6 Dia

8 9

I’ve forgotten what diary is this… 7^th? 9^th? How can I remember when they keep on taking my diary? How do I refer back?

It feels weird here. Me, in this pretty room with lots of plushies. I think something is changing inside me.

 Somehow, as days passed by… or maybe weeks or months, I’ve grown accustom to this place… I’m starting to feel comfortable here I’m starting to grasp the routines here. I don’t reject pills and injections as much as did before because I figured out it’s a less painful that way. I still close my eyes whenever they gave me shots but I’m able to swallow pills like candies now. No one talk to me, so whenever I’m bored, I play with the plushies or re-arranging furniture in my room. Sometimes, leaving the room in a mess… like today. I build up a tent, made of blankets, bed sheet, my mattress and the wooden table. I also being a bit creative with the plushies. I drew a mustache on the pink rabbit, teeth for the monkey, lipstick and blusher for the frog and I wrote Minho name on the brown teddy bear. Two plushies were killed by me. I turned them into my slippers; a cat and a dog. I don’t care if they scolded me afterwards… and yes, they just scolded me. I’m still not able to tell the time here, but I’m well aware of the doctor’s visiting time. I just knew… and I hate those seconds the most. I think I’m coping with this life style slowly.... I think. 

 I’ve been living these days aimlessly… without real meaning.

I think because of that I started to become confused between memories and dreams. I thought I remember those doctors hurt me, they cut the flesh on my arm. But when I woke up this morning, there was no sign of it, not a single scratch on my arm. Was I been dreaming? But the pain felt so real. 

Why do I even write this? I'm not even allowed to keep this.

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Sorry for the short chapter 

but I'm going to try to update this quickly

I want to finish this quickly,

before I lost the story line like my last story (The Sky of Love) >.<

Really wish to complete this story as soon as possible

and start concentrating on finishing my Part Time Assassin