Kiseop was going through his closet looking for something to wear before his boyfriend came over to pick him up to go out to dinner. He just couldn’t find the right outfit to wear. He went through his whole closet but he wasn’t satisfied with anything he saw.

            In Kiseop’s eyes he always saw his boyfriend perfect. No matter what he wore he always looked fantastic. Kiseop wanted to return the favor of always looking perfect but he just couldn’t find anything he really liked.

            “Okay Kiseop you can do this. Just find a shirt and pants that look good together and then pick out a tie.” He said to himself.

            Kiseop looked through his closet one more time and then finally found something that he liked. He picked out a gray shirt with a light blue tie and black pants. It wasn’t as great as he would have liked it to be but it still looked pretty good.

            Kiseop showered and put on the outfit that he had chosen for himself. The only thing he was having trouble with was the tie. He never really liked putting on a tie but he liked to dress up for his boyfriend.

            The doorbell rang and Kiseop rushed to go answer it. He got up to the door and looked through the peeking hole. He couldn’t help but to smile stupidly upon seeing his boyfriend on the other side. Kiseop opened the door and there stood his boyfriend again looking almost perfect in his eyes.

            “Hey Aj. You are five minutes early as usual.” Kiseop said jokingly to him.

            Aj put on a big smile and chuckled. “I’m sorry but I just had to see you. I couldn’t stand being away from you any longer.” He replied romantically.

            “Whatever, just let me put on this tie and then we can get going. Come on in.” Kiseop said and then went to go to the mirror to put on his tie.

            Aj entered the apartment and closed the door behind him. Kiseop was looking at the mirror and carefully trying to put on his tie. But he was just having the hardest time. Aj looked over at him and couldn’t help but laugh.

            “Are you having some issues there Kiseop?” Aj asked the other boy.

            Kiseop let go of his tie and let out a long sigh. “I can never get this thing. Can you teach me how to do it again?” He asked Aj.

            Aj smiled at him and walked over to him. He grabbed Kiseop’s tie and started to even it out. “How many times have I had to do this for you?” He asked.

            Kiseop could only smile. “I would say that you haven’t done it enough.” He said teasingly.

            “Well maybe it’s time for you to learn. What if I’m not around to tie this for you?” Aj asked him.

            “Then I would never wear a tie ever again.” Kiseop replied to him.

            Aj laughed and started playing with the tie. “Okay here is a way on how you can remember how to tie this. Take both ends and think of one of them as you and one as me. Our paths crossed a few years ago and then they crossed again a year ago. One of us made a decision to leave but then turned around to stay while the other had nowhere to go. We have had our ups and downs but we always comeback to each other. Then we get closer and closer as the days go by.” Aj said and he was finishing tying the tie.

            Kiseop put his hand over Aj’s just as he was finishing up. Kiseop moved Aj’s hand and put it on his cheek. Aj smiled and moved his other hand to wrap around Kiseop’s waist. He pulled him closer into him until they were face to face. Aj stared into Kiseop’s soft eyes until he just couldn’t help it anymore. He leaned into Kiseop and made their lips touch.

            Something about Aj always got the better of Kiseop. Every time that they kissed it left Kiseop wanting more. But he knew that when it came to Aj that they would only take it so far. But Kiseop moved both of his arms and wrapped them around Aj’s neck. Aj just kept kissing Kiseop as much as he could get away with. He never wanted to let the other go.

            Finally Kiseop was the one to pull away from the other male and he buried his face into his boyfriends shoulder. It was something Kiseop always did and Aj always found that a cute habit of his. Aj rubbed Kiseop’s head and ran his fingers through his boyfriend’s soft dark hair.

            “We better get going before we lose our reservation.” Aj said to Kiseop.

            Kiseop revealed his face to Aj and looked him straight in the eye. “You’re right. Let’s get going.” Kiseop replied to Aj.

            Kiseop removed his arms from around Aj’s neck and instead grabbed his hand. Aj smiled and the two of them walked out of the apartment together. When the two of them were together there was always something that sparked. There was never a dull moment between the two.

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            At the restaurant Aj and Kiseop had just ordered their dinner and drinks. Kiseop ordered some fish while Aj ordered a steak and a glass of wine. They were conversing about their days and everything. But something was bothering Aj. He was listening to everything Kiseop was saying but at the same time he had something else on his mind.

            Kiseop noticed that Aj seemed to be a little zoning. “Aj, are you feeling okay?” He asked.

            Aj looked at him and had a blank look on his face. “What?” He replied to him.

            “Are you okay? You seem to be a little distracted. Did something happen today?” Kiseop asked again.

            Aj sat up in his chair and sighed. “Actually there is something I need to talk to you about.” He replied.

            Kiseop smiled and sat up in his chair. “What is it?” He asked.

            Aj crossed his fingers and put his elbows on the table. “Kiseop, I-.” He was cut off by the waitress bringing their food and the waiter pouring Aj’s wine.

            Kiseop looked at his food and then back at Aj. “What was it that you were going to say?” He asked.      

            Aj couldn’t tell him now. It wasn’t the right moment. “It can wait. Enjoy your dinner first and then we’ll talk about it.” Aj said.

            Kiseop looked concerned but he knew that Aj would tell him the truth eventually. He started to eat his food right away and Aj watched him. He took a sip of his wine and started to eat his dinner. During that time he was wondering how he was going to break to the news to his boyfriend.

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            Aj would usually hang out with Kiseop after a date so that is exactly what he did. He drove them both to Kiseop’s apartment and that was where Aj was going to break the news to him. He had to tell him sooner or later. Now was the best time.

            As they walked into the apartment Aj looked around and saw the many pictures of them on numerous desks and counters. That made it even harder for him to say what he needed to say.

            Aj walked over to the picture of them when they first started their relationship. When they were first madly in love. Aj picked it up and observed it. He loved that moment in time when they were both so happy that they loved each other.

            Kiseop sneaked up behind him and wrapped his arms around Aj’s waist. “I remember that day like it was yesterday.” He said.

            Aj chuckled and then his grin disappeared. “Kiseop we need to talk.” He said.

            Kiseop let go of Aj and smiled. “What is it?” He asked him.

            Aj took in a deep breath and then looked away. He just couldn’t say it to Kiseop while he was looking him in the eye. “The thing is Kiseop, I’m leaving.” He said with much hesitation in his voice.

            Kiseop was so lost for words. “What? What are you talking about?” Kiseop asked.

            “I need more education if I want the job that I have applied for. So I want to go to the best school I know and that’s in the states.” Aj explained to him.

            Kiseop just didn’t want to believe it. “You’re leaving me? You’re joking right? This is all just a big joke.” Kiseop said in denial. 

            Aj bit his lip hard. “I couldn’t joke with you about something like this. I really am leaving.” He replied.

            All the hope Kiseop had had now disappeared. He couldn’t look Aj right in the eye anymore. He turned around and walked over to his couch. He sat down and put his hands up to his face. Aj walked over to him and just stood next to him. He couldn’t say anything nor could he even have the strength to comfort him.

            Kiseop removed his hands from his face and crossed his fingers. “How long are you going to be gone for?” He asked while trying his hardest not to cry.

            Aj stood there looking at Kiseop. “I don’t know. Maybe a few months to a few years.” He explained.

            This hurt Kiseop even more. “So, you’re leaving me here all alone while you go abroad?” He asked for confirmation.

            Aj started to make his hand into a fist. “Unfortunately that’s what it looks like here. But I promise that I’ll come back.” He said.

            Kiseop shook his head. “It’s not a matter of you coming back Aj. It’s the fact that you are leaving me in the first place.” He said and then got up from the couch. He started to walk away but Aj caught his wrist.

            “Kiseop can we please at least talk a little more about this?” Aj said.

            Kiseop pulled away. “No Aj we can’t.” He said aggressively and started to walk off again.

            Aj wasn’t the type to get angry that easily but he was now about to blow. “Why can’t we talk about this? I know you’re not happy with my choice but I wasn’t necessarily thrilled with some of yours either. So just tell me why we can’t just talk about it!” Aj yelled at Kiseop.

            Kiseop stopped in his path at the shock that Aj actually yelled at him. He started to release some tears and he too started to feel anger. “We can’t talk about this because it hurts too much. It hurts me too much knowing that you are going to leave and I hate not knowing when you’ll be back!” He yelled back at Aj.

            Aj understood but he was still just so mad. “Why can’t I go for a better education Kiseop? If I do this than I can get the position I want and then you and I can move in together. What’s the big deal here?” Aj asked in a softer voice but it was still loud and aggressive.

            “You know what, you just don’t get it. Never mind, if you don’t get it now then you are never going to get it in general. I don’t know why we are even in a relationship.” Kiseop said and then walked into his room.

            What Kiseop had just said left Aj a little speechless. Aj stood here for a second and ran his hand through his hair. He took two seconds to calm down and then walked into Kiseop’s room.

            Kiseop was facing his bed texting when Aj walked right in and took his phone and threw it on the bed. This made Kiseop very frustrated. “What the hell Aj?”

            Aj looked him straight in the eye and that’s when he couldn’t control himself anymore. He grabbed Kiseop’s face and started to kiss him passionately. Kiseop started to fight him off but after a while of failed attempts he just gave him.

            Kiseop finally got away but the problem was that he wanted more. He wrapped his arms around Aj’s neck and then jumped to wrap his legs around his waist. Aj held Kiseop and continued to kiss him. He started to feel something that he never felt before.

            Aj then fell onto the bed leaving Kiseop below him. As he was still kissing him he started to strip the other. Kiseop started to join in and he too started to Aj’s shirt. They both felt so much passion from the other that time felt like it was standing still.

            Eventually everything came off leaving the two lovers entangled in each other and in the bed sheets. Aj’s hot breath on Kiseop’s skin was something he found very fulfilling. He also loved the feeling of Aj’s lips constantly on him. It left him wanting more and more. Even Aj wanted Kiseop more and more as the night progressed. There was no way of those two ever being broken apart. Except for when one leaves.

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            At the airport Kiseop went with Aj just so he could have his last special moments with him. He had helped Aj pack everything he needed. There were times though when he would cry because he knew he would miss him endlessly. But Aj would always be there to comfort him whenever he needed it. Even if that meant staying the night just to be with him.

            At the security checkpoint Aj had a backpack and Kiseop was carrying a duffel bag for him. Right in front of it Aj turned around to look at Kiseop. Kiseop wasn’t looking at him but he handed him his duffel bag.

            Aj smiled and took it. He touched Kiseop’s chin and lifted his head so that he could look him in the eye. “Hey, I promise I’ll be back.” He said.

            Kiseop nodded and walked closer to Aj. He wrapped his arms around him and held him so close. So close that the only thing that he could hear was Aj’s heart beating. He took in Aj’s scent knowing that this would be the last he would be this close to him in a long time.

            Kiseop looked up at Aj and stared at his brown eyes. “I love you.” He said with no hesitation.

            Aj was surprised but he smiled and grabbed Kiseop’s cheeks. He brought him up and kissed him on the lips. Once he let go he stared into Kiseop’s eyes and kept his smiled. He shifted his backpack after that and started to dig inside it.

            “What are you doing Aj?” Kiseop asked.

            Aj finally found what he was looking for. He pulled out a tie that he had and that was already tied for him. “Here, this is for you to practice on. So when I come back you can return the favor of always helping me with it.” He explained.

            Kiseop took the tie and held it close to his heart. “Thank you.” He said softly.

            Aj then lost his smile. “Kiseop there is one more thing I have to tell you. If you ever get lonely, and you feel as if you can’t wait for me anymore, feel free to go find someone else.” He said.

            Kiseop was shocked to hear that. “I don’t think that I’d find anyone as good as you.” He replied.

            Aj smiled. “You never know.” He said and then looked at his watch. “Well I have to go. I’ll text you when I land.”

            Kiseop nodded and Aj left to go through the security checkpoint. Kiseop watched him until right before Aj was out of sight. Right before then Aj waved at Kiseop and then he was gone. Kiseop’s heart started to hurt but he had to keep faith in knowing that he would come back. His love was going to come back.  

A/N: Okay guys hoped you liked this chapter as much as I hated writing it, I almost broke my heart. I know that the ehhmm sceen wasn't so great but I'm not that good at writing yet but when I am I will definitely do it. Okay Soohoon chapter again. It's going to alternate back and fourth.

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