Jooheon woke up at the last stop light to the hospital. For some weird reason, he felt sick like something bad was about to happen or happened. Tears started running down his cheeks none stop. Won put the car into parking and looked at his son. “ jooheon what's wrong.” He asked worried he could see the way jooheon went pale and was crying that something was wrong. ‘Is he crying because he regrets being horrible to his brother.’ Won wondered. “heon” won called again. Jooheon didn't answer instead he got out of the car. Closing the car door and taking slow heavy steps toward the hospital door jooheon felt as if the whole world was about to crash on top of him. His heavy slow steps become a sprint into the hospital.

5 minutes ago. 

Jooheon closed his eyes for a couple of minutes he laid his head on the car door. When he opened his eyes he was no longer inside the car but inside an empty white room. right in front of him laid changkyun who’s the whole body was covered with blood. He was holding a razor and had his eyes closed. But jooheon could see he was breathing. He ran to his brother aid getting down on his knees with shaky hands he pulled changkyun up, Screaming his name but got no answer from the younger male. Jooheon screamed and shook changkyun again. Changkyun slowly opened his eyes and look up at his older brother. His dark brown eyes only full of tearful pain. “ changkyun hold on okay we will fix you and you will be good as new i promise.”  Jooheon said holding his brother to his chest pushing his brother bangs away from his sweaty forehead. Changkyun only looked at his brother confused while he tried to breathe normally. he didn't know why jooheon was holding him, why he was telling him to hold on. “i..i want to..die.” he said in between his breathing. “ no no no changkyun you can't die now not ever do you hear me.” The older looked around for help but notice the room there were in was empty. The only people in it was him and his dying brother in his arms. “ i want to die please.” Changkyun begged. “someone help.” Jooheon screamed bringing his younger brother closer to his chest. “you will not die do you hear me.” “wh..why would you care if i died or not, you never cared about what happened to me.” “I care changkyun and am sorry i just realized what you meant to be now. Please stay with me so your stupid hyung could fix his mistake. And after that, you could punish me as much as you want. But please hold on.” “ Hyung why does everybody hate me.” changkyun said biting down on his lower lip to ease the pain

 “ because we are idiots who couldn't see the wonderful and amazing person you are. please, Changkyun punishes us in any way you like but you have to live please.” “ Hyung I'm sorry but it's too late.” “ no, it's not, hold on and everything…. Changkyun hey Kyun.” Changkyun went motionless in jooheon arms. His head laid back on jooheon chest. There was no sign of life. Jooheon yelled shaking the younger male in his arms.

Now

He ran into the hospital, and without stopping he ran into changkyun room. Pushing the door open he looked around the empty room. After not seeing changkyun not lying on his bed panic overtook jooheon. He wanted to run out of the room and look for the doctors to ask them about where his brother is. But stopped when his eyes caught the bathroom door the lights were off but he could see a shadow from under the door. He quickly went to the door slowly turning the doorknob. as he starts to push the door he felt something leaning against it. “ changkyun are you in here” he asked while still pushing the door. the weight on the door wasn't that heavy and jooheon manage to open. As he pushed the door open and turned the light his heart dropped from what he saw in front of him. His nightmare was playing in front of him just like the dream he so wished was not true. His baby brother lying on the hard cold floor pale while blood covering his shirt.  Jooheon screamed getting on the floor he picked his brother up tears running down his eyes he screamed for help. The nurses and doctors rushed over to jooheon. They all stood shocked from what they saw in front of them. “ PLEASE SAVE HIM.” jooheon yelled holding his brother tightened into his arms. Rushing and getting changkyun from jooheon arms the doctors quickly start to do CPR. jooheon watched as the doctor took his brother away from him he watched from where he was sitting at the doctors tried to bring changkyun back. Everything was playing in slow motion to him. He couldn't process what was happening whether he was still stuck in the dream or not. And when heard the doctor yelling at the nurses to push him the defibrillator. Jooheon start hitting his chest hating himself for everything he had done to changkyun that made him want to take his own life. 

Won walked into the room to find one of his son’s crying beating his chest while his other son was lying on the bed with the doctor's fight to restart his heart. He watched in shock as everything plays in front of him like some horror movie. When the doctor yelled clear the 2nd time won felt his own feet giving up on him. He leaned on the door to keep himself from falling. “come on changkyun” he whispered holding tight to edge of the wall.

“ CLEAR” Han yelled the 3rd and last time as he shocked changkyun chest, everybody turned to look at the heart meter as it went in a start line making its long beeeeeep sound.