If only he knew everything that happened with the past 2 years… I wish he was with me during those hard times… but he can’t be… and he doesn’t know… and I’m afraid to tell him…

Kyuhyun:you’re hiding something from me…

Me:huh? What are you talking about?

Kyuhyun:I know you very well…

Me:you know me? How can you say those words? When we’ve only spent 3 weeks together? When we’re miles and miles away from each other? How can you say that you know me very much when you don’t know what happened to me for the last 2 years? How?

He didn’t speak… but I can see in his eyes that I’ve hurt him because of what I said…

Me:I… I’m sorry… I didn’t mean to…

Kyuhyun:if you only knew… how hard it is for me… how excited I am to go here not because of the concert… but because I’m hoping that I could see you…

Me:forget it…

I decided to outside to join the others… I move towards the door… but before I could step Kyuhyun pulled me back… he was so harsh… I’ve never seen him like this… he’s always gentle… sweet and caring… he never pulls me like this… now… I’m afraid… I don’t know what to do… it hurts so much… I can’t speak… no voice came out… so I just cried… I cry because he’s hurting me so much… yet I still choose to love him… I keep on crying… I’ve forgotten that he was still there… I just want to let my emotions run… for I might explode with too much anger and pain… I know he was looking at me… but I didn’t dare to look at him…

Kyuhyun:I’m… I’m sorry… I didn’t mean to hurt you… please stop crying… I don’t want to see you cry…

Me:you just keep on saying that… but you keep making me cry too…

Kyuhyun:I’m sorry…

Me:saying sorry wouldn’t change a thing… you’ve done it already… and you can’t get it back…

Kyuhyun:I know… please forgive me… I won’t do that again…

Me:promise?

Kyuhyun:I promise…

Then he hugs me tight… and kisses me on my forehead… Aigoo… I must be really a fool… after what he did… I still forgive him… haisst… what can I do? I really love this guy… after drying my tears… we went outside to see what’s happening… he put his arm at my shoulder and pull me closer to him… and when the guys saw us…

Donghae:so… is everything’s ok now between the two of you?

Kyuhyun:ne… but just a bit… I still didn’t ask her about our plan…

Me:what plan?

Leeteuk:yeah… we have a plan… but this is not the right time to discuss it with you…

Me:oh… then when?

Heechul:in a few days… we will tell you about it…

Me:oh… ok…

Kibum… Euhyunk… Geng… and Sungmin came towards us…

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