“What happened?” Kyuhyun asked while Sungmins cold hands.

“When we got home tonight, only Leeteuk, Hyukjae, appa and I were at the house. Hyukjae went to sleep as soon as we got home so the rest of us sat in the living room.” Sungmin said. “I thought about what you said tonight and I decided to tell him straight out right then instead of waiting for tomorrow.”

“Then I told him. Leeteuk was in the room supporting me so I thought that it would be okay.” Sungmin said calmly but his eyes were glistening with unshed tears. “It obviously didn’t go well.” He chuckled out with no humor.

The arms around Sungmin tightened as he continued, “We started yelling at each other. I was trying not to cry but appa never yelled at me before. I got angry. I said things that I shouldn’t have said but I just kept yelling.”

Kyuhyun felt Sungmin tremble in his arms, as he recalled what happened not even an hour ago. “I must have hurt him so much.”

….

“Sungmin….” Kyuhyun said while burying his face into Sungmins hair. The older boy was trembling after recalling the first fight that he ever gotten into with his appa.

“H-He must be so upset with my right now!” Sungmin sniffled into Kyuhyuns chest. “I don’t know how to face him….”

Kyuhyun sighed and ran his fingers through his boyfriends’ hair. “You don’t need to see him right now okay? Just stay here with me.” He whispered quietly.

Sungmin lift his head up to look into the Kyuhyuns eyes and he leaned forward to place a light kiss on his cheek. “Thank you Kyu…” He said but his eyes were still distant and filled with tears.

The other boy gave him a worried look.

“I’m fine. I just had to let it out.” He said quietly with a forced smile. Kyuhyun could clearly see that it didn’t reach his eyes at all.

“You’re not fine Min.” Kyuhyun replied with a soft voice. He pulled Sungmin onto his lap and covered him in kisses. “Don’t cry Minnie.”

Sungmin could only clench his teeth so that the sobs wouldn’t slip out. The hand his hair wasn’t helping either.

Kyuhyun placed another kiss on the top of his head. Despite the situation, Sungmin couldn’t help but smile as Kyuhyuns actions.

He giggled when he felt Kyuhyun kiss his nose. Kyuhyun gave him a smile but then it flattered a little when he saw the redness of Sungmins cheek.

Sungmin felt Kyuhyun place a hand on the cheek that was hit by appa. Placing his hand over Kyuhyuns he said, “I already told you that appa slapped me.”

Clenching his jaw Kyuhyun replied, “Yeah I know but…”

“It’s okay.” Sungmin gave him a sad smile, “I must have hurt him much more than this.”

Kyuhyun was about to reply until he felt a vibration from his jeans. He dug around his pocket and took out his phone.

He panicked a little seeing that it was his appa but answered anyways.

“Y-yes appa?” Kyuhyun stuttered out uncertainly.

“Kyuhyun.” Came the grave voice. “Is Sungmin with you?”

Kyuhyun hesitantly replied that he was. Then Kyuhyun heard his appa let out a harsh sigh. “Appa?” Kyuhyun called out worriedly at the pain in his voice.

“Kangin he…” Junjin started to say but was stopped after hearing the sound of sirens in the background.

Now alarmed, Kyuhyun almost shouted into the phone startling Sungmin that was still on his lap, “Appa what’s wrong? Is that the ambulance? Appa!”

Sungmin couldn’t help but look worriedly at his boyfriend after seeing the color drain from his face. Kyuhyun squeezed his eyes shut and nodded his head telling Junjin that he understands.

Hanging up the phone, Kyuhyun turned his attention back to Sungmin but avoided looking at his eyes.

“K-Kyu?” Sungmin called out now a little scared at how Kyuhyun was acting. He was surprised to feel arms wrap strongly around him. “K-Kyuhyun?”

Kyuhyun brought Sungmin closer to him and said something quietly into his ears.

Around the same time, Donghae held Hyukjae in his arms when the older boy started to shake.

Kyuhyun held Sungmin tighter when he started to tremble.

Somewhere else in town, Hankyung drove rapidly through the streets with Heechul trying to conceal his cries within his hands on the seat next to him.

Kyuhyun tried soothing Sungmin by whispering that everything will be okay when he started to sob.

Yunho sat in the backseat of Heechuls car with an unreadable look in his eyes while Jaejoong squeezed his hand tightly.

But Kyuhyun couldn’t do anything when Sungmin started to scream.

…

Junjin sat on one of the chairs in the hallway motionless, waiting for the others to arrive. The smell of alcohol lingered around him and people scrunched their noses whenever they passed him.

His pants were dirty with dirt that also covered a small portion of his shirt, which was also stained with something in a darkish color.

The dried blood was also on his arms but he couldn’t move even if he wanted to.

About ten minutes ago, his junior from school was rushed into the emergency room and all he could do was sit there.

He could only wait.

The first to arrive was Hyukjae followed by Donghae. Hyukjae had an almost crazy look in his eyes when he stood in front of him but sat down at the request of Donghae.

The next to come was Yunho and Heechul followed by Hankyung and someone he couldn’t recognize. Heechul was trying his best to remain compose while Yunho showed nothing on his face to express what he was feeling.

Hyesung and Yesung came in next. They both sat on either side of Junjin and Hyesung laced his fingers together with his.

Junjin was thankful but couldn’t bring himself to squeeze back.

Leeteuk came alone. Hyukjae was quick to pull the distraught man into his arms.

Then his son came in with the youngest of the brothers. Sungmin looked like a mess but so did the rest of his hyungs.

His brothers and his umma went straight to him and pulled him within their embrace. The other people in the hallway could only watch as they all broke down.

…

“It’s been over an hour.” Hyesung stated quietly to Junjin.

“Yeah I know.” He replied. It’s been over an hour and neither the doctors nor nurses brought them any news.

Yesung was asleep on the chair next to his appa while resting his head on his shoulder. Yunho was still staring blankly in front of him and Jaejoong struggled to keep himself awake.

Heechul had black rings around his eyes but he refused to take a short nap, afraid that he will miss the news about Kangin. Hankyung could only whisper sweet nothings into his ears in an attempt to comfort him.

Hyukjae was in the same situation while Donghae struggled to keep his tears at bay, being the sensitive boy he is.

Sungmin and Kyuhyun…

Were not in the hallway anymore. After breaking down a little while ago, Kyuhyun took the other boy to the bathroom to wash up and Junjin could only sigh.

He should have kept a better eye on Kangin. He knew that the younger man was drunk, he tried to stop him but it was too late.

Junjin kept replaying the same thing over and over again in his mind.

When the truck hit Kangin, the driver quickly pulled over spluttering out panicked apologizes. When Junjin rushed to his side, Kangin just stared blankly in front of him. The front of his shirt was tickled with blood from being flown a good ten feet from his original spot.

The driver was the one who called the ambulance and Junjin finally composed himself to call the boys.

And now we’re here.

Hyesung gazed at Junjin with a concerning look and said, “I’m going to get something to drink for everyone. Can you help me?”

Junjin nodded and forced himself out of his chair.

The walk out of the hallway into the cafeteria was silent. The cafeteria wasn’t crowded at all so they were both thankful, not wanting to deal with too much noise.

Hyesung was about to put the money in the vending machine until he felt arms wrap around him from behind.

“Junjin?” He called out quietly to the now shaking man. The arms around him tightened.

“H-hyung” Came the shaky voice that was filled with tears. Hyesung placed his hands over Junjins and allowed the younger man to let everything out. He must have been traumatized to watch something happen like that.

After several minutes, the arms around him loosened but didn’t let go. Hyesung let himself lean back into Junjins chest when he felt the other man relax behind him.

“Hyesung?” Junjin asked quietly while resting his head on top of Hyesungs shoulder.

The other man hummed in response.

“Do you… do you think that it’s my fault?” He asked hesitantly, “I want you to answer me truthfully. The way Hyukjae looked at me earlier… I-“

“No.” Hyesung quickly cut him off, “Of course it’s not your fault. Something like that could have been avoided but you did try to stop him didn’t you?”

“Yes” Junjin answered

“And the thing about Hyukjae and even the rest of the boys,” Hyesung started, “Their farther is in the hospital. The one man who struggled with everything he had to take care of then when their mother left before Leeteuk came into the picture.”

“Of course their going to blame you first because they just don’t know what to think anymore Jinnie,” Hyesung tried to reassure him, “Just give them time.” Hyesung felt the younger man nod into his shoulder.

Hyesung finally took notice of their position and he sighed. He almost jumped when he felt Junjin press himself closer into his body and the arms retightened around him again.

Feeling the breath on his neck made him shudder, “J-Jinnie?”

“I’m sorry hyung.” Junjin replied but didn’t let go of him.

Confused, Hyesung said, “I already told you that it’s not your-“ He began to say but was cut off.

“Not about that.” He replied, “About this.”

Hyesung still didn’t know what he meant but he felt his heart beat faster, “W-What do you mean?”

“Hyung,” Came the voice him, “I’m sorry but… I can’t” Junjin tried to say.

“This is all I can give you, I’m so sorry.”

Oh…

Oh

Hyesung could feel how his heart almost shattered to pieces. He could feel tears b around his eyes when he put the puzzles together.

Junjin doesn’t feel the same way

‘Of course he doesn’t’ Thought Hyesung bitterly

He should have been ready for this news but it….

It still hurts

So much

Hyesung was about to open his mouth to play it off as something small but his voice wouldn’t come out.

He should have seen this coming. He has been waiting for this for years but it still hurt.

Hyesung let himself be held, trying not to break down. Everything was too much tonight. Not only does he have to be strong for Kangin, but he also has to make sure not to break down about this.

Turning himself to face Junjin, he avoided making eye contact with the younger man. With his arms still around Hyesung, he said, “Hyung, please look at me.”

Hyesung contemplated whether it was a good idea or not. He doesn’t want Junjin to see him crying and he doesn’t trust his voice right now

“Hyung.” Junjin said out with a tone that forced Hyesung to lift his head.

Junjin was right when he saw Hyesungs face. The tears b on his eyelids were about to fall and the older man was biting his bottom lip to keep any sounds from coming out.

When those teary eyes met his, Junjin could feel guilt rising in his gut. But he knew that he had to set it straight somehow. That he shouldn’t keep leading Hyesung on like this because he didn’t share the same feelings as him.

“J-Jinnie?” Hyesung called out to him with an unusual small and quiet voice.

“Yes.” He replied.

“C-Can you do just o-one more thing for me? Please?” Hyesung almost pleaded. Junjin nodded his head and agreed to whatever request Hyesung wanted him to do. “C-Close your eyes and don’t open them until I’m d-done.”

Complying with his wishes, Junjin closed his eyes and waited for whatever was going to happen. He was honestly expecting a punch, not the brush of soft lips against his own.

His lips were surprisingly soft and warm, Junjin thought. His arms were already wrapped tightly around Hyesung so the position was comfortable. The sensation only lasted for a few more seconds until Hyesung pulled back and Junjin opened his eyes.

Hyesung had his head face down and he said, “Thank you.”

Junjin gave him a sad smile, “Of course.”

“I…” Hyesung started but he almost chocked due to the tears that were now streaming down his face. “I-I… tell the b-boys that I had to-“ He tried to finish but the tears were flowing faster now and he still refused to look at Junjin.

“J-Just let me be a-alone for a little bit. Don’t worry, I’ll be f-fine.” He said after hearing Junjin protested. Hyesung then separated himself from Junjin and quickly made his way to the entrance to go outside but not before Junjin could see the look on his face before he went out of sight.

Heartbroken

….

Holding Sungmin in his arms, Kyuhyun finished the eighth song that he sang for Sungmin. Trying to calm him down.

He looked down onto the boy in his arms and he smiled, despite the grave accident that just happened.

After taking Sungmin into the bathroom into the bathroom to clean up, he didn’t want to leave his appas side at all. His hyungs are going to do a rotation from the youngest to the oldest on who visits appa.

Kyuhyun looked at the clock and noticed that it’s been almost three hours since they’ve been here. He heard a sigh come from his arms and gazed at the sleeping bunny.

his hair, Kyuhyun was able to utilize two large chairs to make a half descent bed for Sungmin and laid him down on it. He bent down to kiss his forehead and then headed towards Kangins bed.

Sitting on the chair placed on the side of the bed, Kyuhyun gazed at the sleeping form of Kangin.

The older man had a mask on and was changed into the clothes probably given to him by the hospital. He had a few scrapes here and there, some of them were minor but the others looked nasty.

A bruise was forming in a spot near his forehead. The hit must have been really hard to be able to knock him out for this long. Not too long ago, the doctors told Kyuhyun and Sungmin that it was up to Kangin to be able to pull himself out of this state of unconsciousness.

They also said that it might be dangerous for him to be asleep for any longer but they now have no control over it. They said that he has to wake up in at least the next day or two or…

Well he didn’t want to think about what would happen

It has already been a little over three hours but there is no sign of him waking up. The doctors and nurses urged for them to talk to the unconscious man because they said that he might still be able to hear us.

He might be able to hear us and bring himself out of this mess

“Kangin…” Kyuhyun called out softly while bringing himself closer to the older man.

The man on the bed didn’t move one bit

“I know that…” Kyuhyun began, “… you must be furious at me. Thinking that I’m taking advantage over Sungmin. But I’m not.”

“Even if you can’t hear me, I just need to tell you that I’m not just playing around with him. You’re scared that I’m going to take him away but it’s honestly not possible.” He said.

“He will never fully be mine. I love him dearly and he feels the same for me but he will never love me more than he does for you and his hyungs. And I accept this. I already know that I can’t be his number one because you have already taken that spot.” Kyuhyun said, his voice getting quieter and shakier with each word.

“This is…” His voice was wavering, “This is my fault isn’t? This mess that I got all of you in. I basically annoyed him into going out with me, I rushed him to tell you even though he told me that it wasn’t the right time.” He said while clenching his jaw.

Kyuhyun felt tears but he doesn’t know why. It’s not like it’s his own father on this bed but he feels the need to cry.

“This reminds me so much about when Yesungs mom passed away. Did you know that I was the last one she talked to before passing away? We were in this same hospital.” Kyuhyun began to ramble thinking of his late stepmother.

The memories of her brought tears to his eyes. His own mother was still alive and he did visit her time to time but they were never close and he was fine with that. Yesungs mom raised him along with Hyesung to help out.

He remembers sitting at her side while she slept on the hospital bed. She had a disease that her body just couldn’t take anymore but she passed away peacefully while Kyuhyun held her hand.

“Umma,” Kyuhyun called out with his eyes squeezed shut, getting lost in his memories. “U-umma don’t leave me.”

Again no response

Kyuhyun made a small noise as he tried to pull himself together. Not believing that he’s breaking down over something that happened years ago.

Kyuhyun was immediately pulled out of his thoughts when a hand placed itself on his head and then hesitantly petted him.

Slowly raising his head, he was met with the tired gaze of Kangin.

.....

Yup, I TOTALLY ended it like that

Don't hit me! O_O And yes I know, this chapter was depressing as heck but hey, he woke up! I actually had a really hard time writing this chapter because well you guys know me... I'm all about the fluff. I hope I didn't completely fail at the hurt/comfort/angst thing.

Hope you nontheless still enjoyed the chapter despite it being all depressing and stuff D:

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