Ryeowook was sitting up on his bed as he watches his brother's performance in Music Bank today. His song has been
winning for 3 straight weeks now. The strong rock feeling and the vibe that his brother gives out from the screen,
even he would want to scream for this kind of performance.

Kyuhyun gave up his dream to take care of you.

Jaejoong was looking sharply at the camera showing his superstar angles and smirks. Ryeowook looked down slowly felt
sleepy. How many times has he seen his brother doing this trick? A little bit of skin, a little bit of smirk, a little
bit of lip bite and hip . It's already quite tiring. Ryeowook sighed and slid himself down. The song is still
playing. His brother loves rock songs so much... but him being labelled as pretty will always be there.

Kyuhyun didn't finish his college. He stopped singing and let go of his dream of becoming a singer.

Ryeowook heard the audience screaming. No, screaming is underrated. The audience is going crazy over his performance.
But he couldn't care anymore. Sleep is taking in. His eyes closed.

He blindedly believed that he owes his life to you because of what happened.

He has deafen his ears from the sound of the television. He has travelled to the sleeping world. A little deep sigh to complete
his journey to his dreams.

Kyuhyun has done a lot for you, Ryeowook. What can you do for him?

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What can I do for him? It's not my fault either.

"Ryeowook ah..."

Voices. There are only voices in his mind. Ryeowook doesn't even know he has started to dream. He is dreaming of the voices
that seemed to be so familiar to him. But when did he hear it?

"I'm so sorry."

That voice. Cho Kyuhyun? The crack voice due to weeping. A sniff and another set of sobs.

"It's all my fault. I should have come early. Please wake up now..."

Wake up? Why does he need to wake up? He got bored from his own brother's performance. He wants to sleep. He needs
to sleep.

"What the hell are you doing here?!I Don't even come close to my brother! You've done enough trouble in him...this is all your fault!!"

Another voice? Whose? It was so loud he couldn't recognise the real voice.

"My brother wouldn't be in this state if not because of you." A sniff in between but not from the one who is speaking.
"I should have known you cannot really take care of him."

"I'm sorry..." another whisper.

"Sorry? Do you think saying sorry can make him get back on his feet?! You don't deserve a space here."

"Please, Jae hyung..." the voice sounding so desperate. "I want to know how Ryeong is. Don't kick me out. I- I'll
take care of him."

"How can you do that when you don't even know how to take care of yourself?"

Hyung? Jae Hyung? Ryeowook is hearing Jaejoong in his dreams too. His brother who was always there to control him. He doesn't want Ryeowook
to do this and that. He doesn't want Ryeowook to date Kyuhyun. He doesn't want Ryeowook to be good friends with this person. His very
controlling brother. What is he pertaining to when he said Kyuhyun doesn't know how to take care of himself? How does Kyuhyun looked like
when he is saying that?

Ryeowook's eyes are still closed and cannot see how badly Kyuhyun looked like. His hair is long, he has grown his
moustache and beard, he stinks. He has neglected himself because he is blaming himself about what happened.

That's right. It's all coming back now. It's funny how human brains can be playful in this kind of situation. Ryeowook, even in the state of coma, can hear them
arguing and talking and arguing yet again. Human brains are so playful that it seems like he is recalling things he heard back when he
was asleep. He is remembering them now that he is asleep. The memory that was stranded from the 3 years of journey is all coming back now.

The voices are gone. Where are they?

"Ryeong..."

A deep sigh from a different voice.

"You've been sleeping for a year now."

Him? Asleep for a year? How did that even happen? He just saw Jaejoong on TV with his recent song. Whose voice is this? Sungmin? No.
Jaejoong? No.

"You've been missing alot my dear friend...?" A deep sigh. Hyukjae. This voice is from Hyukjae. Dear Friend? He was never really that close
with Hyukjae. He's awkward and is always watching Sungmin from a far. He knows Hyukjae likes Sungmin and damn is he stupid not to confess
to their friend? "You know how much I like Sungmin, don't you? I like him so much that I break ties with Kyuhyun. Do you know why? " a
slight chuckle. "Well, just so you know. My dear Sungmin is in love with his bestfriend."

What the hell is Hyukjae talking about? Sungmin is in love with Kyuhyun? How is that even possible? Sungmin helped him to be closer to
Kyuhyun. He's the bridge to Kyuhyun. His closest friend. His best friend. Sungmin was the one who pushed Kyuhyun to date Ryeowook.

Ryeowook's eyes are closed thus he miss the glimpse of bitterness in Hyukjae's eyes. The sadness that twinkled in his eyes and the pout
that almost say I'm trying my best to be cool about this.

"He said when you wake up, that'll be the time when he'll choose between you and Sungmin." Hyukjae placed his hands in his pocket but
Ryeowook wouldn't know it. His eyes are closed and everything is just pitch black. "That's why I am here to visit you."

There was a long silence. What does Hyukjae want to say? And because Ryeowook's eyes are closed, he cannot see how
sharply Hyukjae is staring at the window outside. It's as if he wants to do something bad in it.

"I have a favor to ask you, Kim Ryeowook." a deep sigh. "As a friend, please... for Sungmin's sake. Don't wake up yet."

Don't wake up yet? Of course he won't. He just fall asleep, why would he wake up? He'll wake up later... he wants to sleep for a little bit more.

"Ryeong..."

Hyung? Sungmin hyung. That voice is Sungmin's, Ryeowook cannot deny it. His voice, he is crying too.

"Please wake up now. If not, it'll be hard for you and me. I'm so sorry..." Sungmin's voice is the most heartbreaking one. Weeping to the
point of choking... why is his favorite hyung apologizing to him. Sungmin is crying to the point of losing his breath as if someone has died.
Hyung, what's wrong? He couldn't open his eyes because despite the concern... he still wants to sleep.

"I didn't mean to love Kyuhyun while you're in this state. I'm so sorry for hurting you. Ryeong... please wake up now. I might not be able
to give him up to you if you sleep any longer."

Ryeowook was in deep sleep that he didn't even feel it when Sungmin leaned his head on the other's arm and continuously weep.

"Something happened and I didn't stop myself from giving in to him. I'm so sorry, Ryeowook. I knew I've loved him even before... but you
lying down here has made it stronger. I couldn't bare to see him being like this. He's losing himself and I'm the only one who can take care
of him. I didn't mean to make myself love him more. Wake up now, Ryeowook ah. I might not be able to leave him if this continues. I might not
be able to give him up to you. Please wake up now... I don't want to hurt you, Ryeowook. I don't want to hurt you."

So it's not true that Sungmin hyung is not sorry for it. He just happen to sleep for so long and time didn't have the patience to wait
for him.

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Ryeowook's tears are falling as he fidgets in his sleep. How many series of voices is he going to hear in this sleep?
And why is nobody waking him up? He cannot move, he cannot wake up. He wished to stop this. He wished to wake up.

But the dream continues...

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"Do you want to hear a story?" it was Kyuhyun this time. "There was once a little boy named Kyung. He's playful and smart and annoying and nobody would want him even in school. But he met someone in the orphanage his mother visited before- Ming. He promised not to leave Kyung and
he has fulfilled that promise until they grew up. Kyung was always lost and would always rely on his bestfriend, Ming, in almost every single matter in life."
A pause.

"Ming is Kyung's sunshine, his light in the night. Ming gave his first kiss to Kyung because he is the closest person to him. Because of
it, Kyung was able to taste the sweetest lips ever. He likes the taste of Ming's lips against his. He likes the smiles and the pouts and
the caramel addiction and the noisy fanboy squeals Ming always does. Ming loves Kyung a lot that they are inseperable. Kyung loves him too.
He loves Ming impossibly. But that kiss triggered the impossible. Kyung wants Ming for real, his love became stronger and stronger that
he wanted to stop it... because Ming doesn't like him like that. Ming liked a guy called Racoon, Kyung doesn't like it. But what else can he do?
He cannot just tell Ming to not go for that person. One day, Ming told Kyung to meet him in the rooftop one time." A very deep sigh.

"Is it possible? Did Ming felt the same when they kissed for the first time? Is he going to say that he doesn't love that fat Racoon? Is
Ming going to tell Kyung that they are possible?" A bitter chuckle.

"And then you came with your innocent smile and ruined all the possibilities I had in my mind. It shouldn't have been you, Ryeong. Why
did you come there instead of Sungmin? Do you know how much I hated myself for thinking of all those possibilities? It shouldn't have
been you." Another long silence...

"I'm sorry I can't love you the way I love Sungmin. I can't lose him. He is my only choice. Right from the start it has always been him.
So please wake up now. You need to know that the one I love is Sungmin. Wake up now before I start hating you."

The one he loves is Sungmin. But he stopped his time for Ryeowook. Why is that? He will start to hate Ryeowook if he doesn't wake up? Who
is he kidding? It is stupid for Kyuhyun to say that. He loves Ryeowook. Of course he does. If not, then he won't let go of his dreams for
him. He won't stop singing to take care of him. He loves Sungmin but he loves Ryeowook equally because he is willing to give everything
up for him... that includes his dream. Kyuhyun is stupid for not knowing what love is.

A bitter chuckle. "You know something?" Kyuhyun's voice is still heard. He didn't realise that Kyuhyun has alot of things to say. Isn't he
the quiet one? Why is he talking endlessly now? "I dreamt of meeting you in the convenient store. I made it on time. You were so happy to
see me... but the accident happened to Sungmin. He was shot on the head and died. I woke up drenched in sweat and tears... I cannot
breath. But I was glad that I woke up soon... because if that ever happen to him for real... I might die along with him. Because of that
I was never able to sleep without him beside me. I'm damn scared of losing him."

If that happened to Sungmin, Kyuhyun would want to die with him? And that is the reason why he doesn't want to leave Ryeowook? Kyuhyun is
scared of losing Sungmin. Is this all about karma after all? Is it not even because he is guilty?

"The doctor said you'll wake up when you are ready." he heard Kyuhyun's voice again but it sounded sweet this time. "If you're still waking up
then you better wake up now. I want to move on now, Ryeong. Sungmin and I wants to move in together. We are moving together... and if
you are not waking up anymore then... I'm moving on without you."

Move on without Ryeowook? No, Kyuhyun can't do this to him. He needs to wake up soon.

"We've moved in completely." he heard Kyuhyun, calm and happy. "Hyukjae helped Sungmin last night. He still doesn't want to talk to me.
Wake up soon, Ryeowook ah... while I still have the courage to tell it to your face."

Ryeowook needs to wake up. He needs to wake up soon. He will wake up soon. He has to.

"Sungmin looks happy with them moving together." Hyukjae? Help him wake up! Ryeowook needs to wake up. "I know it's cruel, Ryeong... and
I'm ready to face the consequence..." what is he talking about this time? Hyukjae, wake Ryeowook up. Wake him up! Ryeowook ah, wake up!
wake up!

"Don't wake up anymore..."

No!

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Ryeowook shut his eyes open as he sat up and caught his breath. Is he awake? Is he still dreaming? Is he dead? People wished him to wake
up and not to wake up... he chose to wake up but he has lost everything as if he shouldn't have woken up. Kyuhyun, where is he? He needs
to talk to Kyuhyun.

Tears raced down as he turned to the side. Kyuhyun didn't love him from the very start. Sungmin was caught in between. Hyukjae doesn't
want him to wake up anymore. Ryeowook covered his face with both hands and sobbed. Why didn't he wake up earlier? Why did he choose to sleep
for three ing years?! What should he do now?

I'd rather hurt you now that let you live in a lie.

Everything was a lie from the time he opened his eyes. The smiles, the hugs, the kisses even Jaejoong lied about everything. Why didn't he
notice it? Ryeowook shut his eyes hard and the tears escaped for a number of times yet again. He has lost a love he never had from the
start. He has lost a friend he valued the most. He has lost everything. He shouldn't have woken up...if not he shouldn't have slept for
too long. Loud sobs filled the hospital room; regrets covered the walls of it and tears wet the blanket.

What can you do for him?

Kyuhyun let go of his dreams.

Ryeowook looked around, feeling lost and alone. He needs to make a call. His phone is away from him. He stretched his arm to reach for it.
It's still far. He eyed on his numb legs. He moved at the edge of the bed. He carried his own weight as he cannot stand on his feet. He
can do it. He's not useless. Tears still running down his face. The phone is still far from him. He tapped the side of the bed. Angry
that he cannot move his legs. He carried himself closer to the edge of the bed... just a little bit more. The tip of his finger has
touched the phone. He can do it. A little push to the edge and he'll soon make it. More, Ryeowook ah...

Ryeowook thought there are more space to move in but he has squeeze the last of the space. As soon as he reached the phone, he tumbled on
the floor and lied there on his front. It is painful. But he got his phone. That's all that matters. He looked at his legs, still
immovable... but it doesn't matter as of the very minute.

Speed dial 1. Three rings...

"Kyuhyun, I need to see you now." he swallowed the tears that has been falling as soon as he hang the phone. He didn't care about what
Kyuhyun is about to say but he needs to be here now. He stayed in that pathetic position for a while.

A vibrate from his phone. A sms.

Sender: Kyuhyun
Message: It's late now. You should rest.

Ryeowook couldn't focused his eyes in one place. He is anxious. He is troubled. Is he coming tomorrow if Ryeowook rest today? Tomorrow?
Tomorrow is still quite long but fine... tomorrow then.

Ryeowook turned his body upward. He used his arms to sat up and looked at his legs. For a minute, he just stared at it. His eyebrows
crossed for a while. He's not useless.

"I'm not useless..." he said lowly and bitterly. "I'll show you."

And just then he looked around and held on both sides of the corner he is in. He stretched his arms and tried to carry himself but he fell
back to where he was earlier. He should ask for help. He turned to the emergency button and was about to press it but stopped half way.

No. He carried himself once again and almost crawl up just so he can go back to his bed. He can make it. He knows he can.

"I'm not useless...

I'll show you."

*Author's note: I hope this chapter is clear hahaha...
2? 3 chapters?... maybe 4 at most and this story will
end. :D

Have a great day everyone~!^^