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Cover your bewildered eyes 
With both hands and
Seek for the truth 
Draw those hands near

There is no voice to answer your half-asked question
In exchange for the light
A cruel night has killed your heart

That hesitating hypocrisy of yours
I'll trample it
The you even you don't know
I'll expose it all

It's ok to hate me deeply
If I remain in you 
I'll be engraved on your insides
I want to become the birthmark that can't be erased

Forever, that unbroken curse, right now
I want you to give it to me
Divine punishment also resounds beautifully
Turn into such lovely spell 
That SIN

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"Joohyun had always been a lonely child. Even though she tried hard to fit in and be somebody everyone would look up to, it wasn't enough. In the end, she still ended up lonely."

Joohyun had always been lonely, Joohyun had always been lonely...

The words of Joohyun's maid wouldn't leave my ears even hours after the funeral ended, even as another day had passed, and ended, and even as I was lying in bed for the first time in over fourty hours, under layers of blankets that didn't seem to be able to stop my trembling. My eyes were defying the warnings of tiredness, the lids refusing to fasten and let me be freed . My eyes, they were too scared of what outrageous thing would appear next the moment I woke up. Even more than that, I couldn't sleep because my heart was in severe pain. 

Joohyun had always been lonely, Joohyun had always been lonely...

She could've had seen the ending of her loneliness, she could've been happy with Seungjae oppa. But I ruined it all. Who would have thought someone with doll-like face and glamorous body, sharp brains, perfect boyfriend and army of friends could ever be associated with the word lonely? To the point that her funeral  had to be organized and carried out by her maid? Couldn't her parents at least come back from their business trip just to send off their daughter? Couldn't her friends at least bid farewell to her and skip their classes or other commitments for once? And Seungjae oppa...where did he went to? Why wasn't he at the reception either? Was he too sad because she committed suicide? But wasn't he always there with her? Why did she even want to kill herself when she had Seungjae oppa by her side? She wasn't alone.

But she was lonely.

"You're not asleep yet. Well, I'm surprised you're even alive, considering you must have been torturing your ownself the whole day."

He turned up from nowhere, and the second he manifested he was already leaning against the wall, next to the door, making fun of me as he usually does. And nobody would've believed it that even coming out of the wall didn't make me scared of him, not anymore. And his mocking had no effect either. There was only one thing bothering me.

"Why? Why did you have to kill her?!"

"Huh...? I didn't kill her. She murdered herself."

"Do you really think I would believe that?"

"It's none of my concern if you refuse to believe."

"My heart is the proof! It wouldn't hurt if this had nothing to do with me."

"Then you answered it yourself already. Mystery solved. You're the one involved, not me."

"Devil ssi!"

"I only did a small part in granting your wish. And I prefer my own name by the way."

"What wish?! I didn't wish for Joohyun to die! And where did Seungjae oppa disappeared to? What did you do to him?! And...and...Joohyun is innocent! Why? ...just...why..."

"You wished that the guy would see you instead of his girlfriend. Sadly, she's still prettier than you it seems, from his choice." His now redder lips slowly pulled upward while his eyes remained not amused as he sidled up to where I was, already seated up, watching him warily. If you ask me whether I wasn't afraid of being murdered by him, I'd say that's the least I'd be afraid of for now. He's enjoying too much from just torturing and mocking me, I doubt he'd want to kill his source of entertainment, or at least, not too soon, right? That brought up my real fear of seeing him, the thought of not knowing what he had up his sleeves for me, next.

"You wished he wouldn't be so nice to stuck by her. You wished he would see you. But that could only happen if that disappeared. You wished she's not there in his eyes. You wished she'd disappear."

"That's not true at all! I...I didn't say those things."

"I can hear your pretty heart too, you know. You couldn't even control yourself, and you think you'd be able to control other people, forcing them to ugly goodness."

"Just stop reading my mind." I pulled my legs, soon enough my knees were hugged close to my chest, providing