Author's note: Dear beloved readers,
your clumsy author was unable to see that she included
a part of this chapter in the previous one. >.<
really sorry about this my friends, I really thought I deleted it
properly but apparently I wasn't able to delete everything.
I'm quite disappointed with myself but I've decided not to change
anything. Anyways, thanks for the one who noticed it. :)

------------------------3 YEARS AGO---------------------------

Kyuhyun was like an abandoned child as he sleeps at the edge of his bed, holding Sungmin's hand tightly. Sungmin is sitting and
watching over him. The morning has come and yet it seems like they will just sleep the day away. He looked down and smiled at
himself.

"Happy birthday, Lee Sungmin." he whispered as he watched Kyuhyun slowly falling asleep. Finally, he looks peaceful. He leaned towards
his friend and brushed off his fringe. "He'll be fine, Kyuhyun. You, too, will be fine." a soft kiss on the other's forehead. He
looked down. Kyuhyun is still holding his hand. He gently pull his hand off and stood up. He's not leaving, he'll just look outside.
He wanted to stay in the balcony and watch the people below. At least he wants to be a little happy because it is his birthday today.
But before he could open the sliding door, a pair of arms s around him.

"Kyuhyun ah... You should be sleeping." he said worriedly. He turned to Kyuhyun and saw tears forming his eyes yet again.

"You let go of my hand and-"

Sungmin sighed and held him around his shoulders. "Come." he lead Kyuhyun back to his bed with him lying at the side as well. "You
need to rest." Kyuhyun looked at him as they both lie side by side. Sungmin must be here when he wakes up. He moved closer to Sungmin
as if a child cuddling to his mom. Sungmin sighed and wrapped his arms around Kyuhyun. He's just too scared to be alone. He needs
Sungmin to be close to him for the peace of his mind. He has lost everyone, he'll make sure he won't lose Sungmin as well.

For the rest of the morning until afternoon, Sungmin accompanied Kyuhyun. The other tried to sleep but everytime he'll feel Sungmin
moves, he'll wake up because he feels like the other is going to leave him.

"I'm just here, Kyuhyun. I'm not going anywhere." Kyuhyun rested his arm around Sungmin to make sure he won't leave. His mom has left
him, his dad as well. Ryeowook is holding tightly to his life. Sungmin... he needs to be sure that Sungmin will always be here, until
he opens his eyes again. He needs to be here. It was only when Sungmin fell asleep too that he got a good sleep. And when Sungmin woke
up, he, too, almost jump out of bed to hold on to the other. That day... Kyuhyun cannot sleep without Sungmin beside him.

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There was a good news and a bad news in the hospital. Ryeowook's operation is done. Jaejoong called Kyuhyun to come to the hospital
to hear what the doctor will say. He doesn't want to call Kyuhyun, but somehow he needs to know since he was involve in this incident
as well. Afterall, things would have been different if he came in early.

"It was almost an impossible operation, Mr. Kim. The bullet had affected 4 lobes in his brain which controls sensation, memory,
emotion and impulse control. But it went through smoothly. Although, we have to perform another operation soon to rebuilt his skull
to prevent from brain-swelling. The bullet will remain in his head for some time before we can perform the next operation." Jaejoong
nodded his head. "I have to admit, Mr. Kim, it was luck that pushed him through survival. If his brain was not able to produce
enough oxygen until he gets to the hospital, he might be dead by now. " the doctor tried his best to explain to them
in layman's term. "There will be no issues in conducting the next operation, however..."

However. The calm before the storm. The introduction of bad news. However. "Is he going to be fine?" Jaejoong asked.

"Honestly, he needs to wake up before I can confirm you his mental state. He can be in a vegetative state, he can be paralysed. He needs
to wake up for us to know how his mental state is. He may be traumatized by what happened to him and it may
affect the recovery of his injury." Jaejoong looked down, his eyebrows crossed. It's serious enough for him to worry. The bullet in
his brain has not been removed and now this...

Kyuhyun looked down. "When will he wake up?" he asked. Jaejoong looked at him, one of his eyebrows raised. He, too, wants to know.

"It will always be up to the patient to decide on that. He may need some time before he opens his eyes."

"What are the possibilities that he will wake up soon?"

"Honestly speaking, I don't know. He can wake up as soon as tomorrow, he can wake up after some time... not waking up is also an
option. It will all depend on him. He's in the state of comatose."

The last word made Kyuhyun's heart falter and his chest raised up and down as he tried to stop his tears. Ryeowook may not wake up
anymore. Just like what happened to his dad when he shot himself. He will die too. Ryeowook will leave Kyuhyun too and its all his
fault. If he just come early. Things won't be like this if he come to him. He should be the one on that death bed... or... if he
didn't accept Ryeowook's confession, things won't turn out like this. His tears streaming on his face. He opened his mouth and
turned to the glass window where Ryeowook is almost lifelessly lying down. His head is wrapped with bandage, his mouth covered with
oxygen mask. His hands with needles to connect those drippings. It's all Kyuhyun's fault.

He wanted to open the door. He held on to the knob but-

"You've heard enough, Kyuhyun. Go home." Jaejoong said as he stopped the other from opening the door. He doesn't deserve to be here
anymore. He and his blankness can cause more damage in Ryeowook's life. He has heard what he needs to hear and now he needs to leave.

Kyuhyun turned to Ryeowook's brother. Jaejoong doesn't even want to look at him. Kyuhyun turned to the glass of the window again.
Jaejoong hyung is blaming him too. Kyuhyun's tears fall even more. Everyone is blaming him because of what happened. His mouth
shakes as he sniffed hard.

"Hyung..."

"Go home."

His lips curled down as Jaejoong opened the door to Ryeowook's ward but immediately locked it as soon as he went in. He didn't spend
a second looking at Kyuhyun instead he left the other behind.

Kyuhyun looked down and droplets of his tears fell on the floor. He, too, fell on his knees as he wept there. "Ryeowook ah... I'm so
sorry." he blinked and let his tears fall endlessly on the white floor of the hospital. It's all his fault and he cannot even ask
Ryeowook to forgive him. Ryeowook cannot even hear him.

He stayed there for the rest of the time. In that position. He didn't care if his legs are numb. He just stayed like that as he
continuously weep. If Ryeowook could just wake up now, things would be easier.

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Sungmin and Hyukjae were together when they arrived the hospital. They wanted to see Ryeowook and know how the operation went. How is he?
They both know he is as fragile as he looks like and even more now because of what happened. Ryeowook is a dear friend and if
there is anything that they can do to help him recover fast, they will be willing to do it.

Sungmin widened his eyes when he saw Kyuhyun's head on the floor, he's sitting on his legs and is still weeping. "Kyuhyun ah!" his heart
immediately ached upon seeing his friend's state. He almost ran to him and drop the conversation he is having with Hyukjae. Kyuhyun
looked even more desolated than earlier. What could have happen? He immediately ran towards his best friend and knelt down to check
on him.

Hyukjae turned to Sungmin. He didn't expect his friend to drop the nickname because of what happened. Right, this isn't the cute
Kyung and Ming's bubble. It is Kyuhyun and Sungmin's world. Their world with Ryeowook in it. Ryeowook has burst the bubble they've been
living in and now Kyung and Ming no longer exist in Kyuhyun and Sungmin's life. This is them being mature to the world they are living
in. What has happened to Kyuhyun? What has happened to Ryeowook? What will happen to them?

"It's all my fault!" Kyuhyun said, his voice broken and is choking with tears. "I should have come ealier to him. Look what I've
done." Kyuhyun's voice is a mess of sob and words. His eyes red from tears and his chest is just so painful to handle. There is just
Sungmin in front of him. The only person he can hold on to. "It's all my fault. Sungmin... what have I done?"

Sungmin looked down. Is he at fault as well? If Kyuhyun didn't get him a gift for his birthday, this wouldn't happen as well. He
looked at Kyuhyun, sympathy in his eyes only for his dearest friend. His heart aches to see Kyuhyun at this state. If Kyuhyun didn't
thought of his birthday, he could have come earlier to meet Ryeowook. No, looking back on the past, if he didn't insist on pushing
Kyuhyun to date Ryeowook, this will never happen. It's all his fault. He should have kept Ryeowook away... or maybe he shouldn't have
told Kyuhyun to accept the confession. He doesn't know how to console the other. It's all his fault.

"I'm sorry..." he said. He had seen Kyuhyun's ups and downs and he had seen Kyuhyun weeping like this but never because of Sungmin's
fault. Everything wouldn't have happened if not because of him. It's not Ryeowook's fault, it's not Kyuhyun's fault, it's Sungmin's fault.

Kyuhyun held him tightly. "Sungmin ah...you're the only one I've got now. Please don't leave me." Sungmin's tears fell quietly as he
held Kyuhyun. It's his fault too...things wouldn't be like this if he was out of the picture. But he can't get out of the picture.
Because wherever Kyuhyun is, that's where Sungmin will be. He won't get out of Kyuhyun's world. Especially now. Kyuhyun needs
him and he will, by all means, stay by his side. Kyuhyun won't be alone as long as he is here.

Hyukjae watched them as they both weep. Kyuhyun and Sungmin. Sungmin and Kyuhyun. When one is down, the other is down too. They've
been sharing their lives together and now this incident too. He heard from Sungmin that Kyuhyun bought him a gift before the incident
happened. Now he is assuming that these two are self-blaming. He sighed deeply. What exactly is his role in their story? He turned
to the glass window and looked at Ryeowook. His body is barely moving. The machines around his bed defines his lifeline. Ryeowook
ah, what have you done to them? He, then turn to Kyuhyun and Sungmin. Their bubble has been burst. They  live in a real world now, with
real pain and suffering. Kyuhyun, Sungmin What will happen to the two of you? Hyukjae looked down and crossed his eyebrows.
Hyukjae ah, what are you supposed to do?

-------------END OF POV----------------

*Author's note: I also wonder why nobody ask me
question such as why can't Kyuhyun sleep without Sungmin?
haha... I asked that question to myself so there you go author,
your answer is there >p
I'm really sorry for the mistake yesterday!