Walking back home, I felt so hopeless. How could I have been so dumb to think he would actually love me truly? I was not any of the cheerleader girls, I was someone on the bleachers, someone who blended in with the crowd, not someone who creates trends, who was a face to pause and watch go by or even be recognized by the people who are not in your close circle of friends. I was a wallflower! I should have known it was nothing but a joke, a bet he made with his friends. I feel so stupid, if only love did not have to blind my eyes. I would not have been heart-broken now. I would not have to be the laughing stock of the school.

I could have taken a bus home but I thought I needed the fresh air to fill my brain so that it could take things off my mind and also think through things properly, with a good, unclogged brain.

 I took a longer route, cut through the park into the small forest and out to an open plain. No one knew this place. It was like my secret place, the trees surrounding this place acted like fences to keep people out. It was where I would come to distress, lie on the grass, look at the clouds, and take naps sometimes. I sat on the soft grass, hugged my knees close to my body. The waterworks had ended their show already. I was still feeling horrible though. ‘So foolish!’ I screamed in my mind. This man who was my first love, he, he was a jock in the school, which means in simple words, the popular guy. The one everyone would die to be friends with, the one every girl has a tiny crush on. He’s the kind that would make you stop and see him pass you by. He seems to have this aura around him that makes him above the rest. That guy, loving an unpopular girl in school is like a taboo. Society is like that, so crude and selfish…

Enough about being depressed, I need to forget and move on. I am not going to close up so much just because of some foolish thing called love. I stood up and stretched my body. I drank some water and counted to three. 'Three,' and I shouted my lungs as loud as I could. I distress this way and also to remove the unwanted feelings. I kept going, shouting till I was tired. I paused a moment. I was feeling soo much better, it does help. Try it some time :) 

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Chloe's note:

HI all!! This is my first story, first chapter and first time writing. Thank you to whoever who reads this. It means a lot. Just like 5 views is awesome!!! Thanks for reading again~ 

The second chappie will come up soon:) The storyline is like one of the most common ones but it took a lot to post this^^ 

Thanks for reading!