FO

As He Sleeps


It is set then. Kyuhyun and Sungmin will be living under the same roof. Moving in happened smoothly during weekends with both of them
transferring things from their own places. It was fun moving from one place to another. He sorted the things that he can leave and the
things that he would want to bring. They didn't bring that much; just some clothes and chinawares and some important things such as his
collection of picks and the piano keyboard for his living. He also brought some (not all) pictures of Jung Yunho for fanboying reasons.

Sungmin locked the door to his house with Hyukjae behind him. The other is carrying a small box full of music sheets and a guitar case.
"Thanks for this, Hyukkie. You should be resting right now since it's weekend but you come by to help. I'm really touched by this." he said
with a smile. He's quite sincere with what he said because moving in can me faster if they have extra hand. He got the other box with some
on his shoes and stuffs.

Hyukjae shook his head and chuckled. "I'm just so bored staying at home so I volunteered
to help you. Besides, I don't want you to miss me that much." he's gums showing as he smiled cheekily. He wants to see how and where Sungmin
will be staying from now on, and yes he is quite curious to know how well Sungmin and Kyuhyun will be in their new place.

"Whatever." Sungmin rolled his eyes. "I know that you're still charmed by me so quit pretending."

Yeah right. Hyukjae chuckled and smirked at him. "Lee Sungmin, wake up and check the mirror. You're tummy has grown bigger like
pregnant women's, do you really think that's charming?"

Sungmin checked on his tummy. Did he really get bigger? . There's a little glimpse of his tummy from that angle! "Oh ... Oh
..." he panicked. Hyukjae shook his head and turned away. Sungmin turned to him. "Yah... Hyukjae ah!! I did gain weight. !" he
put his box down and check on it more. He stretched his shirt behind and looked at his tummy. ! it's for real, he does gain weight!
There is a small belly when he look from that angle.

Crazy, little, paranoid! Hyukjae is just kidding. Sungmin doesn't gain that much weight. Well he does because of the sugar he's been
taking in but he's still the same cuddly person. Besides, he doesn't complain about how the other looks, he has more to complain like
him being stupid and clumsy and... a more things that has nothing to do with his weight.

"Hyukjae ah, what should I do?!" Sungmin asked as he concentrated more on his tummy. He looked at his sides and pouted. He turned to
Hyukjae with his worried face. Of course gaining weight is an issue, it's hard for him to be fit because eating is the next best thing
to do, the first thing is being with Kyuhyun.

"Easy." Hyukjae said with a smirk. "Stop working your charm on me." Hyukjae said and turned his back.

"What?! Yah!" Sungmin carried his box and followed the other, he used his shoulder to bump on Hyukjae playfully before rolling his
eyes and smiling.

 

----------POV 3 YEARS AGO-------------


"I like Sungmin."

Hyukjae told Kyuhyun when the other passed his withdrawal form to school. He knew Kyuhyun would still come to school because Sungmin needs
to review for his exam and cannot ran errands for his best friend. He needs to talk to Kyuhyun to tell him to stop relying on Sungmin for strength and
stand on his own. He was rejected by Sungmin. Yes, he was. But that doesn't mean he'll
stop loving Sungmin. He knows the other loves Kyuhyun, but this is the action he needs to do to save him from the pain. He isn't asking
for Kyuhyun's permission. He's informing the other. Since he's been so crazy watching over Ryeowook, Hyukjae knows he should take
care of the other's bestfriend. He's not asking anything in return but if it can lead to something good... he cannot ask for more.
Kyuhyun can take care of Ryeowook for all the damn in the world. He'll take care of Sungmin.

Kyuhyun looked at him. His face is straight and didn't show any reaction. Hyukjae likes Sungmin. Of course he does. He knows it since
the other first met Sungmin. He knew it when Hyukjae was dumbfounded upon seeing Sungmin in the classroom running towards them. He
knew it since the time they both write Oh! My Goddess saying this is Hyukjae's confession. He knew it for a long time ago. But things
are different between him and Sungmin now. Hyukjae can't be with Sungmin. No, he won't allow the other.

"Why are you saying this to me?" Kyuhyun asked. His face not giving any hint of the thoughts in his brain.

"I'm just informing you." Hyukjae placed his hands in his pocket cooly. Kyuhyun doesn't seem to give a about it. Just like how
he would always do. He doesn't give a about anything. "You're the only family he has. Of course you deserve to know."

Family? You don't sleep with any of your own family members. What did they do the other night? It's not any family members would do
except of course for a mother and father. Does Hyukjae really think he treats Sungmin like a family? Does he even know Sungmin doesn't
see Kyuhyun as a family? They didn't treat each other like a family the other night and he knows what happened for the first time the other
night won't be the last.

"I had Sungmin the other night." he said. His face still with the same blankness.

"What?" Hyukjae asked. His eyebrows crossed. His heart raced. He remembered what Sungmin told him. I can still kill this. Sungmin's
expression; his pain is just so visible on his face. How could Kyuhyun talk about Sungmin this way? Is this how he should treat his
best friend after taking care of him? He really is a jerk.

Kyuhyun wanted to laugh at Hyukjae's expression but he's not the type who laughs randomly anymore. He's serious about this.
"He didn't complain."

Hyukjae's breathing became heavy. His palm closed to fist itching to throw a punch. Kyuhyun had Sungmin the other night. What does
that mean? Something happened to them and Sungmin didn't complain. He gave in to Kyuhyun? He said he'll kill it. He recalled what
Sungmin told him. His eyes glared shortly as he recalled Sungmin voice. He's hopeful that Ryeowook will wake up and end all these
myseries.

Isn't it better if he just wake up now. I can see my bestfriend again.

Bestfriend? You shared a night with your bestfriend? Are you even considered bestfriends if it's like this? Hyukjae broke the facade of oblivion
and Sungmin admitted his real feelings for his bestfriend, but he's willing to ignore it but what was that last night? He gave in to Kyuhyun. What about Ryeowook? Have they ever thought about Ryeowook? How could they do it with the poor guy
in their heads? No, something must be wrong. He eyed on the man in front of him.

Kyuhyun stood calmly. How could he do this? Sungmin is really be in love with him and look at how his eyes doesn't even show any
feelings about it. He slept with Sungmin. It's not even any real man should brag about but he did so. And for what reason? Hyukjae
clenched his jaws first before clearing his mind up.

"What about Ryeowook?"

Finally, a slight reaction from the other. Kyuhyun crossed his eyebrows shortly and returned to his expressionless face. What will he
do with Ryeowook? But he's asleep right now. Would he even bother to open his eyes so that Kyuhyun and Sungmin would stop this? Would
Sungmin even stop loving him if it ever happens? He met Hyukjae's eyes.

"I will have to choose from them-"

The next thing Kyuhyun knows is that he is already on the floor. His jaw is in pain and Hyukjae's knuckles are red. Hyukjae punched
him in the face very hard that he fell on the floor. Hyukjae has been itching to do that since a while ago. Thanks to those words he
was able to do it. He will choose between Sungmin and Ryeowook? Is that even fair?

"How could you treat Sungmin like that afterall he has done to you?" Hyukjae said as he looked down on Kyuhyun. "Selfish
bastard."

Choosing between Ryeowook and Sungmin? Why can't he just say who he will choose now? Why can't he settle to just one? He'll be
using Sungmin just because Ryeowook is asleep. Damn bastard! And what if Ryeowook wakes up today? His clenched his palm to fist and
felt the sting on his knuckles. Sungmin is falling for the wrong person. Bestfriends? Did Kyuhyun even treat him like a real friend? No normal
person would treat any friend like this. He hates Kyuhyun. He hates how Kyuhyun is treating Sungmin now. He's like a parasite relying on any
thing just to live.

He turned and started to walk away. He doesn't want to be friends with Kyuhyun anymore. Not because Sungmin choose to love him...but
because he can already see the person he loves will be investing tears for Kyuhyun. He's not even worth a single drop of it.

He closed his eyes tightly and placed his palm on his forehead. I'll have to choose from them. He recalled what Kyuhyun said. He shook
his head. What will Sungmin say if he knows of this? Or...is it even possible that he knows about this? Is Sungmin fine to be abandonbed
once Ryeowook wakes up? Kyuhyun will choose between them? How could he be so lucky to have both? No, he won't have both... he will have
to choose. Of course the choice is obvious, it'll be Ryeowook for sure. Hyukjae clenched his jaws again. He cursed under his nose and
closed his eyes tightly. He's bad and he deserves a punishment for praying such bad thing but he doesn't care, he'll leave his punishment in the
hands of fate.

Ryeowook ah, don't wake up yet.

---------------------END OF POV---------------------------

Sungmin and Hyukjae are laughing as they both reached the corner of the small apartment. They were talking about the singers in their
company.

"Jonghyun really thinks he's good looking..." Sungmin said as he laughs. He's carrying the box with both his hands as the lift opens.
He slightly laugh with his high pitched voice and shook his head. "I can't believe such person will have that much confidence with
his looks."

"He looks like a dinosaur roaring whenever he sings the high notes." Hyukjae said as he walked after Sungmin. He's  carrying the guitar case
on his back and the box of music sheets in his hand. He looked around the building where the apartment is. The environment is not
that bad, it looks decent and simple; just like Sungmin. This is Sungmin's taste.

"Nailed. He just scares me sometimes." Sungmin shook his head as he turned the knob of the 4th house. "Oop!" he exclaimed when he
almost bumped into Kyuhyun who opened the door at the same time. Both were surprised that they almost bumped each other.

Sungmin smiled widely upon seeing him. It's a good chance to see Kyuhyun have a small chat with Hyukjae. Maybe this can end their
silent war. They haven't been talking to each other for years and good friends should just drop the issue from a long time ago if not
resolve to fist fight.

"I'm going out for a while." Kyuhyun said gently, looking only to him as if he didn't see Hyukjae behind. He has no intention to look
at Hyukjae at all. He's not interested in seeing the other much more spending some time to chat with him.

"Oh~ have you finished moving your things?" Sungmin asked. Kyuhyun helped him took his box in and moved backwards so both men can
come in. That was the only courtesy he can offer to Hyukjae.

"I only have my computers left. I'll leave it there for the meantime since I have my laptop here." Sungmin nodded when Kyuhyun
turned to the small table and showed the laptop. "I'm going to the hospital for a while."

"Oh~" Sungmin nodded his head. "Will you be here for dinner?"

"Maybe not. I have some stuffs that I want to throw in the other house."

Sungmin nodded again. "Then I'll just sleep in my place tonight."

"Oh."

Hyukjae, the third person, put down the box and listened to them. This is Kyuhyun and Sungmin, 3 years after the incident, they are
still in their own bubble but it seems like the bubble has grown bigger. He can see a transparent space in between the two. They are
not the innocent best friends from the past. Of course not anymore. Sungmin talks with heart. Kyuhyun talks matter of factly. He's
going to Ryeowook and won't eat dinner with him. Sungmin understands. Where does he stand in Kyuhyun's life? They are moving
in together... He said they are moving on. But... are they really?

They are moving on but they are still tagging Ryeowook along. What happened to being in Kyuhyun and Sungmin's bubble? It's like they live in a
bubble with Ryeowook surrounding it. Hyukjae looks down. He's lucky not to be involved. He's in his own bubble without Sungmin
inside...there's only an image of him with his laughter and secrets and issues and pain. But Sungmin is not inside his bubble. He'll
never get hurt. No. He is unlucky and of course he gets hurt. It's just that no one really bothers to know. He cares for Sungmin like how Kyuhyun cares
for Ryeowook...but at the end of the day...nobody cares for him. He crossed his eyebrows shortly, no this is not his story,
he shouldn't focus on himself.

Kyuhyun walked pass Hyukjae, completely ignoring his presence. There's no acknowledgement, no thanks for helping Sungmin, no nothing.
Hyukjae doesn't really care about Kyuhyun now...but watching him casually going to another person and telling Sungmin about it as if
it is a normal thing... he can't stand how they are now.

"I'm going to see Ryeowook tomorrow." he turned and looked at Kyuhyun. Kyuhyun stopped and looked at him. Eyes both saying nothing.
"I'm just telling you because I don't want to see you there when I dropby."

Kyuhyun just look at him. Does Hyukjae really thinks he'll lose a tongue battle? "That's good. Sungmin can be with me the whole day tomorrow."

Selfish rotten bastard. "Sungmin has a lot of deadlines. He needs to be in tomorrow."

Kyuhyun nodded. "I'll see you in the hospital tomorrow."

He turned his back and started walking away. He didn't bother spending a time to look at Sungmin before leaving. He knows the other is aware of
their situations. Hyukjae can't stand seeing Kyuhyun and Kyuhyun can't stand seeing Hyukjae. It's just fair that they don't treat each other nicely. Hyukjae clenched his jaw hardly. Selfish bastard. Can't he stand on his own? Can't he stand being alone? Is it always either or for him. Either he sees Ryeowook or Sungmin. Cho Kyuhyun you selfish bastard. He clenched his jaw and sighed deeply.

"Why will you see Ryeowook tomorrow?" Sungmin asked. Hyukjae looked at him. Sungmin, is it really ok that Kyuhyun walks away in
front of you to go to Ryeowook? Don't you mind it at all?
All questions were kept in his mind. Why can't Sungmin show a little care about
this? Has he accepted the fact that he's just a substitute?

"Why not? He's my friend afterall." Hyukjae said. "I think it's time for you to see him as well."

Sungmin looked down. From the time he started this kind of relationship with Kyuhyun, he didn't come to the hospital anymore. And for what?
To be guilty about seeing Ryeowook lying lifelessly on the hospital bed while he's enjoying Kyuhyun's company? No, he won't do that. He'll
just thank heavens, if there's such thing, that Ryeowook let him spend another day with Kyuhyun He turned away and started unpacking his stuffs.

Hyukjae placed the guitar down and turned to the direction Kyuhyun had before leaving.

 

 

 

Selfish bastard.

 

 

 

 

*Author's note: hey guys! I hope you're not disappointed
for their break-up reason. I've been telling you that I like Hyukjae,
and I know some of you are wondering why I make him suffer
if I like him. Well, let's just say that's the reason why I like him hihihi!!
I didn't say I will treat him nice because I like him. But you'll see more of him.

Anyways, I'll update midweek 
because I'm going to make the most out of my
long weekend hehehe^^ Happy Lunar New Year to everyone~!!

Offtopic: Anyone had seen Maundy Thursday? gosh, that movie
made me shed a bucket of tears last night! My friend was shock to
see me crying in front of my laptop and when I told her the story,
she was laughing at me because I can't stop crying while telling
her about it. I felt better after watching it. Some emotions are just so
locked up because I'm so busy with work and there's just no outlet for me.

Have a good weekend everyone~!!

 

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krychoi
#1
Chapter 37: I can't believe this fell off my radar and never read it until now. Ang galing!!!! Thank you for this fic. I felt every out pour of emotions and the songs you used...ugh! the feels i have for this fic!
maefrancekim26 #2
wow! now this is my fave kyumin fic! hyukkie iloveyouuu
galatea69 #3
I Miss your works... :)
bubu137 #4
Chapter 37: just one word for this story LEE HYUKJAE SARANGHAEEEEEEE <333
imabaozigirl #5
Chapter 37: PAINFUL. BEAUTIFUL. HYUKJAE. THIS IS JUST
franyragon #6
Chapter 37: Authornim!! OMG.. It seems that a lot of years since the last time I'd read one of yours stories, I'm a big fan of your fics and I have read them almost all, you are one of my favorite writers in the fandom and shipping world... I remember that I was reading this fic and you left it in stand by in the 20st chapter more or less and I decided to wait until you finish it for me to reading it to the end... well it seems that a lot of time went by and here we are... I came back and finished to read the story. Your talent is really unique and unrepeateble and you write angst and drama like no other I met before, your fics hit me hard in the heart and I fell in love with the boys every time :D you made me really happy and now two years later it just seems the same.. Now that the fandom does not probide of too much fics like it did before and the guys are going to the army like minnie I just want to read a lot of fics about them to wait patiently for them to comeback. I read in your last comment in this fic that you want to write real novels, and that makes me really happy!! You are awesome and you don't have to forget to tell us when your novel is ready because I'm totaly going to read it!!

Sorry for the long comment, I just have all of this feelings stuck in my heart and just have to writing it, thank you so much for writing this amasing stories authornim, and have a great life :)
<3 <3 <3
EXOholic-itine #7
Chapter 37: Oh I forgot to mentioned that this fic is one of the main reasons why I decided to held myself from reading mdl.. This is also one of my favorite fic on your stories.. I hope to hear from you soon.. Please come back as soon as you can..
shcjelfcassie
#8
Chapter 37: lee hyukjae T.T you're an angel without wings. ♥lemme mend that heart yours
baby_catlovers #9
Chapter 37: Love, love, loveeee this story!! You're right, Hyukkie's character is the most desperate-yet-lovable in this story, it's not hard to pity and respect him at the same time.. I'm glad that you choose Kyung to let Ming go to the tour instead of stopping him, indeed you need to let go to gain bigger..

Ahhhh, seriously love this, now I finished this and you don't write my lovely Kyumin anymore, what to dooooo *sobs*
matsumiya17
#10
Chapter 37: One of my favorite kyumin fic! Gosh i really love all of your stories!! :W;