Winter

Aminado ako na nilalamon na ako ng jealousy kay Cap Tzuyu ni Rina pero di ko maiwasan. Sino hindi maiinsecure sa isang napakagandang volleyball player at almost perfect?

Ang alam ko talaga ay hindi ako selosa, pero dahil sa una kong girlfriend si Rina; hindi ko alam na magiging selosa pala ako at some point. May tiwala naman ako kay Rina, ipagkakatiwala ko buhay ko sa kanya sa sobrang tiwala ko sa kanya.

Pero iba pa din kasi talaga kapag may naaligid-aligid sa kanyang ganun kaganda. Alam ko naman inoffer niya na sabihin sa teammates niya yung tungkol sa amin, pero panigurado kasi magiging awkward na sila nung Cap Tzuyu niya. Baka hindi siya makalaro ng ayos at maging uncomfy sila both tapos makakaapekto pa sa game nila.

At dahil nga napapadalas na yung practice nila na halos everyday na for almost 3 weeks, hindi ko maiwasan na mag-isip ng kung ano anong bagay na pwedeng gawin nung Cap Tzuyu niya para makuha si Rina.

Hindi ko naman sadya na nakikita ko mga text sa kanya nung Cap Tzuyu niya tuwing umaga kapag kakain kami.

From Cap Tzuyu:
See you later Karina, do you want something to drink later pala? Sabay ko na on my way sa practice?

Karina, nag-aaya team magdinner later after practice. G ka?

Hey pretty, you forgot your towel sa shower room. I’ll keep it and wash it for you then bigay ko tomorrow.

Hindi ko naman na pinapakealaman kung ano nirereply niya, nakakabother lang talaga mga texts sa kanya nung nilalang na yun.

Hindi ko din naman masisi din kasi ang alam niya single si Rina. Hindi ko din masisi si Rina na hindi niya masabi kay Tzuyu kasi sabi ko wag niya sabihin.

Ang pinaka-tanga ko na sigurong ginawa buong buhay ko ay ngayon habang nagaayos ako ng breakfast namin, inaaway ko si Rina. Hindi ko alam pero parang sasabog kasi ako kapag hindi ko sinabi sa kanya. Naiintindihan ko siya sa totoo lang, pero hindi ko alam kung naiintindihan niya ako.

Gusto ko lang ipaintindi sa kanya yung nafifeel ko about it, pero hindi nga ako magaling sa pag-eexpress ng feelings ko kaya panget ang pagkakalabas ng intention ko.

“Rina, need ba talaga makipagdinner almost everyday sa Cap Tzuyu mo?”

“Look baby, it’s not just Cap Tzuyu. I’m also with our other team members. I thought you understand?”

“Naiintindihan ko naman, hindi ko lang maiwasan mag-isip na baka may gawin yung Cap Tzuyu mo para makuha ka sa akin”

“Are you jealous huh? Don’t you trust me?” sabi ni Rina nang pinulupot ang kamay niya sa bewang ko habang nagpiprito ako ng bacon.

“I trust you, pero alam mo naman siguro yung feeling kapag may ibang taong gustong gusto din yung taong love mo diba?”

“I know, but there’s difference. I don’t love her the way I love you”

“Ah so love mo siya?”

“What?” naramdaman ko ang pag-alis ng pagkakayakap niya sa akin

“Sabi mo kasi hindi mo siya love kagaya ng love mo para sa akin. Meaning kahit papano love mo siya?”

“No, I don’t love her nga diba? You’re being ridiculous baby”

“Ako pa yung ridiculous? Mas ridiculous ‘yung taong hinahayaan niya lang landiin siya ng ibang tao kahit may girlfriend na siya”

“Winter Kim, what are you trying to imply?”

“Wala” pagdidismiss ko, naiinis at napipikon na din kasi ako. Hindi ko makontrol yung emosyon ko, ayaw ko ng magsalita at baka kung ano pa masabi ko.

“No, you’re being a jerk right now. Are you trying to tell me na I’m malandi?”

“Hindi, pero kung yan ang iniisip mo baka guilty ka lang talaga”

“What the ? I didn’t know that you’re this good at shoving insults down someone’s throat without actually saying it huh?”

“Hindi kita iniinsulto, ikaw ang nag-isip nun hindi ako”

“Then what are trying to tell me about your words na someone letting someone flirts with them? Sino pinapatamaan mo?”

“Kung natamaan ka, hindi ko na kasalanan yun” humarap ako sa kanya at nagsisi ako, hindi dahil sa pagharap ko kungdi dahil sa mga sinabi ko.

She’s standing in front of me, nangingilid ang luha at may hurt na expression. And it’s all because of me. I’m a jerk.

“Hey hey” lalapitan ko sana siya kaso nagstep back siya

“Baby, that’s not what I meant”

“I don’t wanna eat breakfast today. See you later”

“Rina please; wait”

Karina

That’s it! That’s the last straw. Winter is being unnecessary jealous and jerk over nothing.

How dare she imply that I’m a flirt? Of course I’m hurt, I really don’t expect Winter thinking about me that way. Of all people, she’s the least one I expect who literally will think of me like that.

I decided to go to the nearest starbucks outside the campus since it’s too early for our class. It’s only 7am and our class is not later the 8:30am.

“Karina?” a familiar voice suddenly greeted me while I was sitting and sipping my hot choco.

“Cap, good morning” I almost nonchalantly greeted her

“You good?” I just nodded my head hoping na she’ll get the message na I wanted to be alone. Lalo na she’s the reason why Winter and I are having a fight.

“Mind if I join you?” I just shrugged since I’m really not in the mood

“Look Karina, are you sure you’re really okay?” I can see in her eyes na she’s genuinely concern.

It’ll be really unfair to her if I treated her rudely since it’s really not her fault na Winter is being a jerk.

“Sorry Cap, just not in the mood”

“Care to share? I’m all ears” she smiled, siguro this would be the perfect time to tell her about Winter. I mean, I don’t care anymore kasi I don’t want Winter to see Cap Tzuyu as a rival.

“It’s about Winter” I can see the slightly shock face upon saying Winter’s name

“What about Winter?”

“She and I are a thing, I really love her but she’s being a jerk and jealous about you” I straighforwardly told her

“Oh God, Karina. I’m so sorry”

“You don’t have to say sorry Cap. You didn’t know and it’s really not your fault”

“No no, I’m taking th