Chapter 15

SMent Building; SUJU dressing room

Leeteuk’s PoV

I was too preoccupied about Joo crying and forgot about Taeyeon! Yes that was the reason! I shouldn’t have left her! Kyuhyun… it was our maknae who saved Taeyeon.

“Yah Kyuhyun-ah… Komawo…” I said as I touched his shoulders. “Please tell noona that I will be leaving first.”

“Huh?” Kyuhyun asked. “Where are you going?”

“Gonna fix things….” I replied. “Please just do what I am asking you…”

I can see that my boys are smiling at what I am saying. I probably sound like a moron here… but I am just too worried for my dongsaeng.

“Alright! We’ll tell noona about it!” Siwon said.

“Thanks!” I added as I ran as fast as I could to reach the parking lot. I immisiately went to my car, started my engines and drove to Han Shin Hospital. Our recording was done already so I know for one that noona won’t be mad if go ahead of the boys.

Aishhh! Jungsoo! You’re crazy! And Taeyeon… what has gone to her mind soaking herself in the rain?! I thought she’ll ride the bus! Aishhh!

Han Shin Hospital:

I was already at the hall way standing in front of Taeyeon’s room. I can hear some giggling and laughing inside. Who would not hear Taeyeon’s Ahjumma-ish laugh?! Kekeke!

I was about to enter her room when I heard a very familiar voice talking and teasing her. I know… it’s Onew… I can’t help my fist to clench… I really don’t know why but I do feel something strange! Aish! Don’t mind it Leeteuk! Go inside this instance!

I opened the door nervously. I saw Taeyeon with a dextrose on her hand. My Taengoo is sick… how could I not care?!

“Annyeong!” I greeted. The two looked at me with a very jaw dropping expression.

“Hyung!” Onew exclaimed. “Good you’re here!”

I smiled. “Thanks! May I enter?”

Taeyeon grinned, “Annyeong oppa! Come on in!”

I walked towards them… I did not took a seat, I went straight beside Taeyeonw ho was eating some oranges.

“How did you know where We are? I mean, our room number…” Taeyeon asked while staring at me. her eyes… her pretty little eyes, her white skin and her very cute cheeks… I saw it all… the fresh faced Kim Taengoo… she looks like an angel… gahh! What’s happening Leeteuk?!

“You’re laugh…” I teased.

Both Onew and I smirked, “See how loud you are Taeyeonnie?!” Onew mocked. “Even when you’re sick you are soooo loud!”

Taeyeon pouted. “I can’t help it! You know how much I want to express myself right?!”

“Expressing much??” I teased.

“Hey! Freedom of expression alright!” Taeyeon joked back. Are you really sick? Kekekeke! You sound normal to me!

“What happened to you?” I finally asked seriously. I heard onew clearing his throat while eating some oranges. What’s happening?

Taeyeon smiled after I finished the question. “I went to our house yesterday… Ha Young was sick… maybe I got it from her…”

Liar! I know the reason! I thought with my heart beating faster… “Ah… is that so…?”

“Mmmm!” Taeyeon said in agreement…

I smiled and truned my focus to Onew who was dorkily eating some oranges… “Hey Onew… is it fine to leave Taeyeon and I alone for the moment?”

Onew looked at Taeyeon… “Uhmmm…” he began. “Alright… I’ll be staying outside first… Annyeong!”

Leeteuk bowed when Onew stood up from his chair. Onew went outside and because of that, Leeteuk sat at the chair where Onew was seated.

“What’s the matter oppa?” Taeyeon asked curiously. Oh her voice is so soothing to the ear… her curious voice…

“Sorry…” I said with my head looking down.

“Huh? Sorry for what?” Taeyeon asked.

“I know that you walked and soaked yourself in the rain while going home. I am not sure if you did went to your house but I know that you walked and soaked yourself.” I admitted.

“Oh…” Taeyeon exclaimed in a very low voice. “I got caught!”

“Please Taeyeon… don’t lie to me… to your oppa… you have never been like that before…” I started. “I know that it’s my fault why you are in here… and I am so sorry because of that…”

Taeyeon showed me a very sincere smile, “I am really fine Leeteuk-ssi! Sorry for lying but I did that because I know that you would act this way… you’ll start to blame yourself… I don’t want that… and besides, it’s not your fault too… I was the one who let myself soak in the rain.” She said.

Leeteuk-ssi?! Since when did Taeyeon call me that?! I thought clenching my fists

“It’s not that you soaked yourself in the rain… I was the cause of your pain… I know that… Kyuhyun said that you were talking about how lucky Seohyun was because Kyu likes her too….” I said finally taking the guts to look straight at her. “Taeyeon… Please don’t act you’re fine when you are not… especially when in front of me… I am truly sorry if you’re hurting… I just want you to focus on your goals… in being a successful singer. I know you are already but I want you to aim higher… don’t focus on me too much… please take care of yourself…”

She took a deep breath and I know that she’s forcing a smile right now… “A- arasso… sorry for the troubles that I am making… I won’t do it again… Thanks for caring Leeteuk ssi… I really appreciate it. I already know that you don’t like me back… this unrequited love of mine is useless… thanks for telling me earlier… I know that you don’t want me to be hurt… that’s why I am hiding it.” She replied without looking at me. “Don’t worry… I will not show a fake Kim Taeyeon again…”

I stared at her. Her face with full of worried, agonies and hurt. I know that I am hurting her.. I DON’T WANT THAT! But I really can’t fix words when talking to her… It’s my first time being like this! Aish!

“Thanks for visiting me Leeteuk ssi!” she finally caught my eyes. Her eyes makes my heart pound faster. I couldn’t help it. I could see her eyes very watery… am I making her cry again?! Aishhh! Please don’t Taeyeon-ah! “Please tell Kyuhyun that I am truly thankful that he was there!”

I am too Taengoo… *sighs*

“Alright… I’ll go ahead…” I stood up and left an umbrella on her side table, “Don’t let yourself get wet again!”

I bowed at her and made my way to leave. I could see her  reflection on the door’s glass. I could see that she was wiping her tears away. gahhH! Leeteuk! You’re sooo stupid!

Taeyeon’s PoV

I can’t believe that I just called him Leeteuk-ssi! Oh if he only knows how much I love calling him oppa! But I want to start controlling myself! I should be more responsible when it comes to my feelings. I can’t be this weak when it comes to love… he’s right! I should not act that I am fine when inside I am really hurting… but, I just don’t want him to worry!

I wiped my tears while he was heading away…

“Komawo Teukie!” I said with my voice cracking a bit. He stopped for a second and went away… I took a deep breath and grabbed that umbrella that he left on my side table when he left. Good thing Onew’s not yet entering… my eyes is still a bit swollen…

I really love you Leeteuk.. you being so caring, responsible and very angel like face! I really love you! But I guess I am really not your type… a dork.. a stupid… a weak leader and dongsaeng…

Leeteuk’s PoV

“Gahhhhhhh!” I screamed after sitting on my car! “I AM SOOOO STUPID!”

When he called me Teukie… I felt my legs tremble and my heart being pierced with dozens of needles. Her voice when he thanked me after calling me Teukie was so comforting! The anger in me when I heard her say ‘Leeteuk ssi’ faded when that certain name… ‘Teukie’ was called by her. She’s the only one who calls me that. I love it! I must admit that I love it! I just couldn’t believe that I did not in any way respond to her after that!

“Stupid stupid stupid!” I called myself those words while hitting my steering wheel.