Human is selfish. enough said.

“Taeyeon-ah.. i’m tired.”

“hmm? Of what?”

“of all..”

She stares blankly and Taeyeon stares at her. Waiting for her to speak again.

They are in the park right now. Sica dragged her out of school right after their class ended. She said she needed fresh air. Looking at how dark her face, she definitely needs it.

“how can you even have two boyfriends and feel so happy? Aren’t you feel guilty at all?”

Taeyeon is surprised by her question.

“do you think i’m not human? Of course i feel guilty too, sometimes.” she whispered the last word. “but you know, didn’t i tell you not to take it too seriously?”

“i’m not! It’s not like i’m thinking to get married with one of them.”

“then what’s the problem? Just keep going..” she said nonchalantly, too easy.

“why aren’t you choose one?”

“umm.. maybe because i don’t know how to break up with them, moreover i don’t need to, for now.” She shruggs.

“you are lucky, noone of them know.”

“aren’t you the one who lucky though? Luhan is so kind, and Kyuhyun doesn’t even matter with your condition. I don’t see the problem.”

“you don’t understand. That is exactly the problem. And you forget, kyuhyun has Victoria.”

“ok. So.. what do you want then?”
“I don’t want to be a bad girl like how i feel these days.. it’s not a good feeling. I keep feeling restless. i want to live in peace. Without worried this or that anymore. Without feeling guilty. All this feeling is too much for me, i can’t stand it. I’m going crazy if i kept being like this.”

“what bad girl?”
“you know.. cheating on your boyfriend with other girl’s boyfriend. And to think that he will leave her girlfriend for me. The worst is... i, too.. want to leave my boyfriend for him. How much of bad person am I? And they are such a kind person too. Did i even have humanity in me anymore.. when i think about it, i don’t want to do all that selfish things. But on the other side... I...”

She bites her lips. Eyes teary. Taeyeon feels sad for her. She hugs her and her hair.

“I don’t want to give you advices anymore, the last time i told you this is what happens. Just to let you know, whatever you do i’ll be there for you. You won’t be alone.”

Af