Day by day, I  am and always reminding myself that I shouldn’t be feeling like this, but the more I try to hide and deny my feelings, the deeper it goes. The more I fell for him.

Da*n this heart, can’t you not choose someone who can love you back? Of all the men, why him? Why someone so close? I cannot bear to take the risk of gambling our friendship over my stupid feelings, that may end everything. No way.

Not until Graduation. I said.

Graduation is a week away, and I already gathered up all the courage in me to confess to him. I cant take it anymore, I’ve been keeping this a secret for almost two years now.

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“ Excited for graduation huh?!”  I was taken aback when suddenly someone poke me from behind.

 I know who it was. Since just two persons actually knew about this place.

Me and Siwon.  I can’t help but feel nervous at the sight of him. I wanted to disappear right now.

“Well yeah.” I muttered in a low tone. He  occupied the space beside me and joined in viewing sky-high  buildings towering the city like we always do. And the following minutes remained wordless. And that definitely is creeping the hell out of me.

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“I have something to tell----“

“I have something to tell----“

I was shocked when we both said  that and chuckled at the same time.

“You go first”  I decided to let him talk first. Since I was still gathering up all my words.

“no, you go first” he insisted.

“I insist, you go first.”

“Okay, you said so.”  I felt a little relief hearing his statement.

“Umm..you remember the girl I’m talking about?” of course I nodded. How can I not remember her when you talk about her all the time? I said in my thoughts. 

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“Finally I got the courage.. I’m going to confess to her later.”  He spilled out.