"It's better to enjoy life committing mistakes and learn than playing safe in your entire life and learned nothing at all."

Sica really really  needs someone to talk to. There's a war between her heart and mind. All this time of her life she always be a good girl. never once she would think to do crazy thing like have an affair with other people's boyfriend. Every sane human being will never do such things. she remembers that one time when her bestfriend, Nicole, have her boyfriend stolen from her. She can't understand why some people do such things. why a girl would steal other people's boyfriend when there's still many guys in the world. what was she thinking? did she have no pride? moreover, that guy was not even that handsome or rich or anything for that matter, but still she did it. what a , how can she hurted an innocent girl's heart who didn't even do any wrong to her, that's what she was thinking back then. and now, what is she?

She wants to talk to Fany, but she is worried about her reaction. Fany is just too kind, she never ever in her life does something bad, sica is sure of it. She will freak out if sica told her about this. She doesn't want her very own bestfriend think of her as a bad girl. that's the last thing she wants to happen. If even her bestfriend think of her like that, what will other people think of her?

Finally she decides to talk to Taeyeon. Taeyeon is much more carefree and open-minded. heck, she even has two or maybe more boyfriends right now. She has two official boyfiends, Leeteuk and Kangin. and last time she even brought new guy to our karaoke session. She knows Taeyeon won't judge her. She doesn't need judgement right now. she knows she is wrong. she know this is bad thing to do. and she doesn't need people to point it out for her. because she definitely knows it.

"Taeng, I want to talk about something..."

"hmm? what is it? why so serious?" she says while eating the fruits.

"but, don't tell anyone. i'm serious."

"ok." now she is waiting for sica to speak.

Sica takes a deep breath. " really, you have to promise me you won't tell anyone."

"geez, sica am i really that untrustworthy? just tell me, quickly."

"I.. I like someone's.. boyfriend."<