Chapter 15: The Aftermath

Tic. Toc. Tic. Toc. 2 minutes more till it’s my turn to hit the stage. It’s been 3 months since I last saw Chanyeol. And time had slowly torture me from the day he left me. I moved on—well, maybe not. I would always skip EXO songs when they play in my mp3. But, I never have enough courage to delete the songs. I thought, maybe, I need to hear them again when I needed to.

“And now, we welcome Miss Choi Haerin to perform for us.” The MC called me over to the stage. “Miss Choi had been a champion for a few years already. Will this year bring her fortune like the previous ones that she had?”

“Well, let see about that,” I’m now standing behind the curtain, with my violin attached to my hands. “A round of applause for her,”

The curtain rolled and here I stand alone in the stage. Maybe not alone, I looked at my partner behind me; Lay oppa. He smiled at me and started a few tunes with the piano.

I closed my eyes and started to the violin. Soon, whispers were heard among the audiences. This was expected since Lay oppa is with me on the stage and the music that we are playing now is not based on some classical music sheets written by Daehyun oppa like the past years.

Tears rolled down my cheeks, as I fall deeper into the music, the song that was being created;

As it were like that moment I was reborn knowing nothing

For a moment, closing and opening my eyes again in case it was a dream

But yes, you were standing in front of my desperate self as if praying

Just once to be able to walk side by side with you

Please, just once

It was like yesterday when I stared into his eyes, being mesmerized by the dark ocean. The stupid ringtone than breaks our barriers, I’m thankful for that. Into his world, I began to love Park Chanyeol more than a normal fan would.

Into your world, riding a soft wind to your side

“Where have you come from?” To you who asked so brightly, I said it was a secret

If like this we could walk together, anywhere would be heaven

Anywhere would be like heaven

To the man who said he needed to go to the restroom when he actually want to just simply say ‘good morning’ to me, I’m more thankful for the confessions we did under the moonlight. I appreciate for all the flaws you tell me since I know I’m ready to accept them. I no longer am jealous of your love for 2NE1 or even SNSD, cause I know, you had loved me once and I was grateful for it.

To me, you’re more dazzling than Michael

Who would dare to curse you? I cannot forgive them

Like in the beginning when stepping into Eden, every day only facing you and trusting you with my heart

I want to always protect you so that you don’t become tired even with the smallest thing

Dazzling than ever, Chanyeol is the best when he’s happy. When he’s grinning until his cheekbones appear to ascend to the heaven. For standing up for me in front of my oppa, I love him even more and I trust him in everything he does; I’m happy to give him full blessings to continue his dream. I’ll let him have his wings back.

As your guardian, I will block the harsh wind

At your side even if everyone betrays you

If I could ever be the one to wipe your tears that one day it becomes too difficult, anywhere would be like heaven

I, who has fallen in love with you, now have no place to return

They’ve taken my wings away

The reason that I’m happy even after losing forever, is because my soul is now you

The world opposed, how could I ever stay by his side anymore? He’s not happy with me; he’s not free to love me anymore, so I let him go. It’s fine even seeing him with other girls, as long as he smiles again. Smiles and buries me in his memory.

Eternal love

Into your world, riding a soft wind to your side

“Where have you come from?” To you who asked so brightly, I said it was a secret

If like this we could walk together—

To Park Chanyeol who would cuddle with me when I’m sick, nag me to take my medicine… To the same Chanyeol who would ignore my calls just because of jealousy and the Chanyeol who chases me in the rain, I present you my last gift;

I love you.

Silence. My eyes stripped open. Why couldn’t I feel a thing in my hand? Why couldn’t my violin make any more voice? Blood. Blood starts to drip. Pain starts to kick in. I looked at the audience, and then turned my gaze to my own hand. My violin, the strings were broken, cut into two. Did I exert too much force? Did I overwork it? What is happening? Lay stopped playing too and went over to me.

“Haerin, you’re bleeding.” He took the violin from my hand and pushed me closer to him. Then, he made the both of us bowed to the audience. I was agitated with myself, seeing how weak Choi Haerin is being right now. The world crushed me. I was hopeless, the music; the last thing I could rely on turned away. But then, a stand ovation, one, two, three, the whole hall clapped for me. I cried, maybe people do still care.

“T-thank you…”

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