T.O.P's P.O.V

Seungho spent some minutes introducing each of us to the annoying couple and so far, I managed to keep myself from saying anything. I knew I was going to say or do something stupid sooner or later, and I was even starting to fear myself and how my reactions could betray me when I least expect them to do so.

Taecyeon left the table to look for his previous table’s waiter, and after I told Seungho to order for me, he and the other two were focused in ordering as our table’s waiter explained them something I wasn’t going to pay attention to.

Eunjung was sitting across from me by Seungho’s side and she was silent, I turned to look at her and our eyes met briefly and I swear my heart was suddenly pounding in my throat.

She stared down at her hands, but I kept looking at her not saying anything. I was just admiring her. How her black, straight hair covered a side of her face, how her soft-looking lips were slightly turned downward, how her defined eyebrows were faintly raised as if questioning why was I staring at her, how her pale ears held into some loose strands of hair when she pulled them back in a swift motion, how her long lashes were like curtains covering the blinding spark of her pretty yet nervous eyes. Everything about her was so interesting, every line of her face was well thought, and I was sinking deeper into the brown ocean of her eyes. Everything about her was beautiful.

“That’s kind of creepy, you know?” I saw her lips moved as she finally decided to speak just to tell me I looked creepy. 

“What?”

She sighed and jerked her head up daring to make eye-contact with me, “why are you even staring at me?”

I chuckled not wanting her daring tone to scare my confidence away, “just because.” She rolled her eyes and at that I chuckled again, “what? Am I making you uncomfortable?”

She tilted her head, “if I say yes would you stop looking at me?”

I raised an eyebrow, “let me think about it…” I teased, “the answer is…no.”

She rolled her eyes at me again looking away from me when that jerk decided to appear. 

“What did he told you?” Eunjung asked him.

“He will serve the food here,” the responded and smiled softly at her before mouthing an “I’m sorry.”

After the quick exchange with Eunjung nothing much was really said. Seungho entertained the couple while I try to distract my mind from them by commenting then and there during Taeyoung and Hyunjong’s conversation, which topic I can’t recall.

I tried to lie to myself, but I was jealous to the point of not controlling my reactions.

After the food was served we all drop in some casual conversation, but I noted that while Taecyeon was rather talkative Eunjung preferred to stay silent and in general didn’t comment at all. She only talked when Taecyeon turned to her or when occasionally either Seungho or Hyunjong made her questions.

She smiled just out of politeness, but I could sense she was uncomfortable and felt out place. I didn’t like seeing her forcing smiles all the time, but that was better than having her glared up at me whenever our eyes met.

I was out of the conversation topics during all the dinner. Not trying to make it seem less obvious how my entire focus was directed at Eunjung.

I sensed she was even more uncomfortable by my actions but just as uncomfortable I felt whenever I saw her reach for Taecyeon’s hand like he was going to disappear. He will casually squeeze her hand in reassurance that he was still there, and I hoped he would just stop smiling so annoyingly.

Both Eunjung and him laughed when either Taeyoung or Seungho made a joke, but everything was so irrelevant to me. I stared blankly at them, and although I occasionally forced a laugh I knew all too well that Seungho sensed that it was forced, and to be honest I couldn’t care less.

Hyunjong noted I was not being me throughout the entire dinner, but I didn’t give it too much thought. I haven’t been myself for some days, and the cause of my dilemma was sitting right across from me.

Eunjung doesn’t have a clue how she affects me and I don’t plan to tell her.

Being out of myself all evening prove to be unhealthy. I started to drink and drink. Cup after cup of wine, although Seungho tried to stop me from drinking more I refused and reassured that I wasn't drunk like he thought, I was all too used to the effect of alcohol in my system.

Sometimes when I get tipsy I will start to throw in random jokes and laugh alone, other times my face will get really red and I would start to laugh uncontrollably, but so far I was acting normal, or at least what I considered to be normal.

I got the waiter to serve me another cup, this time with a stronger drink, and I couldn’t help but notice what it seemed to be a concerned look in Eunjung’s face judging from the way she frowned at me. She was no longer shooting glares at my direction but was rather staring at me with worry filled eyes.

If drinking until losing sense was all it took to get her attention away from Taecyeon, then I was all in into getting myself wasted.

It was past 10PM, and by the time we all have finished eating. I was starting to smile without reason leaning into Hyunjong’s shoulder as he rolled his eyes at my now immature attitude.

Eunjung and Taecyeon stood up to paid for their food and while they walked off I could perceive they were arguing whether who will pay, and that drifted me back to the memory of me and Eunjung’s first date when we agreed to pay for each other food.

Why couldn’t Eunjung and I go back to that point? Why did my feelings got so complicated out all of sudden? Why did I do to no have my feelings reciprocated by her?

Just the idea was frustrating, and so I couldn’t help but said it aloud, “seriously, no girl in Korea wouldn’t want to be with me, so why is she so different?” I sighed loudly not caring about the questioning and confused looks my friends throw in my direction.

“Seunghyun, what are you talking about?” Asked Seungho from across the table, seemingly deeply concern.

“Shhh,” I hushed him, “I am ing Choi Seung Hyun and everybody wants me, I bet that if Hyunjong was a girl in an alternate universe he will die just for me to look at him once, right?”

Hyunjong didn’t reply and I was kind of offended, but I didn’t stop there, “I am Choi Seung Hyun, and everybody loves me, okay? Note that down,” I stood up and lifted my cup.

“No, no…” Seungho stood up trying to calm me down.

Hyunjong pulled down into my arm forcing me to sit down as Taeyoung try to get the cup out of my hands, but I shook away from their grip and with a breathy laugh I shoved down my throat the remaining of the strong drink from my cup.

I sighed and slapped the cup down ready for the fifth round.

“Seunghyun, behave, what the is wrong with you?” Taeyoung asked not really wanting to keep up with my , but to be honest I seriously didn’t care at all.

“ it all,” I raised my tone, and at that people started to glance at our table.

I grumbled at the unwanted attention, but Seungho managed to settle me down by the time Eunjung and Taecyeon came back, staring confused at their surroundings.

They were prepared to leave, and after the embarrassing scene I put up while they were gone, my friends didn’t want to do anything other than to leave to avoid the pointing stares of the waiters serving other tables and the people too busy attending our business when they were supposed to attend to theirs.

Seungho offered to pay for the four of us leaving the money on the table not even wanting to face the waiter, and I was too tired to even fight his decision.

Eunjung and Taecyeon still couldn’t get a hold of the s