the last night
As He Sleeps
Jogeumssik meoreojyeogada sarajyeoganda jeobeok jeobeok [You're getting father away and disappearing little by little with heavy footsteps]
Ryeowook has his eyes closed as he embrace the song he is listening to. Gray Paper, it was released yesterday on
digital album. The singer- unknown. The cover of his digital album is his back. Who is he? Why does this song breaks
his heart? Letting go but he cannot let go, wanting to keep a promise but failing to do so... wanting to say those
words but was always afraid to do so. Funny. This song must be about him. How he wants to hold on but has no one to
hold on to. This song must be about him. Wanting his love to be reciprocated but in the end... he is alone, with
his broken promises and heart. This song must be about him. Who is this singer? It's like Ryeowook knows his voice for a very long time...
The door opened and immediately he popped out of the world of that song. He opened his eyes and looked at the doorway.
His eyes looked dead, no expression. He looked away and then down. Don't wake up anymore, Ryeowook. Why is he here?
Lee Hyukjae, what is he doing here? There was silence, a long disturbing silence. He can only hear the sound of
Hyukjae's feet getting close to him. He turned to Hyukjae uninterestedly.
"Why are you here?" he asked.
Hyukjae sighed and looked at him. "It seems like you've recalled everything."
A chuckle. A bitter chuckle that is so predictable for Hyukjae. But why is Ryeowook angry? What does he remember?
What is there to remember? He was always asleep, other than the accident, what can he remember?
"I've recalled everything... all the voices around me while I was asleep, all the weeping, all the shouting, all
the arguments, all the prayers, even betrayals." Ryeowook said meeting Hyukjae's eyes. "Why did everybody lie to
me? Hyukjae..." his eyes sarcastically wondering and asking.
Hyukjae looked at Ryeowook and didn't answer. What answer can he give? Indeed Ryeowook is a victim, but he is only a
victim until he has surpass the amount of time Kyuhyun and Sungmin can surpass their feelings. He was only a victim
before he chose to sleep for three long years. But was Ryeowook at fault? Is he to be blamed about all this? It seems
like everybody is a victim afterall.
Ryeowook looked down and tears started forming in his eyes. "I was waiting for Kyuhyun, excited to face a new year
with him... but the next thing I know, he's already living with Sungmin hyung. He's a traitor. A two-faced bastard.
He could have told me that he is eyeing on Kyuhyun and he just want to use me to play chase with him. I shouldn't have
trusted him."
Hyukjae looked down and didn't say anything. Maybe Ryeowook is so constraint in the hospital that he has no one to
vent his frustrations. Jaejoong is heartless enough to continue his concert tour despite the situation and he's
quite aware that Kyuhyun is not dropping by since the day they broke up. He sighed deeply.
"Sungmin and I are going out of Korea for three years..." he said. Ryeowook turned to him. "We will plan a good future
for our company. I hope by then, I can see you out of that bed already." Hyukjae looked down when Ryeowook didn't
seem to respond to him.
"So why did you come here?" Ryeowook said while looking down.
Hyukjae chuckled lowly and smile shortly. "I came here to say goodbye to a friend?" Ryeowook looked at him sharply.
"You did want me to not wake up anymore..."
"Ryeowook ah, we both know that you love Kyuhyun and I love Sungmin, we both want them for ourselves. But you know
the difference between you and me?" Ryeowook looked at him. "I knew from the very start that he wouldn't want me...
and I loved him like this... above his world, watching over him, wanting the best for him." He looked down shortly
and met Ryeowook's eyes once more. "I'm so sorry if I wanted you to stay in that bed to sleep forever... but if you
didn't take your time lying in that freaking bed, things could have been different for everyone. I did wish for you not to wake up anymore
because it's either you or Sungmin who will be happy, my obvious answer will be Sungmin... so does Kyuhyun."
He turned his back and was about to walk away but Ryeowook called him. "Hyukjae ah..." he turned his back and saw
Ryeowook sobbing.
"Have I really lost everything?"
Hyukjae sighed and straightened up. "You never lose everything, Ryeowook ah. You just never had them from the very
beginning." Ryeowook turned to him and his tears just fall down his eyes. Hyukjae looked away the moment he saw those
tears coming out. Just then, he smiled. "But then... it just proved that you didn't lose anything and you are now
given the chance to gain something. If not your strength then your talent, your passion in music. If not love from Kyuhyun... at least he
and Sungmin's friendship. "
Hyukjae just then took out something from his jacket. He looked at a CD case and smile. "Sungmin will kill me with
this." he handed it to Ryeowook. "Here. It was a song he composed for The Rookies before the accident. He wanted to
give it to you but he threw it away, he said it's too mushy but I've managed to save it."
Ryeowook looked at it and then to Hyukjae. The other smiled at him. "You'll do well, Ryeowook ah. I'll see you soon."
Hyukjae turned his back and started to walk out of the room. A deep sigh and a satisfied smile. He thinks he already
knows why he is in this story... he's here to watch over his friends and to patch up everything. He's here to be
a guardian.
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Kyuhyun went home and was surprised to see Sungmin sitting at the edge of the bed busy folding his clothes. Sungmin
looked up and gave him a smile.
"You're quite early today." Kyuhyun said. The other nodded and placed the folded shirt on top of the stack.
"I asked Hyukjae for a day off. I need to pack these so you can use the cabinet." he said as he busied himself with
another shirt to fold.
Kyuhyun chuckled and put the envelope on top of the table. "It's not like you're not coming back anymore. Furthermore,
I don't have that much clothes, I don't need those space and..." Sungmin is starting to chuckle as Kyuhyun speaks
more. "I can also use your shirt whenever I'm too lazy to do the laundry."
Sungmin stood up and walked towards Kyuhyun. "What?" The younger asked. Sungmin chuckled and continuously walked towards
him. When he was already standing close to Kyuhyun, he lifted his hand and held the other's face. He looked at
Kyuhyun delicately while smiling.
More than fifteen years of inseparable life and look, he is flying off without Kyuhyun. What will he do without
Kyuhyun? What will he become without Kyuhyun? What will happen to his life without Kyuhyun?
Kyuhyun's eyes immediately shut gently the moment that cold palm touched him. Sungmin is only warm whenever they are
making love but on regular times he is cold, he has a very low body temperature, but he loves the coldness of his
hand. He opened his eyes and met Sungmin's.
Sungmin stepped forward to kiss him softly in the lips. So soft, he barely even feel it. And then their eyes meet
again. Sungmin eyes on Kyuhyun's lips and kiss it again softly but a little long this time; enough for both of them
to feel it.
Sungmin's final step is to wrap his arms around Kyuhyun's waist and lean his head on the other's chest. He likes
Kyuhyun's warm body. It has always been this body that keeps him warm. He looked down for a while, looking a little
bit sad. "What will you do without me?" he asked softly he thought he asked himself.
He heard a chuckle and Kyuhyun held him to straightened up. He took the envelope and showed it to Sungmin. "Here,
look at this."
Sungmin looked through the papers with lines and letters like that of a fill-up form. The more he reads the bigger
his smile is.
National University of Korea
Student Application Form
Program & Degree: Music and Performance Arts
Name: Cho Kyu Hyun
Place & Date of Birth: Seoul, South Korea/ 3-February-1988
Sungmin looked at Kyuhyun and jumped to hug him tightly. "This is amazing Kyuhyun! When have you decided to go back
to school?" he asked excitedly.
"I've been thinking of what to do once you leave... I thought it'll be nice to do something that I really like...
so I've decided to go back to school."
"This is amazing!" Sungmin said, hugging Kyuhyun tighter. "Thank you for doing this."
"They credited those units that I've taken before so I guess it means three years is just enough for me to be in
school."
This is really good. Sungmin has always wanted Kyuhyun to go back to school but he refuse to because he preferred
taking care of Ryeowook. He chose to be take responsibility of their friend. Now that Kyuhyun is finally going
back to school, he couldn't ask for more. This is afterall, Kyuhyun's dream, to finish his school, to become a
famous singer... all his dreams will surely come true now.
Sungmin is becoming a bit emotional because of this. He's sincerely happy that Kyuhyun has decided to make this move.
His eyes became teary and he is starting to sob softly.
"Hey, are you that happy?" Kyuhyun said and wanted to look at Sungmin, but the other hid his face on Kyuhyun's chest.
Kyuhyun started to laugh. Ming, it's like the old Ming, silly, emotional and fluffy. "Hey..." Sungmin continuously
hide his face on his chest so Kyuhyun held his face gently with both hands and lift it up.
A soft kiss to make him stop from crying. He looked at Sungmin and kissed him again with the same softness. A gentle
stare around that beautiful face. And yet another soft kiss. Kyuhyun pulled Sungmin to hug and a very deep sigh
in between Sungmin's neck and shoulder making him shiver on the other's hot breath.
"What will you do without me?" his turn to ask.
"Make melodies, plan concerts, be busy..." Sungmin said matter-of-factly.
"Will you think of me everytime?" Kyuhyun asked. Sungmin chuckled with the childish question. He shook his head and
immediately Kyuhyun stepped back in a slight panic. "No?!"
Sungmin chuckled and watched his seemingly matured but actually childish lover. "I'll think of you once a day."
"Just once a day?!" he looked at Sungmin sharply. He wanted to go back to school so that Sungmin will be proud of
him, he wanted to reach for his dreams to deserve Sungmin. Everything he plans to do while the other is not around
is because of Sungmin and then what? Think of him just once a day?
He nodded his head as if a devil possessed his playfulness. Sungmin's eyes widened when he saw Kyuhyun looking at
him like that. Intinctively, he slowly walked back away from Kyuhyun but as soon as the younger stepped forward
he started to run.
They played chase around the table and around the bed. Sungmin was looking for an escape but he was in the narrow
side of the house. "So you'll just think of me once a day huh?" Kyuhyun said bitterly.
"I will be busy, do you think I have time to think about you?" Sungmin said still looking for an escape.
"You won't get away with this."
As soon as Sungmin move, Kyuhyun walked on the bed and didn't care about the stack of clothes he stepped on and jumped on the older and
grabbing him on the waist. In panic, Sungmin started to shout but at the same time laugh as Kyuhyun started to tickle him, he started to
wriggle his body because it is too ticklish. Geez, that's a sensitive spot! Kyuhyun pushed him to bed and sat on top of him. Still
looking pissed, he looked at the trapped Sungmin.
"Just once a day, huh?" he said catching his breath. He leaned closer conquering the distance between his face and
Sungmin's. "Are you really going to just think of me once a day?" Sungmin's eyes are big and he sees that Kyuhyun is
just being playful but is slightly disappointed.
"No?" Sungmin shook his head making Kyuhyun smile. The child like Kyuhyun, satisfied with that short and slightly
unsure answer leaned closer to kiss Sungmin in the lips Sungmin likes the taste of those lips, soft and sweet and
hot at the same time. A smile to break the insecurity.
"How much will you think of me?" a question that is so close to whisper and mere breath
"I'll think of you every single second you're not by my side." an answer that comes not just from him heart but from his soul.
Kyuhyun smiled in between their lips. "That's more like it."
And yet another kiss that will seem to last for the whole night.
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The nurse in the hospital has come for Ryeowook's dinner. He's getting sick of this food. But he has no choice. He turned to the table
where Hyukjae left the CD. He eyed on the nurse and smiled at him.
"Can you help me play this?" he asked.
The nurse smiled back at him. "Absolutely."
The nurse walked towards the player he got from his brother and placed the CD there. She turned to him with a smile. "Eat well, I'll come
back to get your stuff later."
Ryeowook nodded as the music started. Trumphets? techno keyboards? So not Sungmin. No wonder he doesn't like it.
Ginhanghaetdeon cheotnal [I was so tense the first day]
Nan amu mal motaetji [I wasn't able to say anything]
Ireoke uri manheun nal hamkke halji [That we'd have many days together like this]
Geuttaen jeongmal mollasseo [I really didn't know it back then]
Ryeowook looked down. The song was happy but why does it make him feel sad? Sungmin wants to give this to him before the accident.
And just then he remembered Sungmin's crying voice in his dream. "Ryeowook ah, wake up now, I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to fall for
Kyuhyun."
Nanun ge manchanha oh oh [Plenty was shared between us oh, oh]
Heullin ttam nunmul bimil [The sweat, the tears, the secrets]
Miwohaetdon sigankkaji nan saranghal su itgesseo [I'm even able to love the times we hated each other]
Eoneusae urin [Before we knew it]
Ryeowook chuckled when he remembered how Sungmin will childishly pout on Kyuhyun whenever he suppressed him and Ryeowook about their craziness
over Jung Yunho. He didn't know Sungmin has looked at him as a good friend to write something like this. A tear fall and yet a smile and
a little bit of sob. He's in a roller coaster emotions.
Tteoreojil su eobseo [We can't be apart]
Bogopeul geoya [I'll want to see you]
Geuriul geoya I love my friends [I'm going to miss you]
Itji motal geoya [I will never forget]
Nal anajwo [Give me a hug]
Nal itjima [Don't ever forget me]
Byeonhajima [Don't change]
Before he knew it, his face is already full of tears. Sungmin regards him as a good friend before the accident happened and while he was
asleep, he was one of those who encouraged him to wake up and he took care of Kyuhyun in his behalf. The only mistake Sungmin had was he
fall endlessly for Kyuhyun and Ryeowook wasn't around to stop them. What does Sungmin think of him now? He said he'd rather hurt Ryeowook
than let him live a lie. Sungmin Hyung... until the very end... are we still friends?
That night, Ryeowook looked on the floor and slid himself out of the blanket. He slid his immoveable legs down the floor and pushed himself
out of the bed. He shouldn't lie down anymore. He felt his knees shaking but his feet is solid on the ground. He held on to the wall close
to him. He straightened his upper body. He cannot be weak anymore.
He has to stand up. A sigh of achievement.
Ryeowook has finally stood up.
*Author's note: oh my gosh, your dear author in updating this story.
I can't believe it took me months before updating again. I'm so sorry dear friends >.<
Anyways, it's close to the end, huh? I'll work on this soon!
Thank you so much for always waiting for my updates!
I can't believe it took me months before updating again. I'm so sorry dear friends >.<
Anyways, it's close to the end, huh? I'll work on this soon!
Thank you so much for always waiting for my updates!
Song: Good Friends
Performed by: Super Junior
Performed by: Super Junior
Credits to the translator!
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