"I miss you." I whispered as i hugged her from behind "And, I'm sorry" I knew a tear fell off my eyes as i felt a hot water in my face. I hugged her a little longer before releasing her and sat at the edge while she's still in the same position. I really miss her. Her warmth, her soft sweet voice, her aegyo, her smell, her unexpected kisses, her tight cuddle, her angry voice, her nagging, her glare, her antics, every bits of her. I miss you very much Jessica Jung Sooyeon. "I know i shouldn't have putted you in this situation. But .. *sigh* I know i'm hurting you. And i'm sorry for that. I hope you can forgive me. I know that you know that i've been lying to you. Someday you'll know why and that someday would come." I left our room already. I can't take it anymore. I might do things that could wake her up.

-

"But why aren't you telling me that face to face?" Jessica asked as she open up her eyes. Yes. She isn't sleeping. She's still in the middle of making herself fall asleep then when she heard their door open, she immediately closed her eyes, fake sleeping. "Do you really miss me? Or is that another lie?" She sighed and then goes out to the living room. She didn't feel like sleeping anymore.

"Hoggy, Do you want to run?"
*Arf*
"Wait, I'll just change my clothes." So she changed her clothes to a trackpants and a shirt. She was told to check the dog first if it is in the condition to walk or run. Because if not, the dog wouldn't cooperate.

Jessica and hoggy ran laps around the neighborhood and is now walking in the park after it. She ran in hopes that she could shrug some thoughts off in her. Hoggy wanted to run somewhere but Jessica didn't let her and still have a tight grip in hoggy's chain. She checked if there is something that's causing hoggy to be free from her hold. Then there she saw a heartbreaking scene. She saw Yoona kissing another girl. It was kinda far yet, she's so sure that the two kissed. The nerve of them to do that in this village. The nerve of them to do that so openly. Damn them. Pissed Jessica mumbled to herself as she was still frozen in her spot. The only thing that woke up in her trance was hoggy's barking. She hurriedly ran in another direction before that two could be aware of her presence. She is not yet ready for confrontation. She isn't ready yet. It's not yet time for that. "Time is going by so fast and i'm having a hard time catching up"

-
"I heard that the shipment got delayed. Is it true?"

"Dad, Can we not talk about business in the house? I don't intend to be rude but seriously, I already had enough for this day and i don't think i could take much more" Jessica softly explained. She wanted to ditch this dinner but family day is family day. Mr. Jung don't ask much about her business. It just happens that she isn't in the mood to talk about it

"How is the dates with Clinton?"

"He's in Paris with uncle"

"Oh is that so? But how was the previous dates you had?"

"It's fun. We go to the places we promised we would and we're discovering new things."

"That's good to hear. How about you? When is the next comeback?"

"Soon ~" Krystal said somehow trying to lift up the family's mood.

So the family talked about Krystal and f(x)'s future activities but Jessica's mind isn't in the talk. She badly wanted to know who's that girl. And she wanted to know about what Yoona's say in this. She badly want to know the details. But she's scared at the truth that she may face. She's also mad at the fact that Yoona wanted to get into her pants so badly, but is now leaving her so ty. She doesn't get why does this happen. Why did Yoona chose her when she'll just choose another? Why did they make it longer when it would only crumble as fast as a flash? She got to admit that their relationship isn't perfect. Nor close to that. Because there were times where she couldn't be there for Yoona. There are times that she can't give what Yoona wants. She knows about it. But none of it was fake. She did whatever happened before because she wants to. She did those with love. But now, Is letting go a part of it? Is letting go really a part of loving someone?

-

Jessica stayed overnight at their home. She didn't plan to but it was already late when the family time ended and she got lazy to drive back to their home (Yoonsic's)

"Unnie, Did you receive a text from Clinton?"

"Yes."

"Are you going?"

"Yes. How about you?"

"You're going, then i'm going too. I wonder what's his surprise."

"I was thinking of that too. It's not mine or your birthday too."

"Maybe he brought the Eiffel Tower for us!"

"Silly" Jessica chuckled

"Oh i made you laugh. It's a miracle!"

"Huh?"

"It's been, weeks that i haven't seen you laugh or even smile. Is there something wrong?"

"Nothing heh"

"You do know that you could tell me."

"Tell you what?"

"Anything what's occupying your mind this days. The thing you do with Clinton"

"I'll date you?"

"Noooooo!! The listening something" Jessica giggled

"It's nothing. But if there is, i'll tell you. Don't worry"

"I wonder why he have to suggest what you should wear tho." Krystal asked while scratching her nape and looking at the dress in their room delivered to them and it was said that it is from clinton.

"It's okay. The dress is so cute"

 

 

So the two head out to the place where they were asked to go for the said 'surprise'

"Nice. So are we playing slave and princess here?" Krystal remarked as she saw Clinton in the entrance wearing a white polo and a bow tie, black slacks and black shoes

"Do i look like a slave?"

"Yeah"

"What a handsome slave am i"

"So full of you"

 

"So what's the surprise?"

"Nothing much really. I just want to bond with you without lessing it from our dates. Because this is not considered as one"

"Eyyyy. No way."  Krystal smirked then moments later someone from behind covered her eyes "Are we playing hide and seek now?"

"Why do you keep on asking and saying what we're playing? Seriously"

"Aren't we?"

"No"

"Okay. Then who's this? I'm gonna flip this one over"

"Do you miss me that much?"

"Ford?!"

"No other than." They guy then removed his hand from covering Krystal's eyes and sat in his place

"Why didn't you join us for dinner?"

"I just got here. I missed you that much"

"Eii"

"But what about me? What's my surprise? Don't have any?" Jessica pouted

"Me" Jessica pouted even more "Kidding. Here..." Clinton took out something under the table

"Why does unnie have a present while i don't have one?"

"I told Clifford to spend his vacantion here. It's a present"

"How is that a present? Can i exchange it for something better?"

"I have a present for you. Tch. Want to exchange me for something"

"He got it covered, so?"

"But what is this? What is the ocassion?"

"Wait." Clinton stood up and headed to the kitchen. "Happy 20th birthday to us"

"Are you drunk? Our birthday is in April."

"20 HAHAHAHA I wasn't informed that once you go to Paris you'll get dumber" Clinton glared at Krystal first

"I mean our friendship. We've been friends for 20 years now. It may not be the exact date but yeah"

"How can you be so sure?" His brother, Cliford asked and then Clinton placed the cake down in the table to take out his wallet then showing the three a picture with him and Jessica playing in the swings. He also showed a picture of them 4 playing in the playground in SF

"Wow."

"I know. Fascinating, isn't it?"

"But why does unnie have to wear something that's alike in the pic?"

"Staying in Korea for too long makes someone dumber? Why am i not informed about that?" Clinton imitated Krystal

"Eish"

Jessica looked at Clinton signalling that she don't know either.

"There is this trend in instagram that i've read. It's not just the usual Throwback Thursday or Flashback Friday but more like going back like the old times or something. It's complicated hehe. I'll demo it later. But for now, let's eat the cake. It'll melt. It's an ice cream one. Just like how the two of you like it"

So they sliced the cake and then ate silently

"And your gift, why aren't you opening it? Don't worry. It's not a bomb." Clinton said as Jessica still haven't taken a peek on his gift. It was just sitting in Jessica's lap

"Toodles!!" Jessica took out a bread stuffed toy from the paper bag

"I know you may prefer something better now. But back in SF when we we're still 11, you would whine at your mom to buy you that toy. But your mom would always tell you that you're too old for that. And if i'm not wrong, i promised you back then that i'll save money to buy you one."

"And you did but when we we're going to buy it, the spoiled brat took it away from us"

"And you cried"

"You cried? In the mall?" Cliford ask with disbelief

"She cried, she even wailed there."

"How embarrassing" Krystal remarked

"I was 11 back then. It's normal to cry at the little things. And toodles is really popular back then"

"So, that time, i badly want to buy you one. You acted as if 'toodles' is that precious to you that you want to treasure. I even wrote it in my diary. Goal #1, bring toodles back to Jessi."

"That's sweet."

"So where did you found a toodles? Paris?"

"Madrid. There's a store there which is really old and they happen to have one"

"Madrid? But the conference was held in Paris, you said so"

"Yeah. I already have toodles the time we got back here the first time again. I just wanted to give it now."

So the group ate and took the said pic. Clinton explained how it goes and he said that some from instagram calls it recreation. Because it was like re-creating the pic from the past but with almost the same background, outfit and pose. They had fun. They played like before. Thanks to it, Jessica didn't think of her problem for that day

 

-

Jessica got home with the aroma of food lingering in their house. She knew Yoona is home.

"It's a surprise that you're home"

"This is our home so it's not a suprise"

"Oh wow. I thought you already forgot it"

"What are you trying to say?"

"Nothing"

"I miss you very much" Yoona whispered when she backhugged Jessica

"Do you?"

"Of course."

"Really?"

"Yes."

"Lie"

"No it's not. I really miss you so much" Yoona answered back. It was a calm yet full of tension.

"So, you're not lying to me?"

"Yes i'm not"

"You still haven't lied to me before?" Jessica had a final conclusion to herself. She wanted know and she's going to do it now. It's now or never.

Yoona bit her lip "I ..."

"So you have?" Jessica asked and Yoona nodded with her head hang low "Then tell me"

"Someday you--"

"Someday i would find out and that someday would come?"

"Yeah"

"Well, I have to tell you that someday is today. And its either you say it now or i'll never believe it when you explain that one some other time" Jessica retort back and Yoona made an 'o' with before mentioning Jessica to sit in the couch

"Okay. I'll tell you now"

...

"Can you forgive me for lying to you?"

"Yes. If yo