiwon-ah?"

"Can I pick you home after school"

"I have something to do today. I'm sorry, I can't for today. Maybe next time."

"I really can't pick you up?"

"Yup."

"Really?"

"Yeah."

"You have cheers practice today, don't you?"

"Yup."

"It must be tiring for you. I can pick you up."

"No, thank you. As usual, I can going home alone."

"I'm worry....."

"No need to worry, jiwon-ah. I'm fine."

"If that's so....."

"Ok, bye? I have something to do right now."

"Bye. I love you"

And hang up the phone and not aswering back the 'I love you' thingy. I'm sorry, jiwon-ah. But this is what I feel right now. Bored with this relationship.

I need new activity. But what I'm gonna choose............

 

 

 

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