Before I Met Him

Hysterie

First off, introductions.

My name is Saya Park and I am twenty-three years old. Until my graduation day, I was an expat in India with my parents and shortly after their divorce, shifted to Seoul to become an ESL teacher. Not because it was a necessity, but I had always wanted to live a rather simple life, luxuries playing a cameo here and there. My father and mother went easy on each other, even after their separation. Mom shifted in with her sister in Busan while Dad stayed back for business reasons. I had ruled out any form of visitation from my side, though weekly updates among the three of us was compulsory.

I am an AB type and according to all the articles I have read, I am controlled, rational, critical, even 'cold-hearted'. Quite a lovely group of characteristics. Unfortunately, these words were just one of the few terms descriptive of my identity, though who I truly am and how I react to situations is not based on them at all. I am controlled, but as long as you do not cross the line. I am rational unless you hurt someone I really care about. I am critical, but smile at the occasional forced greetings. And during my nineteen years of life in India, being cold-hearted was a blessing in disguise.

You see, Indians are very warm people. They're hospitable, always happy, adjusting with the situational troubles. But I always found myself lost, my dimension of opinions a million light-years away from my peers and environment. I loved cafes until they lost their aesthetic ambience and became nothing but trendy hangouts. The espresso machine in my kitchen is the one I received for my sixteenth birthday. 

I was teasingly nicknamed 'Ice Princess' by some classmates. On the day of our school farewell, I was given a character award with the same name. I was proud of it because I lived up to it. I was disappointed because I felt like they couldn't see through me. I did have a group of close friends who I could open up to and even when I had shifted to Seoul, Kairi, my first friend had stuck with my decision. "You're going your own way, " she had said. "No more disguises!" Acting as the least empathetic girl in the world was my shield but it also meant a constant fear of losing myself. I was scared that one day I would wake up without any emotions.

Maybe Seoul was destined for me. I hardly needed any training, my interactive skills were surprisingly good and most of my students were either my age or older to me. We would often go out for lunches and even birthday parties. Soon, I was in love with life and myself. Meeting new people, making new friends, moving around.......But no, that is not how I had met Woohyun. 

Maybe if he was a student in my international school in India, I would have missed him among the 'good-looking-but-arrogant' boys group. When everyone around you is different, even the unique ones seem to sift through the crowd. But Woohyun, as I have said this before, was special. For a lot of people, he was just another guy. But our first meeting itself stood out. So how couldn't he?

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--oreos #1
great job!
Hopuxx
#2
Chapter 49: Oh god.. You have no idea what kind of an emotional rollercoaster has my life been because of this fix... Truthfully I honestly just missed "Yoongi happened" a lot so I came to your profile to read it again, but something made me scroll down your other stories and I'm glad i did ;; It took me many school sleepless nights and getting scolded in class for staring at my phone but I'm finally finished ;u; I felt a lot of things during it, angry at the turn of events, confused at times at Sayas way of thinking and such but that is something not many authors can accomplish and I love thus fic a lot ;; Thank you for writing it and good luck on your future works !!!
harukikara
#3
I've had this sitting on my favorites for months now and couldn't bring myself to sit down and read through it. Perhaps because I was in a sense going through the same situation. But last week, I began plowing through the story and finished it. This story is touching in so many ways and strong advice for those entering, in and leaving a relationship. So glad I wasn't intimated by the length of the story cause it was worth it. Thank you for writing this.
JonginWife #4
Chapter 1: Next chappie ^^
E_magine
#5
Chapter 52: Wow great story I really enjoyed it ^_^
E_magine
#6
Chapter 43: Oh what's happening here? ;-)
E_magine
#7
Chapter 32: It was Hoya's turn to collapse LOL
E_magine
#8
Chapter 17: I seriously find this writing truly exquisite and that's from not reading it yet. If I could compare fanfics to wine I would say this one matured well :D
LilacToupee #9
Well, that was a whirlpool of emotions. I cannot comprehend Jaehyo's feelings without turning into an utter sap again, so all I can say is, you did a really fantastic job acknowledging and confronting that 'ignorance is bliss' mentality some people live by, as well as the conventionality of living by the rules and what's wrong and what's right. Some parts of the story...I can't say I've not seen before, but I'm glad you've managed to twist the plot to make it yours. You pull at heartstrings even since from the start (I won't say it's the scenes in the rain dampening spirits everywhere). That indescribable loneliness people struggle to grasp. Everything is so startlingly tangible, you can't help but feel for the characters and feel some more. I don't know what this is, but reading Hysterie has made me feel a little happy and a little sad and now I have to go do something to keep my emotions in check. Thank you.