Just Like Now | EunHae, SJ | AU | G |




"You like him don't you?"

I got startled hearing Leeteuk Hyung's voice beside me while i'm busy wiping off the counter top with a wet towel. I am working in a coffee shop together with Leeteuk, Sungmin, Ryeowook and Shindong, my friends and dormmates.

"W-why did you say that," I answered, dropping a quick glance outside the glass window of the shop and straight across the street where a young man, the same age as i am, working inside the internet cafe.

"Well, that's because you're eyes doesn't leave anywhere else but up front. And the only place standing across us is that net cafe out there." Sungmin, my best friend answered on behalf of the oldest hyung in the shop.

"I...I am not looking at--"

"Stop denying it,Hyuk. We can all see the giggles; the smiles; the twinkling of your eyes; the on-the-spot daydreaming and suddenly dazing off to love planet. Yeah, that was pretty much about it." Ryeowook said that made me blush. How can he knew all about that? Am i really that transparent that even my co-workers are noticing that i have this huge crush on the man outside, eating his red apple on his hand while sitting at the corner and talking to his Hyung named Yesung?

"I d-did not--"

"Are you still going to deny it when we can all see the evidences right in your eyes?" Shindong butts in after mopping the floor.

"I...I'm not going to deny it..." I replied, pouting.

"That's good to hear--"

"But i'm not going to confirm it either." I said with finality and continue cleaning my area.

"We're good at it." Leeteuk stated and smiled at me before going back to his work as well as Sungmin and Shindong.

"Um...since you like that guy, maybe, just maybe--"

"I could match you with that weird guy?" I said, ending his sentence short.

Ryeowook look at me with pleading eyes and I sighed at the thought of playing cupid once again.

In my twenty four years of living in this world, though loveless, i became the adviser in the group and i especifically advises about love. I don't know why i can come up with solution to their problems--their love problems when i can't even solve my own dilemma: having NBSB(no boyfriend since birth). All of my friends have their own boyfriends except Wookie and Shindong who has a girlfriend.

So, why the heck God made me?! Where is the other part of me?

But, re-thinking about it all over again, re-evaluating my driven purpose in life, i always end up with the words: 'patience'; 'wait'; and 'soon'.

I know God has made one of us a partner to share the wonderful life here on earth. It just takes time for us to meet, know each other before finally telling each other 'I love you's' and earthly stuffs about love.


I know I'm a bit envious--no i guess, i'm pretty envious about other people who had someone to snuggle with, to kiss goodbye with and to hug with. I sometimes ask myself what is wrong with me. Why doesn't anyone tries to step forward and be a man to ask me out? Why there's no man waiting for me outside while my co-workers have their own lovebird that waits for them after work hours?

Does god love me less? Is this god's punishment for me for being bad?

If so, then i'm truly sorry. But if this is all nonsense like god would definitely say, then i'm very sorry for not putting my trust on Him.

Maybe,god wants me to do the other way around. Maybe, he wants me to take a step forward and be a man. Yeah, that should conclude everything.

Maybe, because nobody's taking a step forward to know me because well, maybe i'm too picky, i guess. He wants me to take an action instead of waiting for something that will soon about to come.

Maybe, it's not so bad to start working with my lovelife right now. I guess, it wouldn't hurt a bit to experience a little before finally tieng the knot with my perfect man.

And maybe, it's not so bad to answer my heart calling right now.


"H-hey, d-do y-you h-have s-some g-gum, D-D-Donghae?"



The END.


 

A/N: this is half fiction and half non. It was somewhat someone's past story but it was all under the bridge now. The title is for her 'cause she ended up forgetting the guy and just continue what they are right now: strangers to each other. It was just a one-sided love. So, i hope it's not the same for EunHae as well.

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