"His memories failed him." Sungmin told Hyukjae. "He cannot remember anything from the incident. And his cognitive skills were
slightly affected by the bullet, he has the idea that he can play the piano, but he can't play it." Sungmin, said sighing and slouching
on the couch inside the coffee shop. Could this day be anymore disappointing?

Hyukjae watched the other as he stared outside the coffee shop. So this is the real deal. Ryeowook slept for three years and left
Kyuhyun and Sungmin to live their lives together but with agony. Now this, he cannot remember what happened and his dream of being a
pianomaster has burst out easily like Kyung and Ming's world. This thing only leads to Kyuhyun's endless self blame. And Sungmin's
endless disappointments and tears and agony. This will never end. The cycle will continue and now they have to keep the secret about
them being together. Sungmin turned to the orange juice in the table. He smiled bitterly, an obviously bitter smile unlike the earlier.

"He told me he'll say it today." a deep heavy sigh and a slightly bitter chuckle. "I kind of expected this. I knew he can't say it
today." he looked down and felt his heart choke a bit. But tears don't come easily now. He has grown up. Tears are just there to
cleanse his eyes but not to show his emotions. He feels tired. He doesn't want to continue this. Can he just ask destiny to stop?
Stop writing his story and just put an end to it. Just let it end. He doesn't want the agony anymore. He doesn't want Kyuhyun to blame
himself anymore. He doesn't want... he looked down. He doesn't want to be like this anymore.

"I have a proposal to make." Hyukjae said. Sungmin looked up to him and saw his friend sitting straight, arms crossed closed to
chest, Hyukjae is sitting like a boss. What proposal? "The company is starting to conquer charts and I've opened an idea of a
concert tour." Hyukjae saw that Sungmin is not half as interested to this topic as he is. But who cares? This is his way to shift
Sungmin's mind.

"What about it?" Sungmin asked seemingly uninterested. Well, he is interested...a bit. It's just that, for now, he's not that keen to
listen to anything; regardless of work or Ryeong or Jaejoong or... yes, even Kyuhyun. He just want to see Sungmin and be with him for
a while. He has missed himself a lot. Where was the bubbly, innocent, Ming from the past? He doesn't regret letting that side of him
go, but sometimes, it's best to just let Ming conquer his life; be the careless, clumsy little happy fool that he is.

"3 years, Min. We'll plan for the tour; just you and me. We'll move around different countries to search for locations, check out the
stages, write more songs, train the groups, plan the performance, create scenes on stage... Our company will be bigger by then..."
Hyukjae's heart is beating extra fast when he stopped naming the things they will do. He sounds excited about this proposal. This is
his make it or break it proposal.

This is about work but he knows clearly he has a personal agenda... something more important than the company's worth. He slightly
opened his mouth and secretly stopped breathing. He his dried lips before saying the main proposal.

"Let's not think about anything here. We'll conquer stages and steal people's heart through your melody, through my words. What I want
you to do is..." Hyukjae's heart stpped. He felt the bump in his neck moved up and down as he swallowed. He is nervous but...This is it.

"Come with me."

Sungmin crossed his eyebrows for a while. He looked down and thought for a while. Hyukjae has always been there for him. Hyukjae has
always loved him. He knows it. Hyukjae doesn't need to hide it from Sungmin because he can still feel it despite telling him off for
a million time. But Hyukjae is not talking about feelings or his emotions right now,
he's talking about their work as professionals...but why does it feel like he just want to take Sungmin away from Kyuhyun? He looked
at his dear friend who seemed calm, but this is them; Sungmin and Hyukjae, they've been friends for 5 years and those fidgetting
fingers of Hyukjae tells Sungmin that he is freaking nervous about his so-called proposal.

"You've been wanting to roam around the world. Let's reach for your dreams while working hard to conquer stages... come with me."

Roaming the world? Learning cultures and languages, drinking wine while writing songs and melodies. It is a dream. He has always wanted
that kind of dream.  If he go with Hyukjae, his dream is reachable in 3 years. If he come with Hyukjae, he'll get everything that has
always dreamed of. But...

"What about Kyuhyun?" he asked. His eyes on the window once again. Hyukjae sighed deeply.

Kyuhyun. Does it always have to be him? Even in conquering the world, does it always have to include Kyuhyun? Kyuhyun doesn't own the
world. He has no world. He only has Ryeowook and his past. No, he can't lose it. He'll have to speak his mind. This is not for his
own sake. This is for Sungmin's salvation.

"It's not healthy to stick to him anymore, Sungmin." he said while shaking his head, his face with bitterness. "Did you hear what
Jaejoong said earlier?"

Sungmin clenched his jaw the moment he heard Jaejoong's name. He didn't listen to Hyukjae's words anymore. His thoughts has flown away.
Right. Jaejoong and Ryeowook. The monsters of all his dreams. The nightmare that exists even when he's awake. The one who stole Kyuhyun's
dream, Kyuhyun's freedom and now his as well. Kyuhyun is stuck in the middle of them and he, too, is stuck because he chose to love
Kyuhyun more than anything this world has to offer. Kyuhyun has no world. But Kyuhyun is his world. And those monsters has ruined his
precious world.

"He said Kyuhyun should take care of Ryeong-"

"I'll think about it." Sungmin said as he looked at the juice in front of him. Even the fresh tropic drink seemed bitter with the
way he looks at it. Everything has been bitter. His caramel sundae-d world has disappear. The sweetness in his life was gone in a snap.
All because Ryeowook chose to open his eyes.

"I'm giving you 6 months to decide. It'll be a good learning for you since you want to experience different cultures and-"

"I said I'll think about it."

He needs to shut Hyukjae up. There are so many things running in his mind that he cannot decipher his own personal thoughts. World
tour sounds good for the company. Checking out the place and preparing stages is exciting, learning culture and languages has always been
a part of his dream. Conquering the world sounds increadibly great.

But leaving his new home, leaving Kyuhyun on his own despair, wrecks everything that sounds great to him. And knowing how Kyuhyun blames
himself about Ryeowook... he has an unstable feelings right now.
His dream is to roam around the world, to conquer thousands, millions of stages... his dream...his greatest dream... to be with
Kyuhyun for the rest of his life.

"I've recruited a new singer." Hyukjae said. He knows Sungmin just said that to shut him up. But this is work. He'll work hard to be
the best. If not for Sungmin then for the company. His existence is still a question but if he can't get Sungmin at least he'll sweep
the globe's heart. It's either the world or Sungmin for him. 

"Our new song will be released today. Jay Hyung did a good job there." Sungmin looked at the glass in front of him. Hyukjae watched
him watch the glass of juice. He smiled a little. He needs this because he doesn't want to feel like he just lose his face from being rejected...
yet again. "Baek Ji Young noona wants you to write a song for her." Sungmin looked up and
nodded but didn't speak anymore.

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Kyuhyun leaned on the glass window of the apartment. He should have said it a while ago. But Ryeowook and his fragile self has stopped
him from spilling everything. He doesn't want to hurt Ryeowook...and because of that he has hurt Sungmin. He looked at the radio as it
played a new song from Sungmin's company. Of course, the most popular composer/lyricist are on it again. Hyukjae and Sungmin are in the
radio again. He looked down. What kind of song is this again? The melody is sad just like what they always do-target the audience heart
and kill them like a pro.

He went closer to the radio and let the house be filled by a short piano play before the sound of guitar entered. Kyuhyun chuckled.
Why do these guys love TRAX? They've been singing Sungmin and Hyukjae's songs for a number of times already. Kyuhyun lied down on the floor
and let the speaker deafen his ears.

[The pure blue sky]
[The rigid lips cry]
[As I shout how much I miss you]

Right. How many days has it been since Ryeowook opened his eyes? And yet even if Sungmin goes home and sleeps by his side, it feels like
he missed the other dearly. Why is that so?

[The string of fate tangled at lingering feelings]
[Remains tangled]
[Then it buries itself once again]

String of fate tangled. Damn Hyukjae, do you really have to be this good? Pointing exactly what went wrong. Fate? Is there such thing?
Kyuhyun being with Ryeowook but loving Sungmin and wanting to choose him but is too weak to see the other hurting... is that fate? If it
is then... fate!

[The suffering heart couldn't hold back any longer]
[And it's chasing after your distant figure]

He looked up and looked at the low ceiling of the house. Sungmin is just here and yet he knows their distance is growing... uncontrollably
fast. He closed his eyes tightly. It's all his fault. He let Sungmin suffer all these s.

[The cold hearted man is crying]
[At our parting, even she's crying]
[All that's left are cuts]
[From the faded memory- window fragments]
[You wouldn't know, the tears of broken boy]
[The tired sighs circling around you, so you can't stand it]
[I will send our tangled memories]
[That has been tightening around the throat venomously,]
[to the saddened sky]

He doesn't understand the next lines anymore. But he just feels tired. Tired of thinking about what he should do. How should he end this up?
Why wasn't he able to tell Ryeowook about his choice? Why is he still blaming himself? How can he stop hurting Sungmin? Even the hurtful
song came to an end...why can't his agony end too?

Just end it now...

*Author's note:
I'm very happy to see a lot of comments and messages
saying they're happy to see me back haha! Author is
deeply touched ^^ Thank you for the support that you have
been giving me despite my absence. I really appreciate
each and everyone of you. :D

Song title: Let You Go (Cold-Hearted Man)
Performed by: TRAX
I seriously have a thing for Jay's voice and I just hope
Kyuhyun can do a cover to one of their songs (Blind or this song would be good)
haha!
Credits to the translator!

Have a great weekend~!