Naeun’s POV:

His eyes were black and I saw the silver screen I heard about in the songs. I couldn’t answer his question. I didn’t even know why I started taking those pills in the first place. Well, that is not completely true but again how could I tell him? I just stared at him and I saw how his eyes changed from anger to disappointment to the complete emotionless silver screen. He was in pain; I could tell. He wouldn’t let others see it that is why he wears the lifeless mask. He walked to the room and I ran after him. I tried to put my hand on his shoulder but he shoved me away. He put his clothes into a bag. I tried to stop him. I told him I could explain. I cried and tried to hold him back but he pushed me away. He said that he didn’t know me anymore. He said that I’ve been acting weird since the pregnancy. “I asked you a million times what was going on with you. I asked you if anything was wrong. I told you that you could tell me anything. But you keep hiding things and now this. I can’t take this anymore.” He shouted as he walked to the door. I tried to talk but he wouldn’t listen. He said that he didn’t want to know and he left. He walked out the door and left me there alone. My knees were like jelly and I fell to the floor. My heart was screaming in agony. How could I hurt him like that? How did we come this far?

Days passed and I didn’t hear from him. I tried calling and texting. I called his friends and family but no one knew where he was. Things were crazy. They all searched for him. The girls came to stay with me but I didn’t want to see anyone. I didn’t want to talk to anyone. I wanted to see him. I wanted to explain everything. I wanted to apologize and beg for his forgiveness. Sleeping without him next to me was impossible. He has been away many times but he was never away because of a fight. INFINITE boys were pacing up and down in our house trying to think of the places he might go to or people he might be with. They practically called everyone they knew but no one had a clue. I watched them with tears falling non-stop from my eyes. It’s been this way since the day he left. I couldn’t stop crying, couldn’t eat or sleep. Days got longer and I could get myself to leave bed. I wrote him a million letters not that he could see them. I texted him a million times asking for a few minutes to explain myself but he never answered. Fear filled my days and nightmares filled my nights. Did I lose him? Was he gone forever? I felt lost, scared and lonely.

Author's POV:

Another one of the long days, Naeun is lying in bed staring at her photos with Myungsoo still glued on the ceiling with tears falling from the sides of her eyes wetting the mattress. Her phone rang and she shot up grapping it hoping that it would be him. But to her disappointment it was Woohyun. She answered hoping that he found out where Myungsoo was but he asked to meet her because they needed to talk. She didn’t understand but she agreed anyway. She invited him over and he came with Sungyeol.  The boys kept exchanging looks and looking awkwardly at Naeun for a couple of minutes then Woohyun cleared his throat “Look Naeun, we’re here as friends and older brothers for both you and Myungsoo. We aren’t trying to interfere between you two. But from what we know about Myungsoo we don’t think that the contraceptive pills are the issue here.” “Myungsoo is a very open minded person and he wouldn’t go off like that just because you’re scared of having kids. Myungsoo is a quiet person and he holds everything inside. He doesn’t like fights or arguments so when he is mad instead of fighting he holds back to avoid conflicts. He also doesn’t like being out casted. Being the introvert he is he has been out casted and l