Confession

As He Sleeps

[My eyes, my eyes only look at you]
[My heart, my heart is already filled with you]
[Accept it, my heart is impatiently waiting, baby.]
[A boy whose eyes are only set on you]
[A boy whose heart has stolen her heart]
[Oh please, enough with tiring me out]

The sound of the song is surrounding the recording room. One man sitting with his acoustic guitar and the fat man sitting on a wooden
box with a shaker in his hand.
Sungmin quietly enter the recording room he is working at. , he really is late. He needs to sneak well so that Hyukjae won't
notice it. And just as when he was about to close the door, the music stopped and  a clearing of throat startled him and made
him sighed quietly. Oh dear he got caught~He turned with a ready guilty smile. All eyes on him.

"Morning, Hyukjae." he said. He swallowed and knew he will be facing quite a long lecture from his good ol'friend. "Sorry I'm late."
he walked towards the equipments and waved his hands on the people inside the soundproof room. It is where the singers record their
songs without too much sound from the outside world. Except for the speakers that connects them to the people recording the song for
them.

Sungmin doesn't need to reason out why he is late. He doesn't prepare a good lie to tell and he hasn't really thought of a nice drama this
morning. Furthermore, Hyukjae is kind enough to always accept his apology just as long as admits his mistake.
What's 5 years of being friends anyway? Oh his special benefits!

Hyukjae sighed and shook his head. Nope, he won't deal with Sungmin being late but..."Min, I know we work in a small company but
please... have the decency to not wear the same clothes twice in a row." His hands on his waist as he looked at Sungmin from head to
toe. He is sure that it is the same clothes he wore yesterday because he still have the stain from his caramel sundae. He closed
his eyes and shook his head.

"Sorry Hyukjae ah..." Sungmin showed a sorry face while biting his lower lip. He shouldn't be too dazed a while ago. He didn't know
he has missed 4 buses with 20minutes interval. Now he wasn't even able to change his clothes. He looked down and looked guilty.

"You slept over, isn't it?"

Sungmin just looked away and didn't answer. He knows Hyukjae knows it is a yes. He heard a heavy sigh. "You know what, maybe you
should always put extra clothes in your bag just in case." he shook his head. "This is not the first time, you know." He's not referring
to the sleep over. He's referring to Sungmin wearing the same clothes twice.

"Sorry..." Sungmin said under his nose and just looked down.

"I'm betting he's in the hospital again."

"You know he always is."

Hyukjae turned away, secretly rolled his eyes and shook his head. He took a couple of music sheet and passed it to him. He his dried lips before speaking. "I'll let you pass today but please...if you'll stay over to his place, at least change your clothes before going to work."

Sungmin nodded and took the music sheets. He eyed on Hyukjae who has already loosen his sterness. "I was browsing through our works
during college and I think this one is good." he pointed to the people inside the other room. "I'm having an audition on who should
sing this."

Sungmin looked through the music sheets. "Oh, I remember this." he said as he read through. "You should ask Jungmo to play this for
us." Ah...memories. It's still so fresh in his mind.


----------------POV 4 YEARS AGO------------------


"Hyukkie, let's work on this!" Sungmin said excitedly as he pulled Hyukjae to sit beside him. A year has passed by with so many things
happening to all of them.  Hyukkie still not finding anyone to date. He rejected a guy named Siwon and even a girl named Hyoyeon. Everyone doesn't
know who he really likes...and it's not like Hyukjae is willing to tell anyway. Kyuhyun has been doing well since his father's death, it's just that, he is still
waiting for the lawyers to read the last will and testament and checking on the debts of his father's company. It was almost back to normal with
The Rookies, only... Kyuhyun is out with Ryeowook today and Sungmin decided not to go out with Youngwoon. He called Hyukjae on the phone and asked him to come to the practice room.

"What's that?" the other asked. His hands inside his pocket.

"I have this melody and I want words in it. Can you help me?"

Hyukjae thought for a while and pouted a little. "Sure. What's that all about?"

Sungmin looked at him meaningfully. "Confession."

Confession. An act of saying what is inside your mind. An act of extending what you feel towards another person. Hyukjae swallowed.
It is as simple as saying Sungmin ah, I like you. He has always have it in his mind. But never did he feel any courageous to say it
to Sungmin's face. He's even envious with Ryeowook that he was able to say it to Kyuhyun face to face... but... at his point of view,
Ryeowook and Kyuhyun is no fun to watch, they maybe lovers now but...they're not as exciting as whenever Kyung and Ming are together.
It's like watching a fail fluff chicflick.

He found himself listening to Sungmin's guitar play of the melody they want to work on. He nods his head as he listened to it. He eyes
on Sungmin while at it. Sungmin is just so good looking with his pouting whenever he is making love with his instrument. Yup, Hyukjae
considers Sungmin playing any instrument as making love session. Look at how he stays in his own bubble while playing with the guitar.
Just look at the way he looks at the music sheets, his eyes focused and his mouth pouted, his head moving side to side, his fingers
as if they have their own life. It is as if he is so in love with it. He's just so engross to it. He loves looking at
Sungmin like this.

Never mind not being his boyfriend. He's quite sure even Youngwoon hasn't seen Sungmin like this. He likes his place now. He can
watch Sungmin quietly. He can love him quietly. He can be by his side quietly.

[I keep waiting, I keep calling]
[Why isn't there any answer?]
[I said I'd give everything]
[But it's not enough for you]

Sungmin smiled when Hyukjae sang in some words. Wow, Hyukjae is really good in song writing. It's no wonder why they immediately
clicked. Sungmin can create melody easily and Hyukjae can put in words in it easily. This is one of the reasons why he likes being
friends with Hyukkie. Of course Kyuhyun and Ryeowook contributes too but they need longer brainstorming and Kyuhyun is always lazy
to even care.

"That's a good start." Sungmin said. He wrote in the words and tried singing it on his own. He smiled widely again and looked at his
dear friend. "You know what, we should always be partners, Hyukkie. You really have a great mind." he chuckled. "If we work together, we can make a good
pair!"

Partners? Yes, why not. Break up with Youngwoon and be with me then. We can make a good pair. Hyukjae just chuckled and shook
his head. He'll keep his thoughts in mind. Sungmin is precious and his sensitivity is a little on and off. Sometimes he just care too
much over little things particularly Kyung things. But sometimes...no, most of the times he's quite insensitive to other's feelings.
Just like now... he doesn't even know Hyukjae actually skipped classes just to accompany him. He doesn't even know Hyukjae looks at
him differently. Sometimes, he doesn't even know the song is already about him.

[Your phone calls that I waited to answer all stop]
[Even your heart that would make my heart race stop]
[Even the clock, and time itself, patiently wait for you]

"Hyukkie ah... are you liking someone now?" Sungmin asked out of the blue freezing Hyukjae from thinking deeply. Maybe Sungmin isn't
insensitive at all. Does he feel Hyukjae's feelings for him? He's quite sure those words for the songs they've been writing together
is describing Sungmin. Is he busted?

"W-why are you asking?"

Sungmin read through the stanzas they've written. "You're words are really good. I can see you're already referring this to someone." Hyukjae
crossed his eyebrows shortly and thought. His face is warm as if he has been in a hot seat. Why? What was written in the lyrics that
they are working at? He's not that obvious, isn't he? He tried to sing it in his mind.

[My eyes, my eyes only look at you]
[My heart, my heart is already filled with you]
[Accept it, my heart is impatiently waiting, baby.]
[A boy whose eyes are only set on you]
[A boy whose heart has stolen her heart]
[Oh please, enough with tiring me out]

Is it too obvious? He make sure it sounds like for a girl even if it is not. Sungmin write some words of his own and smiled again.
"You know what, whoever it is that you're confessing to, I'm sure that person can't reject you. I mean... just look at this." Sungmin
said referring to their music sheets. "It's very sweet and sincere." he eyed on his friend excitedly.
"Hyukkie ah, who's the lucky person? Maybe I can help you."

"No. Don't even think about it." Hyukjae said as he turned his back and sat on the couch at the corner of the practice room. Sungmin
pouted and rolled his eyes. He didn't know Hyukjae is not that confident in confessing to the person he likes. He can be quite sissy.

Sungmin decided to walk around to tease his friend a bit. Being too sissy deserves being teased. He pretended to get his phone and
make a call. "Kyung?" he said as he looked at Hyukjae. "Do you happen to know who Hyukkie is crushing on-" Hyukjae immediately grabbed
his phone away and checked on it. . He fell for it. He turned to Sungmin who was sticking his tongue out obviously laughing at
him because he's gullible.

Hyukjae just watched him under his pretentious angry glare. He doesn't even tell those to Kyuhyun. If Sungmin happened to really call
his bestfriend, he knows he'll be doomed and might not be able to hide it anymore. He doesn't have the courage to confess. He doesn't
have the courage to lose Sungmin if he ever gets rejected so he won't say it. Not to Ming and not even to Kyung. He smirked at
Sungmin and took the music sheet and his pencil. No wait, maybe he can say it to Sungmin. He wrote some words and passed it to the other.

Sungmin pouted and read the words written. Hyukjae watched him as he reads and sings it mentally. And since Sungmin is insensitive,
Hyukjae is quite sure his confession is just a simple song without any meaning. His message is just in front of Sungmin. But he
bets the other doesn't even know.

[Baby, baby, you've found out about my feelings]
[I love you, love you, you've already stolen my heart]
[I'll embrace you in my arms, forever, oh.]
[Baby, baby, I'm your boy who has the world]
[I'm your boy who'll protect you forever.]
[Only one, I will look only at you]

"This is great Hyukkie ah!" Sungmin said with a smile. "You know what, you should confess to this person already. This person is
stupid if he'll ever reject you."


-----------------END OF POV------------------

"I'm planning of rearranging the song. It will still be the same but a little more polished." Hyukjae explained to Sungmin. The latter
is just nodding. "You should call Jungmo for this. I know you have a little crush on him. His guitar powers is brilliant, he'll do good in this." Hyukjae teased.

Sungmin glared at him before rolling his eyes. "Excuse me, you know that I'm just so good looking that that boy is crazy over me. I'm not crushing on
him...it's the other way around. Ask someone to call him and just use my name."

Hyukjae smiled with his gums out. Sungmin is still Sungmin when it comes to his confidence about his looks. He could just shake his
head as he sees Sungmin chuckling and talking to the person close to them instructing him to call Jungmo and say that Sungmin is
looking for him.

They've been working together after they graduated. Hyukjae introduced Sungmin to a family friend who has as small recording
company; both of them working as composers and lyricist. The pay is quite good for a small company. The songs they've written were
quite good although, the company may need to spend more money for promotion to skyrocket the whole team.

"Since we worked on this together, I should ask your opinion as well. Do you have any singers in mind?" Hyukjae asked. Sungmin
looked at him and opened his mouth, he is ready to mention the name that instantly popped in his mind but... "Don't even think of
saying Kyuhyun's name because the answer is no." Hyukjae's voice is quite stern although his face is straight. He can just guest it
because the light in Sungmin's eyes shine instantly.

Sungmin sighed. "You know very well that he can pull this song."

"Yeah, but he doesn't work in our company... and that's my bad." Hyukjae said as he busied himself with some other stuffs. They were
both listening to another person singing the song but both just shook their heads and talk instead. Nope, nobody can sing this song
well.

Sungmin turned his back and checked on his phone. Kyuhyun didn't leave any message or anything for the rest of the day. How many
more lousy people are going to ruin their song? He sighed. No, he can't last any more minute being bored like this.

"Since you don't want my answer, why don't you assign the singer on your own." Yeah, there's no reason for Hyukjae to ask him
anymore since there is only Kyuhyun who can sing every songs he or they write in his mind. And he doesn't have any patience to listen
to this people who call themselves singer when they can't even pull a simple song like this. He looked down. If it wasn't for what
happened, he's quite sure Kyuhyun is working together with them. They don't need to audition others... Kyuhyun can do all the
singing for them. Just like when they were still in The Rookies.

Sungmin stood up and packed his things. The best part of working in this company is walking in and out without ado as long as you clean
your own and do what you're supposed to do. He checked the clock. Coffee break.

"What? Yah! I have 5 more people for audition." Hyukjae exclaimed. "We'll be reaching deadlines again. Can you try saving my for
a while!" Sungmin turned to him and smiled.

"If not, why don't you sing it." He winked at his friend, took his bag and left the place.

"What? Yah, Lee Sungmin! Where are you going?!" Hyukjae asked as he tried to walk after his friend.

Sungmin went out giggling but his smile slowly disappeared. Kyuhyun didn't leave any message for the whole day. How is he? Is he
still there? In that place? He looked down and sigh.

He hopes to end this agony.

Afterall... it's been three years...

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Kyuhyun turned to the doctor who is reading through the papers in the clipboard that was passed to her. "It's still the same Kyuhyun.
He has recovered his head injury. His vital signs are good."

Kyuhyun nodded and turned to the patient in bed.

"When is he going to wake up?" he asked in a low voice. He knows he has asked that question for more than a dozen times for the past
three years but the answer is still the same. He'll wake up when he is ready.

"He'll wake up when he's ready."

When will that be? When will he be ready to wake up? Kyuhyun extended his arm to reach for the patient's hand. It's been three years
since he lied on this bed...

"Ryeowook ah... when will you wake up?"

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

*Author's note: right now, I'm assuming you already
have an idea why I have such title? This is probably
one of my favourite chapters. The answers are slowly
coming out so please stay where you are. :D

I still like Hyukjae. He's adorable and all...although...
Hyukjae being a kyungming shipper is definitely a
_______________ thought >P

PS: Song is called: Oh! My Goddess
Performed by; TRAX
I'm so in to this song. I like it a lot and has been in
the loop for a week now.
Credits to the translator in youtube~!

 

Have a good night~!^^

 

 

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krychoi
#1
Chapter 37: I can't believe this fell off my radar and never read it until now. Ang galing!!!! Thank you for this fic. I felt every out pour of emotions and the songs you used...ugh! the feels i have for this fic!
maefrancekim26 #2
wow! now this is my fave kyumin fic! hyukkie iloveyouuu
galatea69 #3
I Miss your works... :)
bubu137 #4
Chapter 37: just one word for this story LEE HYUKJAE SARANGHAEEEEEEE <333
imabaozigirl #5
Chapter 37: PAINFUL. BEAUTIFUL. HYUKJAE. THIS IS JUST
franyragon #6
Chapter 37: Authornim!! OMG.. It seems that a lot of years since the last time I'd read one of yours stories, I'm a big fan of your fics and I have read them almost all, you are one of my favorite writers in the fandom and shipping world... I remember that I was reading this fic and you left it in stand by in the 20st chapter more or less and I decided to wait until you finish it for me to reading it to the end... well it seems that a lot of time went by and here we are... I came back and finished to read the story. Your talent is really unique and unrepeateble and you write angst and drama like no other I met before, your fics hit me hard in the heart and I fell in love with the boys every time :D you made me really happy and now two years later it just seems the same.. Now that the fandom does not probide of too much fics like it did before and the guys are going to the army like minnie I just want to read a lot of fics about them to wait patiently for them to comeback. I read in your last comment in this fic that you want to write real novels, and that makes me really happy!! You are awesome and you don't have to forget to tell us when your novel is ready because I'm totaly going to read it!!

Sorry for the long comment, I just have all of this feelings stuck in my heart and just have to writing it, thank you so much for writing this amasing stories authornim, and have a great life :)
<3 <3 <3
EXOholic-itine #7
Chapter 37: Oh I forgot to mentioned that this fic is one of the main reasons why I decided to held myself from reading mdl.. This is also one of my favorite fic on your stories.. I hope to hear from you soon.. Please come back as soon as you can..
shcjelfcassie
#8
Chapter 37: lee hyukjae T.T you're an angel without wings. ♥lemme mend that heart yours
baby_catlovers #9
Chapter 37: Love, love, loveeee this story!! You're right, Hyukkie's character is the most desperate-yet-lovable in this story, it's not hard to pity and respect him at the same time.. I'm glad that you choose Kyung to let Ming go to the tour instead of stopping him, indeed you need to let go to gain bigger..

Ahhhh, seriously love this, now I finished this and you don't write my lovely Kyumin anymore, what to dooooo *sobs*
matsumiya17
#10
Chapter 37: One of my favorite kyumin fic! Gosh i really love all of your stories!! :W;