Keys POV

         Jonghyun walks into the kitchen and then just leaves. It seams weird him and Tae seamed fine. I wonder if he told him? I finish eating and then sit on the couch and watch my drama. Not even 30 minuets into the drama Taemin walks out. I can tell he has been crying. He grabs the remote and shuts off the TV. “Hey Tae what’s up are you ok?” I ask seriously concerned. “Don’t hey Tae me you have no right to Hey Tae me. You kiss my boyfriend who at one point was apparently your boyfriend and then you think you can hey Tae me. No Key I’m not ok. Kibum in fact I’m far from ok. What did you think you could hide you kissing MY BOYFRIEND from me for another 7 years like you did with YOUR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP? Well you cant Kibum what were you thinking are you trying to hurt me?” at the sound of my real name in such a serious tone confuses me on the spot he only uses my real name when he is sick or wants something. “ Tae I wasn’t trying to hurt you I would never try to hurt you it meant nothing and no I thought Jonghyun was going to tell you when I sent you to him but apparently not.” I don’t want him to think I wanted to hurt him that was the last thing on my mind. “ Well he didn’t ok I found out because all my “friends” were sneaking around behind my back talking about my boyfriend kissing you.” He whispers harshly and it seems like the calm before a storm. “HOW COULD YOU KISS HIM?? I KNOW YOU HAD A THING BUT HE IS MINE!!! I WON!!! YOU NEED TO MOVE ON! I KNOW CHLOE LEFT AND ALL BUT STAY AWAY!” There it is the storm I was afraid of. I’m not sure when it all happened but I am now standing up and we are both crying. Jonghyun just got back and I’m almost sure he is going to take Taemin’s side on this one but he doesn’t he breaks down and just falls between the two of us. Why he is not taking Taemin’s side I don’t know what is going on is this real life? Taemin’s storm stops for just a few seconds and then he starts again, “HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME??? YOU KNEW I WAS INSICURE!! YOU KNEW HOW MUCH I PUT INTO THIS RELASHIONSHIP AND YOU THROW IT ALL AWAY IN 1 SECOND!!! DO I MEAN ANYTHING????” I’m not sure who he is taking to but I hate the fighting. Jonghyun apparently hates it to because he gets up and leaves. We stand their both sobbing but the only thing I can hear is Taemin’s quiet cry for an answer that I don’t know. “ Why Key why would you do this to me?” he whispers. I have no answer for him. I just want to grab my son and tell him it will all be ok but he wont let me. Onew walks into the room and throws Taemin to the ground. Seeing my son getting hurt is the last thing I wanted from this. I fall to the ground and crawl to the corner and cover my ears. I know Taemin will not allow me to defend him so I stay like this until Onew stops. After Onew stops Taemin looks at me with his sad eyes almost begging me to do something but I cant he wont let me. He instead gets up and leaves. I sit in the living room all alone and cry for longer then expected because when I look at my phone I’m late to Mcountdown and I’m a host I cant be late. I get there and they have already run through lines and are now in hair and makeup. I do a quick walk through with the lines and the whole show then to hair and makeup and then over to SHINee’s dressing room. Jonghyun and Taemin have not fixed things because Minho and Taemin are in one corner and Jonghyun is in the other on his phone. You can feel the awkward in the room and it has defiantly gotten worse since I last saw them. We perform and it goes well not as good as usual but we are SHINee when we are on stage together there is just a vibe but as soon as we get off stage its back to how it was before. Taemin decides to go over to the Got7 dorm. I never realized how close he was with them. I guess it makes sense they are closer in age. In the car back to the dorm Onew and I sit in the very back and Minho sits up front. Jonghyun has to go to Blue Night so he takes a different car. Which I find a little weird we usually just drop him off but I guess when we aren’t all getting along it makes a difference. When we get back its quiet Minho goes to Ambers place and Onew eats and then goes to Ailee’s. I sit in the dorm alone. This place is bigger then I thought. I sit in the living room for a while and think. Anger starts to boil with in me. I am mad at myself for kissing Jonghyun. I am mad at Taemin for not realizing that it meant nothing. I am mad at Jonghyun for not taking Taemin’s side, but also not taking my side. I am mad at Minho he is my best friend but he takes the side of the guy who is mad for no reason? I let my anger boil till if feel my self almost diva out when I realize there is no one here. I am alone again this make all the anger go away and the sadness swarm my heart once again. I go to Jonghyun’s room because its weird being in mine. I hate my room, its where I last saw Chloe it where I kissed Jonghyun, its where this fight started I just don’t like it. I climb in his bed rap his ratty old blanket around my head a fall right to sleep. In the morning I wake up and I’m still alone. I’m not sure where Jonghyun is but it is not around here. I lay around for most of the day until one of the managers calls me to go to the show for tonight. We go though the same thing Onew with me, Minho and Taemin across the room and Jonghyun somewhere in the middle trying not to make eye contact. We perform and everyone just goes separate ways. I know where Onew and Minho go but the other two I’m not sure I just know there not together like they should be. I get lonely at the dorm its just me and my dogs. I spend the night trying to get someone to hang out with me but there all busy. I hate being alone it gives me too much time to think. I go over all of our dances 1000 times. I watch all three SHINee concerts and our Tokyo Dome just to pass time. I hate that we are all fighting we were all so happy and now we are just waiting for the next chance to rip each other to shreds. I watch my solo performance of born to shine and let me say I look damn good. I have taken more selfies in the last hour then I ever have. I call my mom and try to push things off but she sees right through it. I don’t go into detail but I tell her that we are all fighting and it’s all because of me. I end up braking down on the phone with her and that does not help. When I get off the phone I grab a bottle of soju and just down it then just keep grabbing more until I’m smashed. It was a bad idea because now I feel like complete . I fall asleep all alone in this big empty apartment again. I wake up around 9am and throw up. I make my self something to eat then decide that I need more sleep. Getting drunk is not for me I spend the rest of the day trying to ignore the phone and get rid of the head ach. I go to yet another recording and things have gotten worse somehow we all sit on our phones ignoring each other. Onew does come over to check on me but just for a second then goes back to his corner. Jonghyun seems sadder then before. Taemin seems to have more anger then sadness now. I don’t know what up with Minho he is supposed to be my best friend and he won’t even talk to me. I just feel so at fault for all of this. Maybe if Chloe would have never come this wouldn’t be an issue. We get done and I’m home alone again. I feel like the child in the American movies who always gets left behind on Christmas. I don’t even try to make it to Jonghyun’s room tonight I just pass out on the couch. I wake up to someone walking in to the apartment. I get excited for a second but then I realize its just one of the managers coming to get cloths for Taemin. I ask where he is staying but all he tells me is at a friend’s house. I lie back down and start to cry. I don’t understand how I have somehow pushed everyone I love away. Chloe left. I barely ever talk to Woohyun any more, and my best friends all hate being around me now. I end up crying my self to sleep again. I wake up to a knock on the door. When I open the door its someone I never expected, it’s Jr. I am surprised. We don’t work with each other much but I would say were pretty good friends. “Hyung I need to tell you something.” He says seriously and I’m all ears but what he tells me is something I don’t want to hear.