sorry if you were expecting an actual update but whats good my dudes its been nearly 3 years since i last updated this fic!! wew!!

honestly im never going to continue this. its just been way too long, and idk i started this fic when i was a ty 14 year old and im just,,,not the same person i was when i wrote this??? ngl this whole fic stemmed from my ''''teenage angst bull''''' and i really only started writing it because i was going through a hard time. since then ive found myself in a place where im comfortable; its not great, but i like it all the same, and im content. so i guess what im trying to say here is that i can't really relate to the feelings that made me start writing this, and with this inability to relate comes a sort of lack of motivation.

tbh i dont really like thinking about this fic. i actually hate it. every now and then someone will subscribe or upvote this and i just??? why?? in my opinion its trash??? idk i just really dont like thinking about this fic bc: 1. i hate looking back on old work, and 2. it just reminds me of tier times and id like to move on with my life

also my interests have changed a lot since the last time i updated this lmao. if you read any of my other i pretty much only write twice stuff now. maybe nows a good point to mention that another one of the reasons i lost the momentum for this fic was bc of jessica leaving snsd. i mean lbr after that it just wasnt the same and everything went to . idk i still love them all but its different now u feel?? 

anyway as much as i hate this TRASH i cant say i regret ever writing it. i mean as a 14/15 year old without any real viable emotional outlets i guess this was it for me. ugh i really cant find the right words to say what i mean but w/e

if youve read all the way up to here i just want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart. although i hate this fic with every cell in my current being, the fact that ((((v occasionally)))) people acknowledge this fics pathetic existence is nice. thank you for all your support, even after i practically abandoned this. im not too great at responding to things but im really glad that this fic still manages to entertain people despite it being so terrible lmao

so, with this, im going to mark this fic as complete and never look at it again until a lapse in judgement finds me. 

thank you so much for sticking with this piece of crap until now.