"FORGET ALL THE REASONS WHY IT WON'T WORK. AND BELIEVE THE ONLY REASON WHY IT WILL."

 

DONGHAE POV

  I was thinking if I should go and check on Eunhyuk and Ryeowook outside but then I thought it was better for them to have a talk on their own. I’m quite sad for Wook’s departure because I’m not accustomed in not seeing him almost everyday or talk to him over the phone before retiring to bed. It became a second nature to me. But on the other hand, I’m looking forward to spend more time with Hyuk.      Unlike the past weeks that I treat him coldly, I’m more comfortable with him now. We even slept in one bed when I was drunk. It wasn’t really bad having someone to cuddle and I think I will get use to it from now on.     I turn my gaze when the door opens revealing a serious faced Ryeowook.     Kyuhyun went to his side and guided him back to the chair. This time instead of occupying his original seat, he settled on Kyuhyun’s.      “Where’s Eunhyuk hyung?” his husband asked while serving him a plate of sweet and sour pork.     Just in time the door opens. It was Hyukjae this time around.     He gave me a small smile and went to his seat. He was quiet and a little sad for a reason I don’t know.     “Let’s eat.” My mom said and we started eating.     I grabbed the plate of Restaurante Isabelle’s best seller, Seafood Pasta and transfer some on Hyuk’s plate.     “Try this. It’s really good.” I said encouragingly.     “Thanks, Hae.” He purred.     I know something happened between the Lee brothers. Usually when we have double dates –courtesy of Ryeowook – the atmosphere is lively and happy unlike now. I can feel the tension building up and it really bugs me to know the reason.      ‘IS IT POSSIBLE THAT I AM THE REASON BEHIND THEIR MISUNDERSTANDING?’     -----*****-----     “Is everything okay, Hyuk?” I managed to ask the troubled man beside me.     We are now on our way to the airport but he still remained silent.     “Yes.” When did he become a man of few words?      I hastily pull my Audi to a stop on the side road and face him angrily.     “What the hell is your problem, Lee Hyukjae?! I’ve been so very patient with you these past hours but you’re getting on my nerves already. What happened after you had a talk with Ryeowook? Tell me!”     He shifts his eyes from outside the window to me. His eyes are melancholic and fuzzy.      “We had an argument.”      “About what? Aish!! Stop the drama already, Hyuk.”     “About you.” He then bowed his head and clasped his hands together.     “Is this about my closeness with him again?”     Instead of answering me with words, he just nods.     I put my right hand on top of his clasped hands while I use the left one to caress his face, lifting his chin for our eyes to meet.     “Listen to me Hyuk. Your brother is someone I treasure the most in my life. We did a lot of things together, shared a lot of secrets, dreams and fantasies. As much as I don’t want to hurt you, I don’t have a choice. One way or another you will find out about this, so better hear it straight from me. Hyuk, I like your brother.”     I saw the pain and disappointment in his eyes and whether I deny it myself, I’m the one that caused it. I’m guilty without doubts. He then withdrew his hand from mine and quickly turns around, opening the car door.      “Hyuk, wait!”      Before I knew it, I’m running after him.      ‘FASTER HAE! FASTER!’     And I did run double time to catch up with him.      “Hyuk… please…” I hold him by the wrist and pull him to face me.     ‘SEE WHAT YOU’VE DONE, FISHY? YOUR BOYFRIEND IS CRYING AGAIN. TSK...TSK... WHEN WILL YOU STOP HURTING HIM?’     “Why does it have to be my brother, Hae? Why him? He’s freaking married!” he said whilst crying and punching me hard on my chest.     Instead of answering, I hugged him tight.     “I’m sorry, Hyuk. I’m really sorry.” My own tears begin staining my face as well. My emotions are all over the place but mine is not important for now. This time I need to focus on Hyuk and not on anyone else.      He needed me the most right now and I don’t have a heart to hurt him… AGAIN.     “Choose me, Hae. Choose me… please… Be with me again…” he cried.     “Ssshhh… I’m choosing you, Hyuk and no one else. Ssshhh… stop crying now.”      I cupped his face and allow my thumb to dry his tears. I then kiss him on his forehead first, then on the tip of his nose before finally closing the gap of our lips. This is the first time I’m kissing him again and like those in fairy tales, the feeling is heavenly and paralyzing at the same time.     -----*****-----     Since Hyuk is not feeling well – emotionally in that case – I took him home instead. I informed Kyuhyun what happened and he said its okay and he understands. Also, he takes the responsibility to tell the others about the unfortunate event. On the other hand, I chose not to call Ryeowook. He is hurt – mad even – at the moment and if I try to have a talk with him, things will only get worst. It’s better to back off for now and do it some other time.      “Hae?”      “Hmmm?”      “Have you talked to Ryeowook?” he’s sitting in one of the tall kitchen stools, eyes spying my every move.     I’m currently bustling around the kitchen to prepare something for him. Something that will lighten the heavy feeling he’s having at the moment. It’s my own version of rice balls. YES! I called it RICE BALLS ala FISHY. Aside from fried eggs, hotdogs, and bacon I can also make rice balls. Well, this recipe isn’t as special as Jieun’s Salmon Pasta and Mom’s Beef Casserole dish but I tell you every time I make this, they go gaga over it! That’s how special this recipe can be!      I add the last ingredient, put it aside for five minutes and turn to him while washing my hands on the sink.     “No. I called Kyuhyun-ah. He said its okay and you should rest.”     I walk over to the fridge to grab a can of soda and strawberry milk. You know which belongs to me and to him, right?      I take the vacant stool beside him, opening up his favorite drink.     “You think my brother’s still mad at me? Do you think he hates me now?” he takes a sip on the drink and look straight at me.     “I’m not him to say anything.” I did the same with my drink as I stare at him too.      “I’m really bothered, Hae. This is the first time we talked like that, though