Karina

I know na I shouldn’t have done what I did to Winter, but I have no other choice.

My dad will ruin Winter’s career if ever hindi ako sumunod sa gusto niya. Yes, my Dad is not exactly fond of Winter when he figured out about us.

I told him na he don’t have to be involved in my life, pero he told me na ako lang daw ang pwede magmana ng company niya so he hold unto me.

When he knew about me and Winter, he threatened me that he can destroy Winter’s career if hindi ako sumunod sa gusto niya.

Knowing Winter, she would rather have her career destroyed just to be with me. I can’t do that to her, so I didn’t tell her about my father’s plan. 

Winter works really hard in college just to be where she is right now and I won’t let anyone ruined it for her.

I mean what I said na I’ll support Winter whatever it takes. Even if it cause us our relationship. My happiness, our happiness.

When I was in Korea, I always asked Giselle about Winter and how she was doing. Giselle knows what’s up and decided to respect my decision.

I cried myself to sleep, I have no one to talk to. It’s been hell for me for the last 3 years. Without Winter, my life doesn’t mean that much.

It breaks my heart whenever Giselle told me na Winter’s out again drinking.

Giselle offered na she will stay with me pero she has Ning, I don’t want to be the reason sa breakup nila if di nagwork ang LDR.

It made me happy at the same time sad when Giselle told me na Winter is seeing someone. It’s good na she moved on and finding happiness to someone even if it’s not me. I’ll just be here supporting her behind her back.

When I found out na yung girl broke up with my Winter because Winter said my name while making love with the girl. It hurts knowing that kind of personal info but it also made me happy na she’s still thinking about me.

I know what happened to Winter’s life this past few years with the help of Giselle. It’s a good thing na Ning is opening topic about Winter kay Giselle.

Giselle stopped mentioning Winter after a year, she don’t want me to hang on Winter and wants me to move on. But I can’t and I don’t want to.

My mom visit me and made sure I’m eating my meals. I’m glad na nandito si Mom sa tabi ko paminsan-minsan to support and comfort me.

I was angry at my father. He trained me to be the perfect daughter and heiress of the company.

I don’t even want any of this. I want Winter.

My baby, the love of my life. I miss her so bad.

When my father was diagnosed to stage 4 lung cancer, I stayed with him. He knew I was unhappy sa lahat ng naging plan niya. He said sorry before he died.

But he is my father after all. I didn’t even cry when he died. All of his belongings and wealth, natransfer sa akin.

So I decided to go back sa Philippines and have Winter back. I still can’t tell her what happened dahil ayaw ko sisihin niya ang sarili niya sa lahat ng nangyari sa amin. It’ll break her.

Knowing her, she always thinks na it’s her fault whenever she’s involved.

When I saw her face to face that meeting, my heart exploded. I wanted to hug her, I wanted to tell her how much I love and miss her. I want to do all the things I wasn’t able to do for the past 3 years.

It hurts when all I see is hatred in her eyes. I deserve all that.

Winter, my love. Hope you can forgive me, I’ll do anything just to get you back.

I had to say those words earlier para mapasign ko siya ng contract. I had to provoke her para mapalapit ako sa kanya. 

“I still think na you shouldn’t do what you did sa contract signing kanina Karina”

“I know Giselle, I have no other ways”

“Bakit kasi ayaw mo na lang sabihin sa kanya yung nangyari talaga?”

“And for what? To blame herself sa lahat nangyari? You know Winter, she have that kind of thinking”

“I know pero kasi, naging unfair din sa’yo. Andito lahat kami kay Winter when she was hurting. I’m so sad thinking na you have to go throught everything alone without us. Without me.”

“I hurt Winter, so I deserve that Giselle. I’m not even sure if I still deserve Winter pero I have to try. Like I said, ayaw ko ng may pagsisihan”

“So san ka titira? Ngayong wala ka na sa korea?”

“I’m staying at a hotel right now. Pero baka pumunta ako later sa condo namin ni Winter” 

“Ha? Bakit dun?”

“Sabi niyo wala ng nakatira dun diba? Winter has her own place na?” 

“Yeah pero sure ka?”

“Yes, besides. Kahit papano may memories kami ni Winter dun. I’ll be happy sleeping to the bed we used to sleep together”

“Hay naku Karina, I don’t know what to do na sa’yo”

Winter 

“Sino siya para biglang bumalik sa buhay ko ha?” nagrarant ako ngayon kay Ning nang makarating kami sa office ko.

Parang ang unfair lang kasi na bigla bigla siyang susulpot na para bang walang nangyari.

“Easy, I didn’t know na si Karina pala yung kawork ni Giselle. Bakit hindi man lang sinabi sa akin ni Bamb hmp”

“Hindi ba pwede itigil yung contract?”

“Hindi noh, ikaw din naman may kasalanan hindi mo man lang binasa. Akala ko naman naging marupok ka lang for a minute”

“What the- I can’t believe this. Ning, ano na gagawin ko?”

“May feelings ka pa ba sa kanya?”

“Of course! I.. don’t know”

“Hay naku Winter, bakit di mo kasi binasa muna?”

“I was enrage