Chapter 13 – Horrible

KYUNGSOO POV

“Hyungs do you really want me to tell you?” I wanted to confirm it for the last time before I told them.

“We truly want to know. No matter how bad it is.” Kai hyung said strongly.

“If you trusted us last time then believe in us now. All we want is to be here for you.” Lay hyung said.

I nodded and felt stronger and more confident to face my fear thanks to their encouraging words.

“It happened back in middle school. Back then, I was very shy and even more reserved than when you met me. I think I was an outcast. I don’t really like to interact with people so I was a weakling to the students. Fortunately, I wasn’t being bullied. Then one day, two upper classmen approached me. At first, they just stared at me and did nothing. I was aware of that but I didn’t have power to deal with it. Then they started to be very nice to me. They helped me around school, carried my books, and brought lunch for me. They even started conversations with me. They tried to get me to trust them. I was touched by their behavior. “

Then it was the part I was afraid of. I was a bit hesitant to tell them. I breathed in and out a few times to calm down. I gathered my courage and spoke up.

 “Soon their true plan was revealed. They had completed the first step so it was time to move onto the next step which was what they had planned all along. They initiated skinship with me. At first, it was just a way to show affection towards me. It was just a simple pat on my back, a hug, a caress on my check or a pinch. I sensed no bad thing in their action but soon those innocent touches disappeared and where replaced with something lustful.“

“What did they do exactly?” Kris asked worriedly.

“Instead of a simple pat on my back, their hands just kept roaming on my back to feel my body. Soon their hands began to move down to my waist and then my . I felt very uncomfortable when they tried to squeeze it. I told them stop but since I was weaker than them, I couldn’t do anything. I avoided them as much as possible but it was just a futile struggle. They kept on coming and wanted more. They threatened to make my life at school miserable if I didn't listen to them. Their actions became more aggressive. They touched me more. I thought they did that to satisfy their lust. Sometimes they dragged me to some empty room to molest me. They not only touched me through my clothes but also put their hands under my clothes and moved their hands all over my body.  The worst thing they had done so far at that time was touching my private part. “

I was terrified to think about this again so my eyes became teary and my body was trembling in fear. I also noticed my hyungs were very angry because their faces were red and they had clenched their firsts tightly. Some hyungs were very sad too. I felt guilty, to see them sad because of me.

I continued “I thought that was the worst thing that they could do but I was wrong. One day they aggressively dragged me into the toilet. They pushed me into a corner. One of them held me to prevent me from running away and for the others to easily play with me. He began to my shirt and move his hand all over my torso.  I kept shouting to make them stop hoping that someone would hear my SOS signal and come to save me.”

I couldn’t hold back my tears and I started to cry because to me this was a very horrible experience. “When they finished with my shirt, they stopped for a moment. I was hoping that they had stopped doing all of this but they began to unbuckle my belt. They used their hands to cover my mouth to stop me from screaming for help. I kept struggling to break free. It was no use, I was tired and hurt from their strong grip. I stopped and I could see the evil smirk on their face grew bigger. I felt so hopeless and was about to give up on everything. But thanks god, Doojoon and Hyunsik came in and rescued me from those devils"

I curled up my legs and hid my face.

“I am a very pathetic and dirty person right?”

NO ONE POV

“No you're not. You are still the perfect Kyungsoo that we all love.” Sehun cheered me up