"Min..."

A low voice made Sungmin shut his eyes harder but he refuse to open it. He sighed and went back to his now not so deep sleep.

"Min..."

The familiar low voice made Sungmin's eyebrows creased, he shut his eyes harder again before slowly opening it. Kyuhyun's face is what
welcome his opened eyes. The man leaning in front of him. What is Kyuhyun doing here? Their eyes talked but what about? There is only
wondering on Sungmin's eyes and there is only a slight shine in Kyuhyun's. It's always like this. Sungmin being the one who looks at him with
love, and Kyuhyun always looking at him like everything is fine. Sungmin turned to the lower corner side of the bed. There stood Hyukjae,
arms crossed and is leaning against the slide glass door. He looked down.

I'm coming with you. Was the last thing he remembered saying before he find himself on the bed and deeply asleep. Right, he didn't say
anything after that. He just wept on his best friend's shoulder until he finally falls asleep. How he calmed down and walked towards the
bed, if he walked towards the bed, he didn't know.

"Let's go home." Kyuhyun said to break his thoughts.

Home? Is there still a home for them? Is that place still considered a home? He saw Kyuhyun kissing Ryeowook. What can he think about
inside their so-called home? Kyuhyun and him making love in that sinful bed and then what? Once Kyuhyun is out he'll be in Ryeowook's arms.
Should that place be called home still? He turned to Hyukjae, why is Kyuhyun here?

-------------POV 2 Hours ago-----------------------

Hyukjae carried Sungmin as he completely fall asleep in the floor. His friend is wasted and wrecked tonight. Sungmin settled on the bed and
hooked one of his legs around a pillow beside him. He looks peaceful now. Hyukjae knelt beside his best friend.

"What else can I do for you, Lee Sungmin?" unknowingly, his tears fell down as he turned away. Hyukjae sighed and stood up as he wiped his
face up and brushed his hair. He turned to Sungmin once again. "Shall I hold on to what you said? Or will I treat this as a drunk talk?"

He closed his eyes hard and shook his head. What are you thinking about, Lee Hyukjae? Do you really think Sungmin will go to you once he
opens his eyes? He's so in love with Kyuhyun that going to you is the last resort he has and yet you're willing to hang on to that? You know
better than that.

Hyukjae took his phone and dialled the number he has never tried calling for 5 years.

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Kyuhyun was surprised to see Hyukjae's number appearing in the screen. What does Hyukjae want? Why is he calling him? He checked the time.
2am. This should have something to do with Sungmin. He's being worried with the fact that Sungmin hasn't called him and not informing him
his whereabouts.

He pressed the answer button but didn't answer immediately. "Can you..." he heard Hyukjae from the other line saying. "Can you come over
to this address?" Kyuhyun didn't say anything but he wrote down the address that Hyukjae stated.

"Sungmin is here. He's quite drunk and asleep... I can't drive him back."

"Is he alright?" Kyuhyun asked.

"I don't think so..."

That made Kyuhyun's eyebrows creased a bit. He sighed deeply and his lips shortly. "I'm on my way."

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Hyukjae hung the phone and sat beside the sleeping Sungmin. He let his index and his thumb slide on the other's cheek and let the back of
his fingers wonder around there for a while. "He's on the way."

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Kyuhyun took his hand and stand up to help him but Sungmin took away his hands and sat up on his own. He walked towards Hyukjae and looked
at him in the eyes. Hyukjae smiled at him. "I'll see you at the office, Sungmin."

"Why did you call him?" Sungmin asked sternly.

Hyukjae smiled at him. "You need to go home."

"My decision will not change Hyukjae..."

Hyukjae looked at Kyuhyun for a while and nodded as he turned to Sungmin. "I got it."

Sungmin turned his back and started walking. Kyuhyun was about to take his hand to walk together but the other walked pass him leaving him
behind. Kyuhyun turned to Hyukjae shortly, the latter nodded at him. A deep sighed before following him outside of the room. He shook his
head when Sungmin walked too quickly he didn't even waited for Kyuhyun to ride the elevator.

Kyuhyun found Sungmin hailing for a taxi. He immediately run and stopped the door before Sungmin could even close it. The latter looked at
him and sighed as he involuntarily moved to the side. Kyuhyun smiled a little and went in. The journey home was half an hour and the time
run slowly even if there is no traffic at midnight. Sungmin's head is tilted to the opposite side while Kyuhyun looked at him now and then.

Kyuhyun moved closer to Sungmin and held his hand making the other looked at the other's clasped hand attached to his. Sungmin's nose felt
a weird sensation, a sensation as if indicating his tears will trickle down soon. He ignored it and turned back to leaning against the
window. Kyuhyun transferred the hand that he is holding on his lap and let his thumb soothe it up and down. Sungmin creased his eyebrows
and felt like crying instantly. He closed his eyes and breathe heavily to control his tears. He took away his hand and tucked it in between
his other arm and waist. Kyuhyun watched him and slowly looked down. He looked in front and guided the taxi driver.

"Pull over at the corner."

The driver did as he was told. Sungmin opened the door of the cab and immediately walked out while Kyuhyun pay for it. The latter immediately
ran out after getting his change.

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Sungmin was about to shut the door but Kyuhyun was able to stop it before it even hit his face. "Min..." he called.
Sungmin stopped immediately and stand right where he is. Kyuhyun stood behind him and raised his hand to touch him on the shoulder but...

"Don't touch me." Sungmin said. He turned to Kyuhyun and smiled bitterly. His eyes red with tears warning to be freed. "Aren't you going
to ask what I'm doing there?"

Kyuhyun looked down. That hotel is cramped and Sungmin is fast asleep. Hyukjae's clothes are loosened. He looked at Sungmin in the eyes.
He trusts Hyukjae moreover, he trust Sungmin well.

"No-"

"I let Hyukjae me." Sungmin said. His tears trickled down one by one but his eyes didn't leave Kyuhyun. He has decided on this. He
has decided to just let himself be sank deep into desperation just like when he was in the tub earlier.

Kyuhyun sighed and shook his head. "What are you talking about?" he asked calmly, which hurt Sungmin. He wants to see Kyuhyun agitated,
he wants to see Kyuhyun getting mad at him, he wants Kyuhyun to hate him.
A bitter chuckle. "What am I talking about?" he bit his lower lip shortly. "I am talking about Hyukjae ing me."

Kyuhyun looked at Sungmin. "Sungmin..." he walked closer and was about to hold the other on the shoulders but Sungmin stepped off...

"Don't come near me..." he looked down, as if disgusted with himself. He looked at Kyuhyun sharply. "I let him me the way you do
it." Sungmin smiled bitterly at him. Kyuhyun looked away and ignored the crazy images of Hyukjae and Sungmin being in his mind.

"Stop it."

Sungmin saw the look in Kyuhyun. He knows it'll work well. He'll destroy himself in front of Kyuhyun because he hates the fact that he is still
here with the other, in their so-called home. He hates the fact that he wished to be here for the rest of his life when Kyuhyun had clearly
made his choice.

"I let him release it in me the way you do it."

Kyuhyun crossed his eyebrows and cannot take those words anymore. "Can you stop it now?!" he said raising his voice a bit. Sungmin shut up
and started sobbing. "Why are you saying that to me?!" he asked. "Do you think I will believe it?" Kyuhyun shook his head and looking so
disappointed. "I know you so well, you'll never do such thing!"

"Oh, but I just did." Sungmin said smiling nastily despite the tears in his eyes.

There was silence. Both of their emotions being bottled up and is waiting to pop out. Sungmin looked away as Kyuhyun watched him. Has
Sungmin really become distant to him? It seems like he has gone far before he could even reach his beloved out. What has happened to Sungmin?

Kyuhyun sighed and approached Sungmin again. "What's going on, Min?" Kyuhyun asked calmly. His hands on the other's shoulders. Sungmin's
eyes are closed. He wants to agitate Kyuhyun but the other is calm yet again. "Why are you being like this?"

"Because I hate you!" Sungmin said with his voice raised, he turned and pointed his finger to Kyuhyun's chest. "I can't stop myself from
hating you!"

"Why is that?" Kyuhyun asked, weirded.

"Because I saw you kissing Ryeowook. I hate you for letting me believe that it is me. I hate you for treating me like a fool. I hate you
for everything!" Sungmin's eyes on Kyuhyun, accusing, angry. Kyuhyun soon understood why Sungmin is being like this,
he shook his head.

"You don't even understand anything." he said calmly. Sungmin closed his eyes again. "Sungmin, listen to me-"

"What is not to understand? We don't belong to each other anymore." Sungmin said. His voice is low and his face without anymore expression.

Kyuhyun shook his head slightly. "You're jumping into conclusion. You don't even know what has been happening!"

"What is not to conclude? You kissed Ryeowook. Hyukjae ed me. We're both not into each other anymore." Sungmin said. He saw his eyes
getting big through Kyuhyun's eyes. Hatred is all he sees...not for Kyuhyun but for himself. Tonight, he has destroyed his whole self.
He was drugged, he was almost molested by some bastard, he was so high he wanted to let Hyukjae him. Kyuhyun doesn't deserve him anymore.

Where has his innocence gone to? He's no longer the sweet little foolish boy who is at Kyuhyun's beck and call. He is Sungmin, the dirtiest,
most disgusting bastard of them all. The worst of the worst, he saw Kyuhyun kissing Ryeowook.

"I let him kiss me because of you!" Kyuhyun said, finally raising his voice louder. Sungmin was dumbfounded. "I told him about the
accident." it was something that Kyuhyun is proud of. He didn't expect to tell Ryeowook about it today. And even if Ryeowook clung to him
during that time, he knows things are different between him and Ryeowook now.

Sungmin chuckled sarcastically. "Did you tell him about us?" Kyuhyun looked down. Was he able to tell Ryeowook about it? Was he able to
tell Ryeowook his choice? Another chuckle from Sungmin. "It doesn't matter if you've told him the accident. But what about us?"

Kyuhyun looked at Sungmin and just swallowed. Sungmin closed his eyes out of disappointment and that made Kyuhyun agitated to explain.
"He panicked and hold on to me. I couldn't dare tell him about us. I've told him about the accident and it was already too much for him.
You know I can't hurt him, Sungmin. We can't hurt him! But I choose you, you have to believe that."

"You're lying." Sungmin said calmly and turned his back but Kyuhyun grabbed him to face him again.

"What is there to lie about? I choose you. I will always choose you. From the very start it has always been you." Kyuhyun was surprised that
he actually let himself say those words to Sungmin. It has always been hidden deep in his heart and now he is telling these to his precious.

"No. You never choose me." Sungmin said with a bitter smile. "You just know that I'm always there for you" His tears trickling down once
again. His heartbeat is fast. What has he done? He never heard Kyuhyun saying something like this and he knows that whatever Kyuhyun says
is true. Now Kyuhyun is really upset. But it's too late to back out now.

"That's not true. Do you think I would have moved in here without you? It's always you, Sungmin. What do you want me to do to make you
realise that?!"

"I don't know!" Sungmin cried. "You never tell me anything!" Kyuhyun creased his eyebrows. "I always have to guess what you're thinking
about! I always have to be anxious!"

"I told you to wait because we will be together! We will be together, Sungmin." Kyuhyun said, agitated and now having a hard time to keep
his cool.

Sungmin tapped the table beside him and walked quickly towards the door. However, before he could open it, Kyuhyun held his arm and stopped
him. "Stop running away from me." he said sternly.

"I'm-"

Kyuhyun shook his head and grabbed Sungmin towards him before he could even reason out. A tight embrace to ease both their pains.
"Shh..." Kyuhyun said. "I don't even want to hear a single thing." Sungmin's palms are closed to fist but Kyuhyun held him tighter than
earlier. "You want to know the trutht? Hyukjae told me everything... I know everything. That's why I don't know why you have to say those ugly words to me." Sungmin widened his eyes. "You were drunk, you were drugged..." he looked at Sungmin's lips. "You wanted to go with him for a project...And you kissed Hyukjae. Why did you do that?"

Sungmin's tears fell yet again. "That's because you did the same." he said in a stern and defensive tone.

Kyuhyun nodded and used his thumb to wipe Sungmin's lips. "I'm sorry." he whispered.

Sungmin felt something growing between the two of them. Something that he hasn't been feeling recently. He hated the fact that only Kyuhyun
can do this. Only Kyuhyun can make him feel this need even without drugs or alcohol. Why does it have to be this way? He saw the image of
Kyuhyun and Ryeowook kissing. He looked at the other demandingly. "Erase his taste from your lips." he told Kyuhyun.

Kyuhyun nodded and loosen his hold on Sungmin as his face drew closer to the other, lips aiming to the other's lips...

"Help me."

*Author's note: late update!>.< I'm so sorry guys,
I already have an ending for this... but I don't know how
to put it to words. -.- Don't worry, I will try my best update and
finish this on time.

Anyways, anybody who watched ss5sg? I enjoyed it a lot because
i have a good seat :D Sungmin came close to us for like four times
and Hyukjae took off his shirt in front of us O.O and i literally stood
up just to scream for him... *which doesn't happen that much*
I still love daydream... its one of the highlights... I think ryeowook was
able to polish yesung's part this time and the medley made me want to
sit down and just cry. another highlight for me is ice cream of course, jeez
sungmin made me literally change my uality for a few minutes and back
to being myself again :D i also love the quartet- how am i supposed to leave
without you... its an awesome performance.
Anyone heard about hyukjae's long speech at the end? it's quite saddening
that there are those kinds of fans but yeah... happens.
 

Have a great week everyone!^^