I miss BIGBANG so much

 

 

 

For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these, "It might have been."

- John Greenleaf Whittier

 

So now ….

 

 

Donghyuk is one hell of confused. There’s one moment where he is sitting on the sofa in the living room, patiently waiting for the mat hyung to come out from the much messed up of their leader who is crying himself in his bedroom with the oldest comforting him. There’s the other moment where he is in the kitchen, making ramen because Donghyuk is so damn hungry and unfortunately Yunhyeong has seemed to forget to cook them any breakfast. But he can’t blame the latter, everyone has things preoccupying their minds lately; including himself. So he could care less eating ramen that day.   But what Donghyuk cares greatly—no, even tremendously worry is now. Where this moment has him standing before the leader’s bedroom when he should be out taking his usual walk in the area for a clear of mind but he got himself stuck here trying to figure out what the hell is going on between the two lovers inside. Donghyuk is all aware of Chanwoo cheating on Hanbin---heck, everybody in the group knows about it already but the scenery upon him is not even in his book of expectation.   Like before; one moment he is peering his ears from inside his room, listening over Chanwoo, Hanbin, Jinhwan and Yunhyeong’s conversation, then one moment he’s out joining the two oldest waiting in the living room whilst sighing in frustration with hand rubbing each temple in headache. Then the next, it has the 3 of them hovering over the door after the sounds of someone yelling and breaking glasses put them on alarm.   Jinhwan has it the worst; possibly because he’s the oldest thus the stress on the situation heavily put upon him. He yells, knocking harshly on the door asking what is going on inside. Yunhyeong is the same as him though a bit calm. But his demeanor only proves how shaken he is facing the situation. Well for himself, nothing other than shock and fear can take over his mind now. Donghyuk isn’t that confused as why the fight happens between the leader and their maknae. He is much confused over one thing that each of his other 4 members thought about.   How can Chanwoo cheats on Hanbin when he loves the leader so much?   Talking about fear, he fears on what Hanbin might do to Chanwoo. It becomes a ground rule on their group that a much infuriated Hanbin isn’t a game to one play with. When he’s angry, he’s real angry. Now looking at the situation, Donghyuk wonders if ‘angry’ is a right word. It’s more like Hanbin is dead mad and he could even go as far as killing Chanwoo if he wants to. Which is why the 2 elders before him are desperately trying to open the door. To avoid any homicide cases from happening inside their dorm.   He shudders when a loud sound of something hitting the wall is heard. Then it comes again. So many times that he even wonders if the wall could break. Donghyuk yells too begging for Hanbin to stop, to open the door and let Chanwoo go. Then June comes along with Bobby minutes later for spare keys; they are so late but the blame can’t be put on them. They just barely moved in and finding the keys itself is hard when there are still unpacked things left in the store.   While they’re fumbling over which key is the correct one, the hitting stops. That brings a slight relief to everyone but they don’t stop there. After they enter the room, the sight of darkness taking lead first. Then the view of broken glasses before them. Slowly their gazes fix to the 2 figures standing over the corner of the room, both have each other in their arms. Such a surprising sight compares to the shouts and hits earlier but it does break hearts to witness.   Hanbin is the first to let go. He absent-mindlessly let Chanwoo go and he turns his back on everyone, facing the wall beside him. His shoulders are slouching. There are slight trembles they see from him.   With small yet clear voice he said ”go” and the maknae does as he said. Chanwoo carefully walks towards the door, carefully not to step on the glasses then he is met with Yunhyeong’s embrace. The second oldest of them as if on reflex has flew Chanwoo away with him towards their room, steps louder and faster on the floor. When the sound of door clicks shut is heard, everything falls into silence.   None of them move, for