Things have been going on fine for a week now after the emotional conversation i had will Sulli. Finally now she's my sweet calm and composed Sulli again not the scary tracking device u,u

But of course, Things are calm before a storm.

'Sulli, i just cook this!!! '  i ran up to her room and show her proudly my a few pieces of broken omelete still in the pan cause i was too excited to put it on the plate first, hehe :D

'A monkey could've made that' Sulli mock me after she glance at the pan, and stick out her tongue

'Why would you say that T,T' 

'Now, Amber, i have something more serious to tell you,' and my playful sulli who just mehrong at me now back to her serious mode again. She sat down and pat the bed next to her so i sit there. she turn her laptop for me to see and click on the email.

'So you're going ...? ' i asked her. why is there to ask, i know she's going.

'It's surely a great opportunity, Amb, '

'Then just go, ' i said carelessly.

'Amber don't be like this...'

'Why not? i barely go to a school club and you can go all the way to China? Does this sounds fair to you?'

'i want you to come with me Amb, we can't still be together. Nothing would change.'

'You're wrong, Sul, You so wrong. Everthing has changed.'

'No - '

'We're both just weak enough not to say it, we pretend it all the time. We're nothing like before. Everything I've done for you, i admit, i do it just becuase it has become my habit, i dont do it becuase of love anymore...' 

Sulli started crying again, but she doesn't protest. She knows it herself.

'And what you've felt for me, its not like before either. You don't feel excited to be with me anymore, I can't make you happy just to stay with you, as times passed, we somehow become more like a best freind Sul. ; 

Sulli cry harder next to me, but she doesnt cry on my shoulder or my chest, she just hide her face in her palm.

'When you're mad at me becuz i cheated, you're just afraid you'll lose me, its not the jealousy type that you're so mad someone you love betray you. if you really love me, you probably won't forgive me that easily for doing that... '

Sulli finally face up and look at me, 'i guess we both know where this lead to now,' she said it with tear strained face.

i pulled her in for a hug. 'Take care Sulli,'

and thank you for the time you have loved me, and take care of me, thank for being my lover and best friend. 

and also, sorry for dragging this long enough.