Beginning of the Ending

So Close Yet So Far
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  SinB groaned as she reluctantly opened her heavy eyes. The sunlight hitting her face was disrupting her peaceful and needed sleep. She wanted to sleep more. Her eyes were still heavy and she was having difficulty in opening them. Probably because they were puffy due to her extreme crying last night or because she wasn't able to sleep early because of Yerin.     Speaking of...     SinB lazily turned her body around and spread her hand to feel a body beside her. However, she felt nothing but a soft pillow and the blanket. That made her eyes go completely open, sleepiness gone in an instant.      Where is Yerin?     SinB suddenly felt nervous. Did Yerin leave her again? Did Yerin realise that what she did last night shouldn’t have happened and decided to leave without any word? Or worse... was it all a dream? Just a dream?     SinB hurriedly sat up and abruptly tossed off her blanket. She looked for her slippers and went out of the room, not sure if she should go to the other room, to the living room, or to the kitchen to look for her wife.     The idea of having those cofession and kisses only as a dream frustrated SinB. She felt her heart getting heavier again. That kind of feeling she had last night when she was alone, crying her heart out because of Yerin's words.      No… last night did really happen… right?     When SinB was about to head to other room, the smell of fried eggs and the noise coming from the other side of the house caught her attention. So in an instant, she went straight to the kitchen, not wasting a second.      She needed to see Yerin. She needed to assure herself that last night's events did really happen. Because with all the pain she had gone through, SinB needed assurance with everything. Everything including Yerin.     When she reached the kitchen, the first thing that caught her eyes were the two plates placed on the counter and the two cups of hot chocolate beside them with heart shaped designs.     SinB heaved a sigh of relief. She wasn't dreaming.     As she looked over to the sink, she saw Yerin, clad with only a bathrobe and with her hair still wet. She just finished showering, SinB thought as she let her body lean against the wall beside her. She stayed on that position and stared at the busy girl, silently admiring the view. Then, as seconds passed by, she couldn't help but to smile wider at how cute Yerin was.      The older girl was cooking while humming to herself and SinB had never seen this scene for a long time already. That long time was when they were still in relationships with Umji and Yuju. And now that everything had changed, it felt different for SinB. A good kind of different that you want to feel over and over.     SinB smiled in satisfaction and slowly walked towards Yerin, trying not to be noticed. Unfortunately, the older girl felt a presence behind her so she put down the knife she was holding and turned around. However, before she could completely do so, a pair of hands grabbed both her shoulders and kept her to her position.     SinB smiled softly and wrapped both her arms around the older's waist, hugging the latter softly from behind. "Good morning." She whispered while placing her chin on Yerin's shoulder.     “You’re awake already…” Yerin said and grabbed the knife again in attempt to continue making their breakfast. “I was hoping to serve you a breakfast in bed.”     “I was still sleepy but you weren’t beside me when I turned around. I had to get up and make sure last night was not a dream…” SinB said and loosened her grip on Yerin as the latter moved to face her. “But seeing you cooking for us did not only assure me but also made my morning ten times better.” SinB added while removing the messy hair strands on Yerin’s face while the latter held her waist softly.     Yerin stared at her with mixed emotions. She was happy of course. She got to finally tell the younger girl how she really felt and got to finally be in each other’s arms. But the guilt she felt for causing pain to SinB was still there, lingering. She hurt the other girl to the point that the latter started to have trust issues with the happenings. To the point that SinB needed assurance if everything was real and she was not just dreaming. These emotions, however, was suddenly crowded with the fear she felt for the both of them, especially for SinB.     Yerin took a big risk.      Confessing to SinB shouldn’t have happened and wasn’t initially included in her plans for she knew that it would put the both of them in danger. But what could she do, the pain she was having and the guilt she felt for constantly hurting the younger girl dominated and took her whole being which resulted to the impromptu confession last night. She was unstable and wasn’t thinking clearly that her impulsive actions were considered the best thing to do. And now that she thought of it, she realized how she screwed up her plans with Joy and the amount of danger she put them to.      However, she felt no regrets with what she did. Not a single bit.     Despite the fear she felt, she was happy that finally, her relationship with SinB was fixed. That after the roller coaster ride, she finally got to embrace SinB in her arms and show how much she loves her. She finally ended the emotional torture they were having, especially SinB.      “You’re thinking deeply…” SinB looked intently at her. “What’s wrong?”     The worry in SinB’s voice and expression pulled Yerin out of her thoughts. “Nothing much…” Yerin simply said and stepped closer to hug the other girl fully. “Just thinking how whipped I am for you.”     “Y-Yah. It’s so early to be cheesy Jung Yerin.”     “Whatever. You like it anyway.” Yerin secretly smiled and hugged the younger girl tighter. “Don’t even try to deny it… Just hug me tighter.”     As Yerin buried her face in SinB’s neck, the latter was left out of words. She felt a sudden rush of heat running through her body as her face burned. She could feel Yerin’s body fully, underneath that not-so-thick bathrobe.     SinB gulped as she bit her lower lip to contain her feels. Now, she was reminded of their make out session last night. She was reminded of how Yerin hovered over her and kissed her all night. How Yerin made her feel a lot with just simple touches. How Yerin leaned away to take a breather, leaving her to a panting mess. And most importantly, how Yerin made her almost lose her sanity when she started to kiss her jaw down to her neck. SinB might have even crumpled the blanket with how her grip tightened onto it.     However, with all that, she was also reminded how Yerin hesitated for a few times from going further than just making out and eventually, stopped.     She must admit, she was somehow disappointed. Something was stopping Yerin, she felt it. But she tried her best not to ask. She was already happy Yerin was with her, confessed to her, and showered her with kisses until they both felt exhaustion.     "I want to cook a lot for you. What else do you want to eat?" Yerin leaned away as she suggestively smiled at SinB making the latter focus on her again. "Wait, why are you so red?"     "N-Nothing important haha." SinB forced a laugh and kissed Yerin's cheeks to distract her. "Y-You can just cook anything. I'll eat whatever you'll serve for me."     "Okay then. You can go shower or wait over there while I cook."     "I'll shower after breakfast." SinB said and got herself a glass of water before settling on one of the kitchen stools by the counter.     Quietly drinking her water, SinB was engrossed observing her wife. Last night still felt surreal for her and truth be told, despite having to spend those hours cuddling with Yerin, she was still not satisfied. Yes, she was happy that night happened, all those confessions, kisses, cuddling... but with all those suffering the past weeks and those self control she did, her urge to be with Yerin and have her around always was strong that she could not even leave her for a moment. Just like now.     "Yerin unn—" SinB stopped and bit her lip. Now that Yerin is officially hers, she should drop the 'unnie' part right? Or maybe, she could use an endearment... 'babe' perhaps? She blushed at the thought but no, maybe some other time. Besides, 'babe' is too common and over-used, and if she really wanted to have an endearment, she should think deeply about it. For now, she should just call the older girl by her name.     "Y-Yerin ah...?"     Hearing SinB, Yerin's movement halted as her lips automatically formed into a smile. She faced SinB and saw the pink glow on the latter's cheeks. Suddenly, she wanted to hug the girl once again and squish those rosy cheeks.     "That.. I like that, Bi." Yerin smiled and winked before returning to finish what she was doing.     Smiling to herself, SinB just stood up and prepared the utensils for them. "I just want to ask, can we not report to the office today?"      "Hmmm? Why is that?" Yerin asked as she placed the food on the counter, one by one before settling in front of SinB.     "W-Well, I just want to spend the rest of the day with you.."     Yerin looked up to her wife and smiled again. "You are making my heart flutter so early in the morning, Eunbi yah." She stated before feeding the younger a mouthful of omelet. But then, remembering about the important matter she needed to discuss with SinB, Yerin's smile slowly vanish as she sat straight. "Speaking of... I need to talk about something."     Taking a sip of her hot choco, Sinb diverted her attention to the girl in front. "What is it?"      "About the office... uhm.." Yerin suddenly could not speak straight. She could not formulate a sentence that would make it less suspicious for SinB. "W-We can't show that we're o-okay.."     "What do you mean?"     Yerin sighed. Now, how on earth can she escape Sinb's questions? She hated it that she was leaving her on the shadows. She hated it that she kept secrets from her. She hated it that she could not say the whole truth. Though it was for everyone's sake, it still bothered her a lot for she knew how curious and troubled SinB would feel.     "I mean.. we can't let anyone know about us just yet." Yerin looked away. "You know.. that we're okay now."     SinB stopped moving as her gaze immediately landed on Yerin after hearing the latter's words. What on earth was really going on? Everyone knows they're married, aren't they suppose to show everyone that they really are? Aren't they suppose to show to people that their marriage works well? That they love each other? Seriously, everything was a confusion to her. First, Yerin's actions and now this.     "I k-know you're—"     "Is this related to what you asked me last night? To not ask questions?" SinB asked as she tried to be understanding about the whole situation. However, a part of her was not okay with it. Is Yerin hiding her? Their relationship? But why? From who?     Everything was getting weirder.     "Yeah.. I-I'm—"     "Then it's okay.. I will try to understand." SinB said as she held in the urge to ask and as she kept the disappointment in her. She sighed and held Yerin's hand which was tensely placed on the counter. "I don't know what's happening.. but as long as you're okay, we're okay.. it's fine with me."     Smiling softly, Yerin squeezed her hand. "I'm so lucky to have you, Bi.."      SinB just smiled back and started eating again. "So.. can we skip office today?" She asked.     "Well.. about that.." Yerin sighed again. this. "I don't think I can spend the day with you.. I'm sorry."     SinB just pursed her lips as she nodded, hiding her disappointment. "That's okay.. uhm.. Can I ask where are you going..?"     "U-Uhh.. I'll have to m-meet Joy."     There was an absolute silence after Yerin spoke. The atmosphere suddenly changed as if it was directly connected to how SinB's whole system went uneasy after hearing that particular name.     "Oh... okay." SinB muttered as she weakly moved her fingers to continue eating. There was a sudden drop of her emotions, she could feel it. She suddenly remembered the pictures that were sent to her yesterday. How her wife and that Joy were lovey-dovey in those pictures. She knew she was not the jealous type, even with her previous relationship with Umji, she rarely felt that certain emotion. But now, why does she feel so possessive of Yerin? Why does she feel that way? She could not even control her voice anymore. She knew she sounded disappointed and hurt.     On the other hand, Yerin noticed it all; the disappointment, uneasiness, and hurt in SinB's voice and expression. She could not help but to sigh once again as she stood up. She walked behind SinB and gave the latter an embrace, placing her chin on the younger's shoulder. "Hey.. Joy is just my friend okay? She's helping me with something..."     "I-It's okay with me, I'm okay.." SinB muttered.     However, Yerin wasn't satisfied with that. She knew SinB felt the complete opposite of what she said. She knew the latter was discomforted, especially after
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bcsitsyerin
Hello. I'm sorry for the delay of the last chapter. I thought I would be able to update it within months. My studies really take so much of my time. I'm having progress on my draft somehow, but it's not nearing completion anytime soon. I'm really sorry to keep you waiting:(

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Andrea_97 #1
Chapter 27: please please update the last chapter 🙏🏻 all your stories are really good but I just discover this masterpiece and It's a shame you just left is without the ending 😭💔
shashashawing
#2
(◡ ω ◡) I saw this gem again (◔‿◔) I wonder what's the ending
full_moon
#3
Ndre... i miss them huhuhu
Qazxsw12 #4
Dear authornim, what do you want me to do in order for you to update the last chapter... lmaoo welp T__T *insert broken heart gif
full_moon
#5
Chapter 27: I'm still waiting for this >.<
Qazxsw12 #6
Chapter 27: Woah authornim! You know what time is it? It's time for you to update! Wink wink ;))))
wienwien123 #7
Chapter 27: So its just one chapter left . I cant wait to read that and hope it'll be a happy ending. Take ur time and stay safe authornim ;)
EhBeeSeeDih
#8
Good to hear the final chapter is still coming. Take your time authornim. I’ll be waiting patiently.
full_moon
#9
Chapter 10: I miss them huhuhu
Qazxsw12 #10
Hello authornim :DDDDDDDD