Silence fills the dining room, the boys don't know what to say because of how shocking her confession just now. The silence starts to scare her a bit and it will be a lie if she says that she's not heartbroken because, in fact, she does hear something.

" I g-get that y-you don't love me the way I do. I just want t-to let it out you know... " she said with a shaking voice.

The boys soften up when they heard what she utters but they are not going to take the risk. Look, they've reached so far in the industry and loving someone wasn't in their musician's life-dictionary. How they struggle to spread their wings and soar high up in the air, now that someone comes into their life and the fact that it could ruin everything, they're not ready.

" I know I love her, I know I do. I love her so bad but I don't know if I'm totally ready to take what the world and the public have in store. I can't let a simple love crash my dream. This need to stop. Call me selfish, I don't care but my dreams are what matter the most. "

" Sweetheart, don't you think that this is all of a sudden? " Namjoon adds as he glances at her warily.

" I get that I'm your soulmate and all and I'm absolutely sure we all understand what you're trying to tell us but we are idols. It's not easy. " He adds.

" You don't want trouble and being with me in public is not just trouble but immediate suicide, right? " She replied with a calm voice.

She knew this was coming and she thinks that she's well prepared to listen to their opinion but it still hurts to know the truth.

" That's not what he meant by that darling. We don't want to put you in harm and we ... " Jimin tries to reason with her but she's not having it. She's not mad, she's hurt. That's different.

" You don't want to lose your fame, is that it? " She says with a slight smile on her face and that, scare the hell out of them.

" Sunshine, please. Don't be like this. We like you, we do but I don't think being in a relationship is a good thing for now, alright? " Hobie says while trying to reach her hand but get flustered when she refuses.

" I don't even ask you to be in one! Just one question, are you attracted to me? "

" Kid, can you put it in your head that we can't like someone let alone seven boys liking the same person. Do you even realise how the public will react? " Suga replies with an attitude because she's not making sense to him.

" That's not my question."

" No, no we don't. At least not as much as you do. This is overwhelming Angel. I don't like you enough to risk my career. I'm sorry. "

If what the other said aren't heartbreaking already, then this sure is. Jungkook's words just killed every hope that she has for them. She still chooses to talk nicely to them even when she's so sad but she knows she can't force them to like her. She knew she's unlovable, unattractive, harsh, mean and cold, nobody would want her so it's no big surprise actually.

" So, you're telling me that all those kisses mean nothing? All the hugs and cuddles you gave me was just a mere way of comforting me? The tears you shed because of me is just out of pity? The sleepless night that all of you had because I was away isn't enough reason to claim that you are worried about your loved ones? "

" I don't know about you but I fell in love with the way you touched me without even using your hands. " She adds and looks at them with eyes full of adoration.

" Princess, don't be like this, please. You know I love you. "

" That's the problem, you love me but you don't wanna admit it. Look, I don't wanna force any of you to like or love me. I just want you to be real for once! Snap out of the mould that the society infers you to be in and get control of them, not the other way around. Why are you letting society be the reason you can't be true to yourself? "

Before she leaves, she adds something that makes them a bit shocked.

"Destroy what destroys you. "

She leaves the dining room so that they can have time to process and she accept everything that the boys are willing to give to her. That's the best that she can do for now and she refuses to be selfish. That's not how it works when you're dealing with someone that you love, you just become selfless.

She stands in front of her room and mutters to herself, " You don't like me, it's okay. I don't like myself too. "

She gets inside her room and sends a goodnight text to her lover if she can call them that. She also gives them a reminder that they are all going to go back to the dorm and go on with their previous life. The idol life, a life full of fame while reaching for their dreams.

" The pain isn't over. Stay strong, dear self. " is the last thing that she said before she indulges herself in sleep land, a place where she can forget the horrid reality even just for a while.

She's way too tired of getting hurt, tortured physically and mentally. She knows she's getting numb to all the pain, it's not supposed to be like that. Living creatures should not have a reason to feel numb but life somehow just have a way to it up and make you feel bad for being alive.

It's morning but not a ray of sunlight is able to make their way inside to illuminate the abandoned house and reveal it in its glory. Lurin is already awake cause she needs to lead them out of there. Stretching her limb and let out some cracking noise from her body and thinking " ooh, I'm crispy... " because you know, to cheer up a bit. She drags her tired body out of bed and grunts as she heads to the bathroom to freshen up before she prepares breakfast for them.

Once she's done, she makes her way to the kitchen to prepare English breakfast for them and once she's at the entrance she says, " Oh man, I hate ing feelings. " as she remembers the event that took place yesterday.

She cooks as fast as she can cause she knows they must be starving by now and as she's working, she feels someone grabbing her waist and snaking his arms around it while resting his head on her shoulder.

" Morning, baby. " He says with a voice still laced with sleepiness.

" Oh, I'm baby now? What happens to you calling me, hot stuff? " She asks as she turns around to face him

" Well, it's not quite nice. I guess. " He says truthfully while pouting which she thinks that it's adorable.

" You guess? " She replies with a smile of adoration. She pinches his cheeks with her tiny hands before saying, " Go get ready and tell the others as well. Breakfast will be ready in a while so hurry up, we don't want a portion of cold food now, do we? "

He stares at her for quite some time that it makes her feel weird out but she shrugs it off. Well, because Taehyung and weird is a set that comes together and she just has to accept it.

" What is it Tae? Something's bothering you? "

He flashes a small smile while caressing her hair, still giving her the same look from before. He then cups her face making them both look in each other's eyes.

" You look so beautiful right now. I'm just happy I got the chance to know you. Someone as kind and nice like you don't deserve to suffer. You deserve to be happy but why is it so hard? "

" I wanna know too but it's okay. I have you, my Tae tae and the boys right by my side. I won't leave any of you, no. Not unless you tell me to. "

She removes his hand from her face and holds it tightly in her tiny, delicate hand, caressing it softly.

" And what are you talking about? I am happy. I am so happy to be with you and the boys. You're all my source of happiness. So don't be so down, alright. " she says to ensure him. He nods at her and she pushes him upstairs softly so he can get ready.

Once they finish eating, Jin and Lurin drive them back to the dorm that is well equipped with safety measurement. Lurin did that when they were away for a while because she doesn't want any of the boys getting hurt anymore. The day after, she gathers them around to have a look at all the safety measure so that they know what to do when danger arises.

_major time skip_

It's been two months and it's October now. They are busy polishing the songs for their album Wings. As they go through their life, Lurin was thrown with so many hatred from the public as well as death threats but she doesn't care less, she knows what she's capable of and their words don't really harm her but it's just the boys. They are so worried that something might happen to her and are afraid that they won't be there to help but she assures that it's under control and no one's gonna get hurt.
Today, it's October 10, 2016. The date that they release their album and Lurin doesn't really know anything about it, not even the name of the albums. It's not because she doesn't care but all of them hide it from her but on that date, they tell her that it's a gift from them to her. Hence, the name for the album is Wings and it is released on her birthday. Her first birthday with them and she is more than happy to know that.

She thanked them a lot, giving out hugs to each of them. Kisses are given everywhere on their faces but Yoongi is just not up for it. He says " ANYTHING BUT KISSES! NO! " which she replies with, " Well, not that I'm thinking to give you any. " that erupt a sea of laughter from the member when Yoongi looks at her incredulously.

Suga comes to see her privately while she is relaxing on her bed and throw a gift box right on her face.

" Someone gave it to me but I don't like it so... "

" Should I say thanks? "

" Whatever..."

He's about to leave but stops in his track as he turns back around, " The songs in the album, um... some of it, kinda "

" kinda...? " she replies, waiting for him to continue.

"Kindaaboutyousoyeahdontbesoproudofthat...bye " he rushes out of the room as soon as he finishes, leaving her astonished at the sudden rap from him.

She looks down at her hands and opens the gift, chuckling by herself.

" Someone gave it to you, huh? " She looks at the item closely and ends up giggling.

She puts it aside and stays up all night listening to the songs. She can't help but feel proud of the boys, knowing how hard they work on it and she wasn't able to help much when she visited them at the music video recording site before.

The next morning, she goes to the dining room to have brunch with them and the boys are surprised by how beautiful she looks.

Even Yoongi chokes on his food and blushes a bit because she's wearing his gift. Lurin who notice his embarrassment decides to a bit.

" Why on earth would someone give you a bridal hair vine, Yoongs? Sounds convincing... " she says sarcastically, referring to when Yoongi said he got it from someone else.

" Lie better next time sugarplum... "

As they are eating, the part that Suga said was appointed to her keep swimming in her mind. She listens to every single song yesterday night. She sighs unknowingly and tries to be okay with everything.

~*~

The light of my future is dimming
Because of my childish love, I lost my way on a path of dream
The venom of my ambition, I sharpened my knife every day
But because of my uncontrollable greed, my knife became dull
I know it all
This love is another name for the devil
Don't hold her hand
I shouted but turned away from my conscience
I feel the sharp reality more every day
There's red blood from being torn apart by reality
I never thought that
The greed would become the trumpet heralding hell

~Boy Meets Evil

🌺

Even my blood, sweat and tears
Even my body, heart and soul
I know well that I am yours
This is a spell that will punish me
But your wings are the devil's
Before your sweetness there is bitter
This is a secret between the two of us
I am addicted to the prison that is you
I cannot worship anyone else besides you

~ Blood Sweat & Tears

🌸

Am I wrong, fallin' in love with you
Tell me am I wrong
While your other man was out there
Cheatin' and lyin', steppin' all over you

~Am I Wrong

💮

You worth it you perfect
Deserve it just work it
You look elegant
Also, you're pretty,
You shine,
You're the truth and the reason
If anyone keeps insulting you,
Tell em you're my lady
Go tell them
Whatever other people say
Whatever this world tells you
You're the best to me just the way you are
Oh bae don't lower yourself
Okay don't set yourself to them
You're mine
You're beautiful enough
Don't worry don't worry
Baby, you're beautiful

~ 21st Century Girls

🌹

Lets only walk on flower trails
I can't say that
Lets only see good things
I can't say that either
Saying that there will only be good things from now on
Saying that you won't get hurt
I can't say that
I can't lie like that
Its okay come on when I say one two three forget it
Erase all sad memories
Smile holding onto each other's hands

~2!3! Still Wishing There Will Be Better Days

🌻

*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*! SPOILER*!*!*!*!*!*!*!*

" Someone will love you, but that someone isn't me... "

" You've crushed my heart with your action. I can't believe you can be this low...Your love was fake but all the pain was real... "

~*~ ~*~ ~*~ ~*~

A/N: it's here peeps...The end is coming soon. Three more chapters to go. I was thinking to keep writing until 40 chappies but I'm going to get really busy this month so that's out of the plan. I hope you enjoy this one. When I complete this book, I will go back to the very first chap and start editing.. see you soon?