I don't know how long I was standing there.

It felt like an eternity, but I was okay with that.

It wasn't like I wanted to be anywhere in particular.

People said that going to the Han River would clear your thoughts.

It wasn't working for me though.

I still felt as depressed as ever....

No matter how I looked at it, there was no bright side to situation.

I should have known better.

People didn't like me, even when I was little.

They only liked to make fun of me.

I guess I was the best person for the job, being the awkward person I was.

Being abandoned by my own mother should have gotten that straight in my mind.

But I was too stupid and naive to accept the fact.

The wind started to pick up as gust blew against my jacket, attempting to throw me into the water.

Not that I'd mind.

Maybe if I fell into the water everything would be better.

People say, "Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me."

I beg to differ...

The sound of waves crashing against each other filled my ears, as the once peaceful river became chaotic and violent.

I rain started to pour, becoming harder and harder the longer I stood there.

My hood and jacket was drenched and heavy.

Maybe if I fell into the water with my heavy clothes, the weight would pull me down...

That didn't seem like a bad idea.

My arms and legs felt numb from the coldness.

I then had enough sense to move into a nearby covering by the bridge.

The overhead street lights made a straight line down through the water, beautiful and tempting.

Should I follow the line? I wondered.

The white light which cut through the water looked enticing, like an open path.

Where would it take me?

Where would I end up?

Maybe a new land, where no one would make fun of me.

A place where no one would know about my past.

Peace.

I could find peace there.

My shivering body began to move by itself, near the path.

I took my jacket off and put it to the side.

Frankly, I didn't care if the light would take me to a place or peace.

I just wanted to leave the world I was in right now.

All the people.

All the problems.

All the heartbreak.

I wanted to be liberated from all of them.

And if this hallucination would take me away from them, then I would follow it head on.

I began to walk onto the path.

First my feet were submerged in the ice cold water, but I soon began accustomed to it as I continued walking.

Then my legs.

Then my torso.

Then my shoulders.

Then my neck.

And with one last breath, my head.

It felt nice.

My body moving with the waves, I was one with the water.

Water didn't have feelings, water didn't have heartbreak.

Not a care in the world.

In that moment, neither did I.

As my mind began to grow fuzzy and light headed, I heard a voice yell my name.

"Min Jee! Min Jee-ah! Please wake up!"

"Wake up! Open your eyes, please!!!"

"Don't leave us! I just found you! I don't want to loose you again!" 

The mixture of voices were becoming louder.

"I need you here with me! We need you! Wake up!!!"

"Don't do this to us! Open your eyes, look at me!"

With all the strength I could muster, my eyes flashed open.

"MIN JEE-AH