I try my hardest to sing so Taemin can tell I am singing to him but I’m not sure if it got across to him. I’m really upset that I hurt my Tae baby so bad. I really do love him. I just don’t understand why he does not trust me. I mean yes when we first debut I did like Key like a lot. But there has always been something about Taemin that makes my heart beat out of my chest. I remember the first time I saw him. I was practicing singing and dancing at the same time SM had just told me I need to practice this because they were putting me in a boy band that had hard core dancing involved in their concepts. Just as my voice cracked the younger one had walked in to practice his dancing. At that moment my heart stopped not only because I was embarrassed but the boy was also flawless. Then when I found out he was going to be apart of SHINee I almost died. During our training for our debut Taemin had no flaws in his dancing where as I messed up a lot. Any time I saw him it was like seeing a new person every time. This is why I hate to see him like this I just want him to be happy but I don’t understand why he gets so jealous. Why can’t he just believe in my love for him? When we get back to the dorm I try to fallow Taemin to his room but he just slams the door in my face. Why can he not just trust me? I’m so angry right now. I go to my room and just shut the door when on the other side I just fall to my knees and cry. I cannot help it. I just want to hold Tae and say that I’m sorry but for now I will just take a shower. When I get out of the shower I hear a knock on the door. I want to ignore it but I can’t it could be Taemin. I open the door and it is I let him come in and he just falls into my arms. “Jonghyun I’m sorry I just hate seeing you with other people I hate that it comes so natural to you I hate it and everything about it.” He says with one big breath. “ Tae I’m sorry too but you know I love you. You know you are the only one in my heart. Why can you not trust that.” I ask with anger. He just sobs. “Tae you cant just say your sorry and then just act like a victim you are no victim yes I have friends and yes I love them but never as much as I will love you. Yes I have to do fan service so do you but you don’t see me running around yelling at Minho every time he touches you and boy does he touch you alot. I hate it but I trust you. I trust you more than I trusted anyone in the world. I trust you enough to know that you would never do anything to hurt me or our relationship. I love you more than anything in the world.” I say as I push him out the door as soon as I’m done I slam the door in his face. Not long after I do this I feel bad again. After a while I go to see if he has fallen asleep I know he has a hard time sleeping alone. Just as I am about to open the door Key opens it. He tells me I better fix things. I hate when he orders me around like this. Honestly I was going to but now that Key has said something about it I don’t think I should. I go back to my room and just lay in my bed for hours. I know it was a bad idea not to listen to Key because now I cannot sleep. I get up to get some water and Taemin is at the kitchen table looking about as bad as I probably am. I can tell he did not sleep for long. I walk over to him and rap my arms around his waste. “Hello beautiful.” I whisper in his ear. This sends chills threw his body. He try’s to pull away but I am stronger then him. He must not want to get away that bad because he does not fight it for long. “I’m sorry” I say pressing my lip into his neck. He starts to say sorry but I press my lips agents his. “You have nothing to say sorry for love.” I say when I pull away. “Hyung I just love you so much.” He says with tears in his eyes. “ I love you too now lets go to bed we have a big schedule tomorrow.” We go back to the room and he falls asleep within seconds of laying down. It takes me a while to fall asleep. I am so glad we made up he makes me so happy. I didnt sleep well because well I never do. I wake up at 4:30 and Tae is still asleep I go to the kitchen to make the boy some toast and get him some banana milk. Key is awake and in the kitchen. “well well well did the two love birds make up.” He says with a smirk. “Yes we did and we didn’t need the help of Dr.Kibummi either.” I say. Taemin walks in I give him his toast and kiss his cheek. “Good morning sleeping beauty.” I say handing him his milk as well. Today we have to record some variety shows and do some interviews but luckily I am next to Tae all day. I feel like we were apart for like 3 years when it was only like 4 hours. We get back home and Taemin just crashes. I say up and end up writing a hole song. It usually takes me a while to write a song but when I’m with him it does not take much time. We have a day to rest and then we are back at it we go to Show Champion and spend all day at the station. In the dressing room Tae cannot keep his hands to him self. He turns me on a little. I finally have had enough I grab him and we find a closet. I kiss his neck and rub my hands along his chest. I bite his bottom lip and he lets out a small moan I cover his mouth. “shh babe its ok.” Just as I start to take off his shirt the door opens. Luckily it is just Amber and Minho apparently their relationship has escalated because Minho looks a little… umm frustrated. We all decide to go on a double date. Amber is surprisingly a cutesy girl friend she holds Minho’s hand while he is driving and then when we get to the restraint they are playing footsie under the table. We end up winning that night. When Onew is giving our thank you speech I whisper to Taemin “hey babe are we still on for tonight maybe some celebration is at hand?” I lean over ask Key to take the others out after so that we can have the dorm to our selves. He agrees happily. During our encore Tae is obviously distracted. When we get back to the dorm Key asks us to go out and just as planed everyone but Tae and I agree. “No on the couch.” Minho yells as they leave. Much to our surprise we actually don’t have any. I play him the song I wrote, we lay in bed and then end up going to the gym. We do how ever end up taking a shower together. We stay in the shower just holding each other for a very long time. Just as we are about to get out we hear a knock on the door. “Guys just because we said no on the couch dose not mean you can do it in the shower.” Jinki yells loud enough that you would think the whole neighborhood would hear it. We hear Key laughing in his high-pitched squeak. He must have gotten drunk because when we get out he is on the floor just passed out. Onew and Chloe must have gotten close because he takes a picture and sends it to her and all we hear for the rest of the night is his text tone and it is not Allie because she is out of the country right now. Tae and I have decided to stay in my room this does not happen much because my room is usually to cold for him but we chose this room because I have been missing my bed. I wake up to a shivering Taemin I pull him closer to me and wrap my arms around him I also give him my blanket. I just lay awake holding him for the rest of the night. We have M countdown tomorrow but that is not until a lot later so we get the morning off. We have had a pretty chill schedule for this comeback we just do a ton of recordings but we can do those pretty fast. Taemin sleeps until it is just about time to go. He wakes up on his own and just cuddles up to me for a while. I hold him until Minho knocks on the door. “Hey guys its time for us to go record for tonight.” Key has been at the station all day him and Bam Bam are messing around when we get there. Bam Bam has finally caught on to the fact that Tae and I are gay because he tells us in the dressing room that we have always been his OTP and that he is so glad we are together. We have been trying to tell him since we met him but he is just a tad slow. When he reveals this Tae gets comfortable and leans into me. I get up to go to the bathroom right before our performance. Right after I walk out of the stall Tae walks in and my heart just stops this is the first time I have really taken a good look at him today. I just love his purple hair it suites him well and his strong but still twig like figure just makes me want to hold him all day. “Babe its time for us to go on.” He says snapping me out of my daze. I grab his hand and just hug him then we go on stage and kill our performance. We end up winning again tonight and the boys decide to have their girlfriends over again. We play truth or dare I end up asking Minho if him and Amber have done the deed. He informs us all that they have not but their first time was going to be in that closet at Show Champion. We all laugh at this idea because neither one of them see the problem with their first time being in a closet at a music show. This gets us on the topic of what we have done in closets at music shows. We find out that Allie and Jinki did this at our last Inkigayo performance. Tae tells everyone that is where we had our first kiss and multiple kisses since then. We kind of have a thing about kissing and music show closets. We continue to talk and this must make Chloe and Key feel awkward because they get up and leave and I mean not just the room the dorm.
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