Jimin's POV "You guys are up next." I look up once I heard what the music pd said. In just a few days for our comeback, heee we are in Macau, about to perform for a Music Show along with some fellow Kpop idols. "Hyung, you call him. I'm scared of Jimin hyung right now. He's been out of it for a week." I heard Jungkook said as he and Taehyung kept on arguing. "Yah, of course I'm scared too." Taehyung responded and I had to resist the urge to call the two and tell them that everything is fine. It has been a week since the episode with Chaeyoung and ever since that day, I haven't had the chance to talk to her. Or should I say, I don't have the guts and the balls to do so, after all those things that I've said. I didn't mean for her to hear those words and regardless, I'd say I don't fully regret saying those words because that is partly true. But I may have said those words in a wrong order that's why she felt like I was chosing them over her. I care about my brothers the same way that they care about me. But I never would have meant that I don't care about her. Of course I do! She's my wife after all and I wouldn't have fight for her after all those bulls that we've been through if my love for her isn't real. But I guess I said those words too harsely. However, I still hope Chaeyoung would listen. And at this time, I am still confused with what I want to do with my life. I can still remember Yoongi hyung's exact words after Chaeyoung left, "Are you letting her go like I did with Jisoo?" The boys were taken aback. I almost forgot how they never knew about what happened to with the two. I wanted to run towards her and tell her not to worry. But the thought of having a child this early scared the hell out of me. A baby that is so delicate, would I be able to cradle the precious baby in my arms? Will I be able to give a good future or even set a good example to the child? I'm so scared. And I can say that this is a lot more scarier than attending Billboards and standing in front of those famous celebrities. This is so real. I mean, just the thought of having a baby with the guys around, especially with Namjoon hyung with us, it's making me lose my really bad. What if it cries? How will I be able to handle that? But then just the thought of feeling the baby's warmth through my arms excites me. I will be a father. It is something that I can be proud of. Chaeyoung, I know she will be a good mother for our child. But why am I so scared? Is it normal to get scared like this? She must be scared as well, pabo. I feel like I'm turning back on my responsibility with Chaeyoung but I am fearing a lot of things, I'm afraid my heart would drop on the floor any minute. I can't even blame Jungkook and Tae for being scared of me. I started to be sensitive. My mind was wandering off lately as I think about everything, Chaeyoung, our baby, Bangtan's future and our fans. Why do I feel like I am about to lose one of them? Is it really bad that I'm having second thoughts about my decisions in life? Of course, I don't