*

You make me worry, you make me wait
You make me misunderstand, this isn’t love
Oh stop, no, I’m sick of this, what are you doing

It’s wobbly, no no no no no no
It’s tiring, no no no no no no way

I’m getting nervous about us these days, what do I do?
I try to hurry and comfort you while my heart wears away
Your eyes that have coldly frozen are far away now
What do you want me to do?
You confuse me, you shake me up
You disappoint me, I can’t trust this anymore

It’s wobbly, no no no no no no
It’s tiring, no no no no no no way

Stop it Now, Stop it Now, Stop it Now
Stop the Lie, Stop the Lie, Stop the Lie
Stop it Now, Stop it Now, Stop it Now

*

"What do you have to talk to me anyway?"

Hyuna unnie really is a straightforward person anyway. I should've prepared myself better than just staring at her with gaping mouth at the sudden direct approach.

"Unn...Unnie, can you...accompany me...later? Maybe...tomorrow?" I tried to control my voice from shaking, but it still shook at having to face the cold, cat-like eyes of Hyuna unnie, that felt like they're stripping off everything I was trying to conceal behind my shaky voice.

"Where to?"

"Uhm...the...or..orphanage..."

She frowned at my answer.

"Actually, uhm...Hyesung oppa said he wanted...to take care of kids there for a day, back then. I...want to do this for him. Can we, unnie?"

"He said that? ...well, then just bring Seungah with you." She shrugged and from the way she turned away I knew she'd be leaving to her room, I had to cling onto her and not let her go.

"What?"

"I...I want all of us to go, Seungah unnie, you, Kihyun oppa, me...we all...we all do this for Hyesung oppa. Please, unnie? For Hyesung oppa?" I held onto her arm as tightly as I could, but easily, she removed my hands after staring at me for a few seconds in daze.

"We'll see about it." Was all she said before slowly even her shadow left me and the soft click of her door was all that was heard.

Will Hyuna unnie agree to the idea?, I wondered. I felt horrible to use Hyesung oppa's name but I couldn't think of anything else. She'd be in rage and push me to tell everything if I reveal that it's to save her from Romeo. I couldn't possibly tell anyone, they wouldn't understand. They wouldn't believe. Though strangely, Siwan did. Did he?

Great, now, I have to drag Kihyun oppa and Seungah unnie along to the orphanage. Maybe Seungah unnie would be able to persuade Hyuna unnie.

How many days am I left with?

"Time flies when you're having fun, you know? Wouldn't the day come tomorrow already?"

"What? N...no! I still have time!"

"Oh really?" He kept his view busy to his finger nails. What's so interesting about his nails anyway?

"But really Hyunnie, I'm so happy ever since I met Hyungjunie again. He will be happier when he got back his memory though. Don't you wish for it?"

"I...you...stay away from Hyungjun ssi! And...everyone. You can't do anything until the week's over."

"You're no fun. Tch."

"Yah, where did that crazy woman went to? Already lock her room? What the hell? So where am I supposed to throw all her bags?! Aish..."

"I'll help you, Kihyun ssi."

And I only watched as Kihyun oppa moved Hyuna unnie's luggages inside with assistance from the Devil. Aish, Hyeonrin, what are you doing? Don't let them get close. He will steal all your family members' trust from you.

"Oppa, I'll help." I tried to pull one of the bag, but was blocked from even approaching oppa. 

"Hyunnie, these things are too heavy for you. Just go and help Seungah ssi in the kitchen if you're free."

And Kihyun oppa said nothing to disagree with him.

Am I really losing them, little by little?

"Seungah unnie, can you...follow me to Mogchoji Orphanage with Hyuna unnie and Kihyun oppa, tomorrow?"

"Huh, orphanage? Why?"

"For...Hyesung oppa, because he's always wanted to take care of the kids there once, but...he never got the chance to." The lies were choking my insides but they couldn't stop flowing out of my mouth. I'm drowning in my own lies. Will I be able to reach the surface or will I sink to the bottom?

"Alright then. I'll bake some cupcakes for the kids there and we'll bring them there. But you have to help me, okay?" She beamed softly and went off to look for her flours and sugars and eggs. Seungah unnie, thanks for giving me some ray of hope when I feel nothing would go right. I couldn't even tell what I was doing anymore. Someone take my hand and lead me, what if I got lost and end up taking the wrong step again?

"Hyeonrin-ah..." Before I realized it, Seungah unnie was already bending over in front of me, ruffling my hair. 

"I miss him too. We all do. Don't be sad, okay. Hyesung oppa will be proud of you, no matter what."

No he won't.

I swallowed the swelling guilt and braved a fake smile at her.

I wanted to contact Min